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when ur mutuals are mutual with each other 

pro: squad con: i saw this post like 18 times today

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words i would like to say to you

I don’t even think of you

i have nothing to say to you

i forgave you a very long time ago

But we both know that’s not totally true now, don’t we?

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and yet i dated her. yeah. yeah, well done Lenny. really good.

theres smth about her that’s just screaming ‘bestie’

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i dont want you back… i miss a you and a me that existed back then. because i’m not the right me to reconnect with you. does that make sense? i don’t want you and i back either, but i am nostalgic and sad for it. that’s not a contradiction, is it?

and if we take that a step further. let’s be real, you were the person you are today back then too. it was in you all along — it was a car wreck waiting to happen… i knew this then i know this now. do i miss you still, faults and all? yeah.

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you were my best friend, you were my ex-lover… now we’re nothing. if i could have you back as a friend i wouldn’t. at the same time i hope every day that you come crawling back so i can spurn you. show you what it feels like. simultaneously i miss you like anything. but if i could experience our friendship without any strings or history for a even a second i couldn’t even want that. and yet if you ever came back i know what i would do… in my dreams i’m screaming at you and tearing you apart like you did me, but i know that in other dreams i just hug you. if i saw you, in real life, i suspect i would be frozen with shock or grief and be unable to move or speak altogether, simply tell you, with a mild expression that i have nothing to say to you. but my soul would reach out to yours and i would hug you. i would hug you, and hug you, and hug you. on the spot i would absolve you and a second later i might cast you out on the street. but for that one most-important precious second, i would hug you. does that even make sense? explain that…

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how can you miss someone and not want them back?

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huh still 255/280

what's your LGBTQ+ culture rank?

gender confuses you +15

can't drive +10

can't do math +5

only wears flannel +20

owns at least 3 pairs of converse/vans +10

doesn't dress appropriately according to the weather (i.e. sweaters in july) +25

was told that it's "just a phase" +15

closeted +20

very loudly, proudly out +20

doesn't understand sexuality or anything at this point +25

"you're just confused" +15

emotionally attached to every english/language teacher you've had +10

had a crush on your best friend at some point +15

has an all LGBTQ+ friend group +20

^with one Token Straight™ +5

can't leave the house without cuffing your jeans or rolling your shirt sleeves +10

had an existential crisis at 14 +20

has always known you were queer +5

didn't know you were queer until you were in your late teens or early twenties +5

grew up in a conservative household +10

add up your points and rb with your total --/280

part 2 coming soon

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One of the biggest problems with being demisexual is that I literally have no clue if I'm crushing on someone or if I'm just attached to them and that also means I'll never be able to tell if they like me like that too or if I'm just imaging it entirely

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theres smth about her that’s just screaming ‘bestie’

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255/280

what's your LGBTQ+ culture rank?

gender confuses you +15

can't drive +10

can't do math +5

only wears flannel +20

owns at least 3 pairs of converse/vans +10

doesn't dress appropriately according to the weather (i.e. sweaters in july) +25

was told that it's "just a phase" +15

closeted +20

very loudly, proudly out +20

doesn't understand sexuality or anything at this point +25

"you're just confused" +15

emotionally attached to every english/language teacher you've had +10

had a crush on your best friend at some point +15

has an all LGBTQ+ friend group +20

^with one Token Straight™ +5

can't leave the house without cuffing your jeans or rolling your shirt sleeves +10

had an existential crisis at 14 +20

has always known you were queer +5

didn't know you were queer until you were in your late teens or early twenties +5

grew up in a conservative household +10

add up your points and rb with your total --/280

part 2 coming soon

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200/280

what's your LGBTQ+ culture rank?

gender confuses you +15

can't drive +10

can't do math +5

only wears flannel +20

owns at least 3 pairs of converse/vans +10

doesn't dress appropriately according to the weather (i.e. sweaters in july) +25

was told that it's "just a phase" +15

closeted +20

very loudly, proudly out +20

doesn't understand sexuality or anything at this point +25

"you're just confused" +15

emotionally attached to every english/language teacher you've had +10

had a crush on your best friend at some point +15

has an all LGBTQ+ friend group +20

^with one Token Straight™ +5

can't leave the house without cuffing your jeans or rolling your shirt sleeves +10

had an existential crisis at 14 +20

has always known you were queer +5

didn't know you were queer until you were in your late teens or early twenties +5

grew up in a conservative household +10

add up your points and rb with your total --/280

part 2 coming soon

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— Clavell, River, “An Inconsolable Prelude”

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i think tongue tied by grouplove makes us all go a special kind of insane

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update: gonna see black widow with her in july ✌️😳

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ahh thank uuu <3

@idkmanjustdying @outletforthegay

I want to make a hug chain- so- yeah- Hugs! Tag as many people as u want!

@bisexual-in-space @lylysma

I hope this isn’t weird ;w;

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selected diaries, virginia woolf / abandonment (the pair), henri de toulouse-lautrec / pillow thoughts, courtney peppernell / in bed, henri de toulouse-lautrec / work song, hozier / the two friends, henri de toulouse-lautrec / portrait of a lady on fire (2019), dir. céline sciamma

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i fucking love wanda maximoff you guys