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What a time 2 be alive

thankful thankful thankful, I am growing and learning, and doing things I wouldn't usually do and I want to write all about all the exciting things to come, the things I am doing, or how I have come to the realization that I will graduate in a year (wutttt!!??) but I need to study and I want to properly write about the ending of the semester, upcoming events, new friends, etc.- so it will have to wait a little longer. Just know, I am feeling very thankful and optimistic (weird, I know) 

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first tattoo, capricornus constellation. the stars are drawn on top of preexisting freckles i had

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real friends // sixteen

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Grades out, im making it, which is a nice change bc most of the time Im not in a good "place" with my studies. 5 page paper due in 3 days and a presentation coming soon so i got plenty of time to fuck it up, trust me.

Anyways, my clinical was in the Emergency Room yesterday and that was dope. Nothing crazy happened but the change of pace is nice. Med/surg is basically just giving pills, but with the ER you get people in and out or get them admitted and put where they needed to be. They arent all old. This one guy had broke his foot, another lady almost passed out after a concussion, and I even got to dig around in a ladys arm in an attempt to get blood work done. Its way better than the traditional bedside nursing. Im not rlly tryin to spend the whole shift with the same 5 patients, not my thing. It was cool hearing their crazy stories too. Until then, I hate med/surg and want the semester to be ovER

Best regards,

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9 hrs later, okay byE

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Dead and Gone // State Champs

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Im in a slump, send help.

Boy oh boy, have I been in a slump. Shits been real, I don't like the idea of change and nostalgia has been hitting me hard. Don't get me wrong I hate nursing school, but college has been the best time of my life and it is coming to an end soonish. With that gloomy cloud hanging over me, I feel more obligated to start figuring things out with my life. Getting ready for the next chapter, get my shit together, I guess. But I really rather not. Id like to live in a shitty house for a few more years with my friends, while we stress over college, but it doesn't work that way. Even from sophomore year things have changed so much, and I can't stop things from evolving because we are all growing up. It will just suck to end this chapter of my life, it was the best time of my life. But, yeah, just because I graduate doesn't mean they won't be there, things will just be different, and I fucking hate different man.  

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My little heart

Last night was so much fun. I kind of wish it was less fun, or that everything didn't go so well. I hate it when I like someone too much because then when it doesn't work out it is harder to rationalize. I usually don't care, but I guess this time I do and honestly, I want to be just friends now so that nothing goes wrong and we can continue to hang out because I don't want things to get weird or end badly, he is too cool and it’s not worth it. 

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Bad Day- got worse

No one wants to feel incompetent or continuously do something they aren't good at, which is one of the many reasons why nursing school sucks. I never know what the fuck Im doing and you can try so fucking hard and still fail, sounds like bullshit to me. It’s not just failing the test, it feels like you're failing in general and it’s fucking annoying, and Im over it. don't talk to me. bye

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Hello everyone. Been awhile. Wow have a lot to catch up on, if you want to interact more follow me on insta @abaybayboyer. BUT I’ll give a mini summary •moved out of my house I was renting and I’m THANKFUL 🌟 •living with my favorite people now and I get to see my bf everyday and that is a blessing •I have big ole life changes coming in the next month so stay tuned bc I am honestly so excited but also nervous •signed up for two big running races!!!! •work is crazy bc immigration is blowing up in the worst way so that is stressssful. and I have been sooo busy with social things which is good but I need some chill time in a big way. Hope everyone is thriving!!

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Van Damme State Park, Mendocino, CA

ft. the most amazing socks, given to me by @musingsoflulu

I cried at the end of this run because I didn’t know I was strong enough to do the full trail but I did