teeth--goblin

[teeth--goblin]

I want you to want me

Why can’t you love me

Like I’ve always loved you

These summer thunder storms

Are beginning to grow weary

I’m still not tired

Of smoking every time I see you

I swear it storms

Every time I kiss you

I’m feeling so alone

Without you in my bed

Baby I want you to want me

Like I want you

You said you loved it

When you smelled like my clone

Can we dance like you said we did

In your dreams

Can we smoke together baby

And watch the world burn

You always said we’d dance together in a fire

Baby why can’t you love me

Like I’ve always loved you

You’re poison to me

I’m poison to you

We’re both so afraid

To tear down these walls

But you always said you’d dance with me

After we died

Can’t we be two ghosts

Living in the after life

Smoke on our tongues

Every time we hang

Baby won’t you stay with me

While this earth dies

Won’t you stay with me

When we die young

Just Like everyone we’ve loved

[teeth--goblin]

Don’t sleep away the day because you won’t feel better tomorrow

The taste Of cigarettes and caffeine on your lips

you’re not doing so well lately

Work late shifts

so you don’t have to see

your mother cry

[teeth--goblin]

Sometimes I think about dying

And why I can’t just listen to the universe

I think I’m gonna live forever

Honey jars can’t save me

But these ghosts will protect me

Stay quiet so your father won’t yell

Live peacefully so the rest will die

Decompose in the rural country

Become the worm food you named yourself after

Your concious awareness won’t make you immortal

But oh I’m still gonna live forever

Don’t you think it’s about time

We listen to the universe

Because it’s the end of the world

And we’re all thinking a little

About dying

You’re thinking everything is gonna be fine

But baby it’s the end of the line

So let’s rest a little together

And we can hold hands

While we become the worm food we named ourself after

Baby I’ve been thinking a lot about dying

I think maybe this is the end of the line

Listen to the charming sounds

Of the birds singing

Warning of the storm

I think I’m gonna live forever

Only if I can listen

To the things the universe tells me

All these things that I’ll never never know

But I know the world is ending

And that I am content

If this is to much

We can sit in our rocking chairs

And think about the times we’ve had

Knowing we’ve lived every future

And every past

But baby we’re gonna live forever

Because we’ll become the worm food we named ourselves after

[teeth--goblin]

Heart of gold

Will continue to rust

As I get old

Lavender headaches

And lavender dreams

If I continue to make

These broken mirrors

Would you let me redeem

The sins my mother

Committed

Rocks in your garden

Will harden the soil

Harden a mans heart

[teeth--goblin]

These strawberries will get sour

Before they get ripe

There’s blood running down your ankles

And there’s flies in your eyes

Stale cigarettes and warm Pepsi

Even the ants know when it’s about to rain

Raspberries will always mold first

[teeth--goblin]

Drink dandelion tea

Take a hot shower

To burn your scalp

I don’t wash my hair

So I don’t have to replace the bandages on my hands

Don’t pop the blisters

Made from writing letters

Sleep with seven wild flowers in your pillow

So that you can have a peaceful rest

Dry skin and biting at my finger nails

I’m always going to feel this lonely

Foggy mirrors so I don’t have to see my chest

Get dressed so you hate yourself a little less

I’m tired of writing poetry in my head

Beetle wings will keep you just as safe

As your fathers arms

[teeth--goblin]

Time doesn’t move the same as it used too

There’s dead flies in my coffee

Cutting your hair

Won’t heal you

We still get

Lavender headaches

What was that word you could never remember

Pull out your teeth

To give yourself a sense of control

The dreams I have

Are the same as the life I live

Rosemary and chamomile in my pillow

To make me feel a little closer

To the life that I’ll never have

[teeth--goblin]

My flesh will continue to melt

And will I ever stop feeling this tired

Will I ever see the man in my dreams again

Or hear that voice again

Mushrooms aren’t as beautiful

When their decomposing your best friend

Do I have to keep losing

My childhood friends

Don’t you know

I don’t ever want to lose you

Oh I’m rotting from the inside out

My organs are failing

My eyes will grow yellow

And I’ll never see you again

[teeth--goblin]

I’m not happy here either

I just wish I could keep the peace here

But I could never keep the peace

Anywhere

These summer nights are killing me

Everything fucking here is killing me

I can’t keep blaming Everything

on you

Maybe you were never the problem

I was always the problem

I’m going to keep carrying him with me

Aren’t I?

I don’t want to feel like this

I want to sleep

take luke warm showers

I’m sorry I could never say sorry

And That I made you cry

I don’t feel like I deserve this love anymore

But I don’t want this pain

[teeth--goblin]

And maybe if I would just listen

To the birds outside my friends window

I would find it’s a little more quiet

Then the humming in the forest

The coffee poured on the stained carpet

Will still remain

I’ll still sing you a lullaby

With my voice shot

Adrenaline on coffee

Won’t be able to wake me

I’ll still sip coffee on the porch

While you still sleep

I’ll make sure to clean up the mess

Before you wake

[teeth--goblin]

There’s so much love in solitude

I can barely keep up with the state of my own conscious awareness

Am I the one that broke us apart

Was I the one that never did enough

I know who you really are

Who you really are is

Ugly

Are you the dripping oil man

Or was he my own voice

Will this ever really make sense

Or will I always feel this nauseas

The moon light doesn’t shine

In my window anymore

I’ll never get to hear you sing again

Was this my choice

Or was this yours

Would you ever really let me leave

I was never your son

I was just a good hostage

[teeth--goblin]

Why do I have to be dying

For you to let me rest

Even so that’s wrong

You never took me to the hospital

Dreams of honey and whiskey

I still know your license plate

And the sound of your motorcycle engine

I’ll try to think of sea salt water

And the boy that played me ukulele

Dew drops on chamomile flowers

Won’t always be there

But they’ll make me feel a little less sick

I still feel like crying

Maybe leaving

Wasn’t what I was supposed to do

I just want to be home

My heart doesn’t seem to belong

Anywhere

[teeth--goblin]

I’ll get up quietly

As to not wake you

I’ll make some hot tea

Right before I leave

I won’t take anything with me

I’ll cut my hair

To not carry the weight

I never thought I’d live this long

To say goodbye to you

I never want to leave my bed

It’s much to cold

But there’s coffee brewing

And it’s going to burn

I can’t think

Over this piano music

I’m real sick of writing this poetry

About you

I’m so sick of drinking honey

It’s not so sweet

Anymore

[teeth--goblin]

I don’t owe you anything

When I’ve done nothing but love you

Don’t you know I’d kill myself

If you asked me too

Don’t you know

Just a week ago

You refused to say you loved me

You’ve lost me

And you’ve lost him

You’re begging for your children back

I’m begging for my childhood back

Don’t you know

How much poison I’ve drank

Why can’t you be thankful

That I’m still alive

Let your anger consume you

I’ll look at the night sky

Without ever thinking of you

If you did it out of love

why did you make me suffer for it

[teeth--goblin]

I’ve been here long enough

That I’ve begun to stain my bedsheets here too

Sugar at the bottom of these coffee cups

That begin to collect in my room

There’s still that feeling of dread

That I had when I was with you

I can not bare to look in my closet

I know that’s where you hide

I am still that little boy

That cried without knowing

So drink some hot tea

You’ll feel better

And I will write you my letter

When I’m not feeling

so angry at the world

[teeth--goblin]

Honestly, pen pal are such a good way to have something to look forward to

[teeth--goblin]

writing a letter to my pen pal and drawing little mushrooms on the envelope, and sending little stickers and dried flower petals and pressed flowers,, putting little bits of washi tape with plant print on the letter and to close the envelope. Good times