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11/10/2021

OKKKKK SO haha fun fact, today went to shit. so i woke up at around like 8 to get ready spent no joke 2 hours STRAIGHT trying to find an outfit and then went downstairs to get shouted at by my mum for literally no reason aswell. she is going through menopause or something istg she was dancing and crying to her finnish music on full volume last night so like i mean something is definetly up hahah. she has covid tho oops... and she was threatening to not let me get my belly button pierced.. thank god for my dad tho he convinced her to like breathe hahha. so we went to town and i had checked on the website the like opening times. i had google opening times and it said they were closed on sundays but then i looked at their facebook and it said they opened at 11 on sundays sooo we went but it was closed UGHH. so me and my friend Daniella (fake name btw) just walked around a bit yk and then we tried to buy drinks from this shops that usually always sellsss (also where i bought drinks with t once) but they ided us so we smoked at the park. my lungs are already fucked so who gives a shit at this point. then i bought a top from urban yummy and got changed bc i hated my outfit :) i also finally bought a new eyeliner pencil and it works so well !!!

we then went to daniella’s korf ball game pahaha bc her dad needed her to sub in so i sat there for an hour or two snapping peoplee. then we went back and got maccies ( had a wrap, fruit bag and water about 400 cals) and was my first thing i ate today yayy. we then climbed to the top of this mound aha and we had to jump a fence to get there. there was this woman watching from her window oopss. anyway we made a pact that if we are both not married at 80 we will get married and that we want to be remembered as cool people no matter what it takes. heh. we took a bunch of photos aswell it was so cute bc the sun was setting it was 7 pm. then i got picked up and daisy caught the train home. we are going to sneak out to LONDONN and also we are going to go to town a load and hopefully t can come as he’ll be out of isolation and we can go and sit on the mound :))))

when i got home i cut my hair ahh bc it was getting too long but i also kinda didnt rlly want to cut it bc todd likes long hair but tbf it really needed a trim bc the ends were soo split and dead haha so i cut like a bit and i acc rlly like itt. i asked t iff i should cut it and he was like nooo so i did and he said that i shouldve let him do it hahahahah. we talked a loadd yayyy and i migbht meet him tomorrow night... 

it was greatt seeing daniella again and she’s my bestieee. i am soo not ready for school tho omg i don’t want to go AT ALL UGHHH.

mia xoxo

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9/10/2021

ughh. my life is going to shit as usual. thought it was was going too well... i mean tbf it’s mercury retrograde so i should’ve expected it. still sucks tho. so t didn’t snap me ALL DAY until 8pm so i ghosted him for an hour then snapped back and he snapped back straight away but now i’ve been on delivered for 2 hours. i mean his snapscore isn’t going up thaat much but it’s still going up. and tbf he could just be ill but it just makes me sad yk... also the chalet skiing thing with my friend is cancelled bc her parents are getting a divorce :(( ugh i was soooo excited for that. my sister had a regatta today and she won yay!

i had a meltdown about my body and life and everything today and i moved around and re organised my wholee room... it’s nice now but i just hate life atm. it’s just so shit. i also checked the opening times for the piercing place for tomorrow and one website said it’s closed but another said it opens at 11 so i rllyy don’t want to get my hopes up about it. ofc i already kind of have but i’m lowering them drastically. my package didn’t even arrive so i have no clothes for tomorrow. i tried planning my outfit but everything just looks shit and i can’t deal. omg also if i row on monday and capsize, my belly button piercing is soo going to get infected!! hopefully i won’t. 

i’m going to get drunk tomorrow. i need to. i’m sad todd won’t even be there but ig i could meet him at night? hopefully. i could even meet him in the week bc he is in isolation and i’m immune now. that is if he doesn’t fucking cancel. right why is it that i’m so obssessed with him oh my god get a grip mia he probably doesn’t like me bc he realises i’m obssessed with him!! but also what if i’m like rlly bad at showing my emotions and he doesn’t even realise i like him. like i can’t decide which one it iss or if i’m doing fine but he just isn’t showing anyy interest..? omg he’s so funnny paha last night he said ‘i can’t taste anything, do u want head?’ pahah. wish he wasn’t joking ngl... anyways i’m going to bed now bc i have to wake up pretty early for tomorrow <3

mia xoxo

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8/10/2021

so, as u guys probably guessed, he cancelled on me. we were going to sneak out tonight and meet again but when i said are we meeting tn? he just said no. not even any explanation... just no. today has been an interesting day, i stayed up until 5 - talking to him and i woke up at 12 and i was soo excited about meeting him. i was blasting music in the kitchen all morning and dancing and singing. i was the happiest i’ve been in the longestt time. i went on a 5k walk with my dog O & watched KUWTK when i got home. i also washed my hair and shaved. i keep trying to tell myself i did it for Sunday but tbh it was definitly bc i thought i was going to meet T. i like him so much but he will never understand how much him doing this hurts me. i just want to see him. whenever i’m with i just fee l at peace and like nothing else matters. cringey, ik. we can talk for hours about literally nothing and not run out of convo but i need to get over him. i hope he’s ok and doesn’t feel the same as i do right now. i don’t need a man anyways. i’m a cool, independent confident gal who likes being strong and independent. i’ll get over this, easyy. ahh so excited for sunday thoo i’m getting my belly button pierceddd yeee. and then school on monday ah. kinda excited to see people irl again tbh but also not. i haven’t talked to D (discord boy) properly for 2 days oops but he asked to vc tonight but i didn’t reply... i’m so grateful to him and all my discord friends bc i would nott have survived isolation without them! tomorrow is my final day of isolation :)) i get out of breath running up the stairs pahha but i don’t feel ill anymore thankfully.

does he think about me? does he think about someone else the way i think about him? does he care about me? what would he do if i went to hospital, would he visit me? what would i do if he was in an accident? what does he think about me, if he does? does he think i’m pretty or fun to be around? does he want to see me as much as i want to see him? does he miss me??? does he ever wonder how i’m doing or what i’m thinking about or is that just a load of bullshit that only happens in movies. i will probably never know but i woahh i ask myself that a lot...

anyways, talk tomorrow,

mia xoxo

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ABSOLUTE BANGER WHAT DRUGS DID THEY PUT IN THIS SONG I CAN’T I LOVE IT

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t...

i just snapped with him for about an hour :)) we talked about kinda random shit but basically he has covid ( i didn’t give it to him tho bc we met exactly a week ago and he would’ve got symptoms earlier) but he asked me to meet him tonight but then we realised he ahs his PCR at 8 tomorrow so we are meeting tomorrow night if he doesn’t feel too ill, which he probably will... his isolation ends next sunday if he acc has covid which is acc ideal bc thats when i get back from dofe so he can’t meet anyone while i’m away tehe. he is going to reading festival!! i wanna go soo bad and i hopefully will... hopefully i meet him tomorrow night <3 i also haven’t washed my hair for almost exactly 2 weeks now paha so i will wash it tomorrow in case i meet him. also for sundayy, i am meeting my friend and we are getting the drunk ( same day i’m getting my belly button pierced!) and i’m excited. if my parcel arrives in time i’m going to  wear my white linen trousers. ralph lauren top and either ed hardy hoodie or nike coat (or both tbh) 

mia <3

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i miss him <3

the pics aren’t us btw but they look a lot like him... (creds to pinterest for making me miss himm :((((  )

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can't stop staring at those ocean eyes

billie eilish <3

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heyyy!!

i’m mia and this is my blog. so basically i just had the realisation that we are only teenagers for so long and i want to remember more than just a few heartbreaks and partys when i’m old and gross so i’m going to document everything i do on here. ok maybe not everything, but you know.. enough to keep it interesting. so, follow me and get ready to hear about my life for the next 3 years <3

introduction:

i live in the UK and i’m quince anos (15) but shh don’t report me plz... i am 5′7 and my hobbies are rowing and i love listening to music because it’s my escape from reality. when i’m older i want to be a marine biologist or something to do with fashion. i would say i’m a fun person and i love being sociable but i do need time alone now and again. i like a boy who i don’t think likes me back haha and i currently have covid-19. so last week i snuck out my window at night to meet said boy but i didn’t realise i had covid so he now has covid but i haven’t told him i have covid. i feel kind of bad but i mean it’s fine. i’ve been isolating for a week now and i spent £220 on clothes whelpp. this is getting deep already but i have an eating disorder which i was recovering from (thanks to rowing) but now i’m relapsing and i think it’s because i’m missing that control aspect of having a routine and going to school which i can’t do now i’m isolating but hopefully when i go back to rowing and school and a consistent routine i can focus on recovering again. i might get my belly button pierced on sunday - the day i get out of isolation and i am beyondd excited!! my friend maya (fake name) got hers pierced and it looks soo good and i’m really hoping it will make me feel better about my stomach etc. i’m kinda worried it will hurt at rowing tho but i won’t be doing anything that intense anyway as i just had covid. 

it’s nearly half term!! i’m so excited, i’m finally going to have time to see my friends outside of school again because i usually don’t as i have a very hectic schedule. basically i finish school at 4 everyday then i have rowing until 6.15 ot 6.30 everyday except fridays. on fridays i coach gymnastics for 2 hours and then have 2 hours of gymnastics and then on weekends i have rowing from 8-12 and after that i usually go out and socialise or do homework so half term will be soo fun. the first weekend i have a school thing called DOFE with one of my friends tho so that should be fun and then when i get back from that (it’s a weekend) my friend is staying with me for a week bc her parents are going on holiday YAYY. then it will almost be halloween (i’m being harley quinn :)) and then i can start counting down days until chrtistmas!! i’m also going to the same friends chalet and christmas and i’m soo excited. ahh my life is going to be pretty fun, and it already kinda is. i also realised i lovee autumn.

mmk that’s all for now but i will update soon

mia xoxo