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...Sometimes,

it's scary how fans can either be the most supporting, precious and educated people i've ever seen or the most delusional, meanest and obsessed human beings.

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...can we just cancel this whole "cancel culture"?

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I am so, so dissappointed.

I don't know what's up with certain Kpop "fans" lately, that are overreacting about everything idols did/do or said/say.

!! Give idols a break, holy sh*t. Stop this unreasonable hunt for things that idols, moreover human beings, did and that may or not may have been controversial. These people are literally waiting for idols to become more popular, more known and then try to destroy their career by being dramatic over the most ridiculous things.

Why? They are human beings but are not allowed to speak their mind or have a private life? They're just like us, but can't make mistakes?

Dear god, get yourselves a life and mind your own business.

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I am just so, so heartbroken reading this...

[INTERVIEW] Wonho’s Exclusive Interview with Dispatch

[Dispatch = Reporter Kim Soo-ji]

“In fact, I wasn’t at peace.”

I asked why.

“I know my fault...”

Wonho took out his past.

”Any words would only be excuses. I was wrong.“

He continued.

”So I did my best. So that I would never live like that again.“

Then he talked about his love for the fans.

“I have receive something that’s called love. So at least, I don’t want to disappoint them.”

Dispatch interviewed Wonho, who was active as Monsta X, in February, when the investigation of marijuana accusation was in action.

“Yes, I admit my past. I was childish. I am trying to not live like that. I only think about the other members, the group, our fans.”

And added. It was all a misunderstanding.

“I didn’t do marijuana. The police is currently investigating it. When my innocence is proven, please write my story.”

”I want to apologize and I want to clear the misunderstandings. And I want to earn apology.“ Then he told the story of his childhood.

◆ “Those days, I was unhappy”

A rental apartment in Sanbon-dong, Gunpo-si, Gyeonggi-do. A (small) living room and one room were all. There, he lived with his grandmother, father, mother and younger brother.

“Until I was 20, we lived in a small rented apartment. My grandma had the room so my father, my mother, me and my brother had to sleep in the living room together. I didn’t know it was poverty, back then.”

Then when he entered elementary school, he couldn’t get along with his friends. And he was bullied. He was made miserable, repeatedly. Wonho was a timid child with a lot of fears.

“One day they bullied me because I was dirty, the other day because I was boring. My friends hated me. To be honest this is a memory I don’t want to recall.

"In other words, I was an outcast. My house was not peaceful, either. Because my parents often fought. So I spent more time outside, everyday. Then I met some unfamiliar hyungs on the neighbourhood, and I followed them around.”

◆ “Being bad was better”

Then after that, no one bullied him. In fact, he felt like he was the one who scared them. And he said he liked how his friends felt uncomfortable with him.

“One day, I bumped with the friend who used to bully me. Unconsciously I flinched. But that friend said 'Hoseok, I’m sorry’ first.

Suddenly I felt good. I shouldn’t though..’ Wonho stopped being an outcast. But he wasn’t happy. And even his personality changed. It was when he was at the high school.

"That day too, my parents were fighting. I suddenly felt like I couldn’t breathe. I no longer saw hope (in my house). I left the house without any plan.

I didn’t know the price of a family back then.” The outside world was more dangerous. He met with new friends and things went awry. His friends received received punishment for special theft. Wonho was placed on probation.

“I don’t want to blame my friends. Because that was my choice too. I know it sounds like and excuse, but I was childish. It’s my fault. I did wrong. I’m sorry.”

◆ “I have a dream”

Wonho’s teenage was empty. But then when he was at the second grade of high school he met Jung Daeun.

“We got close pretty soon. We became fitting model together. Daeun helped me a lot. She cheered me so I can dream my dream to become a singer.”

Before his 20s, Wonho, no, Hoseok was rough. He blamed the reality and went off the way. But after his 20s, Lee Hoseok, no, Wonho changed. He countered the reality and became better.

“I saw some friends who practiced like crazy. They were dreaming something called ‘dream’. I was ashamed. I lived only by blaming others.. So I promised. That I would not waste my life any longer.”

Then Wonho practiced day and night. He went to the company whenever he could. When he needed to practice alone, he would go to the emergency stairs and practiced there.

“With my fellow trainees I danced and sang over night. It wasn’t hard. Because I got the hope that ‘there’s a future for me, too.’ I was happy. And I also really liked living together with them. I learned a lot for 4 years.”

◆ "The past stood in the way”

Then he debut with Monsta X in 2015. He released 12 albums in Korea. America, Europe and Asia. It paid off. At the time, they ranked 39th in the 'Billboard’ Pop songs chart (2019). It was the third time in K-pop history.

And Wonho ran for the future too in 2019. But then his past tripped him. The accusation of debt, theft and even marijuana use in 2013.

“There’s my fault, but there’s a misunderstanding too. Of course it’s something I cant reverse. Being in a similar environment doesn’t mean that I go out of line too. I reflected a lot when I was under probation (for special theft).”

Wonho no longer gives excuses. He admits his past and he was sorry for it. But for the marijuana use, he strongly denied. He never touched any drugs at all.

“I admit the problem with my past. But what’s not is not. I never do marijuana. And I have explained this part clearly to the police.”

And after the investigation for more than 5 months, they released the statement that there’s no proof of him using marijuana. And they also investigated about the other drugs but there’s no proof either.

◆ “I didn’t want to hurt you”

Wonho left his group in October. “I was really doing my best to prepare for the new album. I really hate seeing Monsta X fall (because of me). I thought that dropping out sooner would be the path for the group to live. I wanted to block the damage as best as I could.”

One more, there’s Monbebe in his decision.

“I can talk about this confidently. After I met Monbebe, I changed a lot. I know how it felt to be loved. I want to live my life even better day by day.”

According to him, he only had Monbebe. His daily life was all about composing, working out and communication (with Monbebe). He actually talked with Monbebe for 3-4 hours during the world tour via V Live.

“Actually it’s the first time I ever felt those warmth. So I don’t want to disappoint them. I only want to do the things that the fans like. I want to return the love. But…”

◆ "But I’m sorry”

He recalled his past and wondered what he could do. And the only answer was withdrawal. He thought that that would (at least) lessen the fans’ pain.

“I have promised a lot to my fans. I said I would always be by their side. I’m sorry I could only leave you like this. I live only by looking at you, though..”

Then he explained why he could only do that.

“I lived my past as Lee Hoseok, and now I live as Wonho. Is Wonho responsible for the things Hoseok did? I have to be. At the end, my past hurt you. I want to lessen your pain.”

Wonho didn’t go out of the house for a long time. He was afraid it would give damage to the people around him so he lived holding his breath. And then he was free from the accusation of marijuana. He said it was a relief.

“Even now I can’t forget my fans. Rather, I regret it. I should have treated you better. I just want to say I’m sorry, that’s why I did this interview.”

Translation by @nunudanaa Original article at Dispatch

[thaticychica]

Trust us when we say there’s ongoing legal matters.

I’ve been saying this since the beginning and the amount of anons and non-anons I’ve had who have tried to (maliciously) argue with me and others is amazing.

You cannot be outspoken when dealing with legal cases. Trust the process and stop trying to pry for information because they can’t directly answer you.

All that can be done right now is continuing the support and love.

(Posting: January 21, 2020 - 10:08 AM US Mountain Time)

[thaticychica]

Listen,

I just knew that some 'fans' of EXO were going to be little b*tches sooner or later.

But calling Chen selfish for falling in love and wanting to have his own family is just straight f*cked up. And demanding him to leave EXO is just why he hid it in the first place. To protect his girlfriend/fiancé and his members.

He knew you some of you crazy idiots were going to be overdramatic. And here we are.

Just imagine how dissappointed EXO would be if they read those comments. You should be ashamed of yourselves.

Get your life together and let him be happy if you really love EXO.

He's going to be such an amazing dad and husband, I am so happy about him finding happiness. And I bet so are his members. ❤

SM, you better protect him and EXO for once.

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I can't describe how much I love them.

With everything that was done to Monsta X, Changkyun couldn't have said that any better. I love him.

Let the haters bark - Changkyun (2019)

Their faces when he said that though 😆😂

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Hell yeah. Kihyun didn't raise us to be weak.

Monbebes,

I know you probably are still processing it and keep fighting as well as I do. But these here made me laugh and I hope it will make you too.

Please remember to eat lots, drink and stay hydrated (especially if you cry lots like I did/do :')), get enough sleep, watch a movie, read a book, distract yourself, get some nice coffee (if you like it), go out with a friend, catch some fresh air, just take care of yourselves, we need you all, we are one family, much love ❤

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help. my heart is about to burst.

so cute 😭

[thaticychica]

R.I.P Sulli...

Another wonderful soul has left us not too long ago and i am devasted.

Even though I was never too much into her and f(x), i really really liked her. She showed us how much of a beautiful human being she was, many times.

She did not deserve any of the things that were done to her. She never did harm to anyone and people still gave her a hard time. And there was nothing anyone could do about it, cause those coward-haters were hiding behind their screens.

Guys, wake up. It's 2019, this kind of bullying is no joke.

And to those faceless, cowardly killers out there,

If you haven't got anything better to do, except destorying a innocent person's life, you should check your priorities.

Get. A. Life.

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What is even going on!? 😂😂

i'm going insane.

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Love, Guns and Roses (Mafia AU!) Chapter 1

Summary: After your mother passed away, your father wasn’t able to pay his debt and you were forced to marry the son of the NCT clan’s boss - Kim Do Young, in order to make up for your father’s mistakes. And now you’ll have to deal with your future husbands and the NCT clans business. 

Genre: ...angst, I guess?

Words: 2.3k

„I know I am probably the last person on earth you want to talk to right now, but we have to get going soon.”, a deep yet soft voice spoke when a man opened the door of your bedroom, while watching you from afar.

“I’ll be ready.”, you said, your back facing him.

How pitiful you looked – all curled up in your own yet so unfamiliar bed.

Your bedroom was filled with darkness, not even the slightest ray of sunshine to be seen.

Your hair was a mess, your eyes puffy and your face wet from all the tears that were rolling down.

“Okay… We’re leaving in about half an hour. Meet me at the entrance.”, he half-whispered, glancing at your fragile form one last time, before closing the door – leaving you to your somber bedroom and loneliness.

You took a deep breath and sat up, taking in the room, that was going to be a part of your new life.

You looked to your left, where a sinfully expensive, long dress hung on a hook attached to your new closet and then down to the floor, where a pair of fancy high heels stood, waiting to be worn – “those are going to kill my feet“, you said to yourself.

If you were to determine the worst day of your entire life, it would surely be this one – Today.

Not the kind of “ugh-this-is-the-worst-day-of-my-life-day”, no this is literally as worse as it gets.

>>>      //         Flashback       //

“Why would you do that to me, dad?!”, you almost broke down in tears every time you opened your mouth, trying to protest.

“Darling, please listen to me. Look. I know it’s unfair and I am sorry, that you have to make up for my mistakes, but we do not have another choice.”, your dad said trying to soothe you somehow, when he saw your puffy eyes.

“Dad. Please don’t make me do that. Please don’t make me marry him!”, you begged him for what feels the 100th time today and that’s the exact moment you felt your tears finally rolling down your rosy cheeks.

“I am sorry, I truly am. But if you don’t marry him, they will have no mercy. They might even kill me and do even worse things to you.”

“Why can’t you just pay him the money back somehow!? Ask for more time!”, you tried to argue, even though you knew it would be no use.

“I already did that one too many times. You know the NCT clan’s reputation, you know how much of a big deal they are. They are the most powerful Mafia Clan.”, he was right.

The NCT Clan was one of the most powerful, influential and biggest Mafia Clans. Nobody who was right in their mind would try to mess with them. There were only few Clans that were nearly as mighty and feared as the NCT Clan. 

A Clan feared by most of the other Mafia Clans, as they were known as merciless and cruel. Many of the other Clans tried to compete with them, attack them or even destroy them but all of them failed.

There is only one Clan, that’s considered as equal – the EXO Clan.

Both the NCT and the EXO Clan have many allies however they also have just as many enemies, who try to hunt them down.

Due to the enormous rivalry between the NCT and EXO Clan, both of them have the exact same goal: To annihilate the other.

The mutual desire to destroy each other has led their simple rivalry to a kind of domestic war – a war of the naughty yet subtle kind.

Your family was merely a small yet well off Mafia Clan – you were just little fishes in a big sea full of sharks.

Your childhood was fulfilling – you had everything you desired and even more. A beautiful, big house, a maid, thousands of dresses and so many toys, you could barely count them. Your family and your parents showered you with love – there was only one thing that you’ve longed for more than anything else.

A normal life – visiting a school, having friends you could hang out with afterwards and everything else that comes with it.

Instead you had a home teacher and some cousins your age that would come by every few months. As years went by, you’ve learned to accept this way of life – at least you had your loving parents.

However, the day your mother died in a horrible car accident, everything went wrong – your family went bankrupt, your father became more careless with the little money you had left and here you were.

Forced to marry some strange son of a Mafia-Boss you’ve never seen in your life, sold to the NCT Clan, like a cow back in the days.

“So you really want me to marry some strange, old man!? Someone who probably killed a whole lot of people!? You seriously want your only daughter to spend the rest of her life with a murderer!?”

“I know you’re scared. If I were you, I would be too. But I met Do Young. He is a really nice, well behaved and honorable man. He will treat you just right, I promise. Also, he just turned 23, so he isn’t even that much older than you.”

“Dad! I am 18 years old and I’ve never even been in a relationship, because you…Wait. Did you… No way.”, the moment you heard yourself speaking these words out lout, it felt like everything you believed in fell apart in this very moment.

You finally realized it.

You finally understood. You finally saw everything clear.

All these years your father kept you from having contact to the outside world.

He isolated you completely, as if you would break if anyone touched you.

Like a porcelain doll.  

But it wasn’t because he was afraid of you getting hurt.

It was because he promised the innocent you, to a son of a Mafia-Boss in order to pay back your father’s debts.

“Darling, please. It’s not what you think it is… I am sorry…”

“Please tell me you didn’t keep me isolated from the outside world, because you promised them, that I would marry their son, when I turn old enough to get engaged.”, even though you already knew his answer, you couldn’t help but asking – not wanting to believe your father would do something this unfair to you.

“Please, forgive me. I was so scared, you were so young and your mother… Your mother objected this plan of mine, nonetheless I was able to convince her. I really thought I could pay him back before you were going to turn 18 and I made her believe me... When your mother died, we didn’t have any money left to pay the funeral and I again borrowed money from the head of the NCT Clan…”

“So, you purposely locked me up at home all my life!? And even worse – you made one of the most important decisions of my life, instead of letting me decide who I want to spend the rest of my life with! Shouldn’t you, as my father, want me to marry someone I love!?”, you still couldn’t believe any of this – it’s like the man you knew, isn’t the same man standing right in front of you.

“What I wish for you or you wish yourself don’t matter anymore! You need to understand what’s important. And right now, your only priority should be your and my safety! This is not something you or I can argue with – the decision is made.

You are going to marry Kim Do Young – or else we both are dead! That is my last word.”

>>>      //        End of flashback        //

After you had change into your new, glamourous dress, fixed your face and hair, you took a last deep breath, while starring at your reflection in the mirror.

You were brought to the NCT Clan’s mansion this morning – your father didn’t even bother to escort you there – you were all by yourself, when one of the NCT Clan’s guards led you to the Boss’ office to introduce you to the Boss himself and of course – your fiancé, Kim Do Young.

And to officially announce your engagement to all of the Mafia Clans, a celebration party was going to be held this evening – they clearly weren’t planning on wasting time.

You took small steps, going down the hallway – as if walking slowly was going to change anything.

You could see Do Young standing at the entrance – wearing a luxurious, black suit.

He did look stunning – as much you hate to admit, you couldn’t deny it.

He was handsome, tall, well built and unlike his cold and stern gaze – he had the most beautiful and cutest eyes you’ve ever seen.

As soon as his ears registered the clicking sound of your high heels on the floor, he lifted his gaze and he spoke: “You’re here. You look beautiful (Y/N)…”

“Thank you…”, you mumbled shy, unsure whether he was being sincere, or trying to be polite. Anyway – how could he say that so casually even though you literally just met?

This whole time he acted like this was no big deal for him.

“This guy is Johnny– he is my and from now on also your personal bodyguard. He is of our most talented and loyal men. I trust him with my life and that is why I entrust him with the duty to protect you.”, he explained pointing at the extremely tall man next to him, while Johnny gave you a heartwarming and bright smile.

“Nice to meet you (Y/N). I know this whole situation must be terrifying and confusing but being a part of the NCT Clan, isn’t as bad as you probably think. You’ll see.”, Johnny spoke with reassuring words and somehow these words seem to be calming to your fragile heart, you just couldn’t suppress the subtle smile forming on your lips.

“Wow – look at you. So you actually cansmile, little lady.”, Johnny teased, while knocking his elbow against Do Young’s shoulder.

Before another word can be spoken, the loud sound of the horn of the luxurious limousine in front of entrance gate made all of you jump.

“Well, it seems we have to get going.”, the giant laughed, while turning around to make his way to the car.

While Do Young only nodded, you lower your head – the nervousness slowly overwhelming your body.

“Let’s go (Y/N).”, Do Young announced while gently reaching out for you to take his hand, like a real gentleman.

You immediately complied to his action and took his surprisingly warm, soft hand and like this he led you to the black limousine.

After helping you to climb into the car, he took the seat next to you and soon you felt the car starting to move.

The first few minutes of your drive, no words were spoken and both of you were staring outside the windows. With every little stop, your heart beat faster, in fear of finally arriving at the party – every single of the most powerful Clans were invited.

Every ally. Every enemy. A herd of dangerous men were going to be there.

Were you really going to survive this party?

“You remember the plan?”, Do Young asked, breaking the silence.

“I do. I only speak when somebody is specifically talking to me. No sharing of personal information. And most importantly – nobody is allowed to know about our ‘arrangement’.”, you repeat the rules the Boss of the NCT Clan taught you earlier today.

“Good. What else?”

“Also, we have to act like we’ve known each other for a long time. Act like we’re in love, right?”

“Basically, yes. And in order to make people believe us, I… need to touch you, somehow. Like holding your hand or waist. We’ll also need to kiss at least once – I am going to warn you though before I do anything.”

“Okay…”, you gulp nervously, which doesn’t go unnoticed by Do Young – he was sensing anxiety this whole time.

He knew you’d be scared of everything going on and scared of him – after all you’ve never been in a situation like this and you didn’t even know him one bit.

You were all by yourself when you arrived – shaking like crazy and he saw your eyes brimming with tears. And he just felt so bad for you – you looked so fragile, so small– it made him wanting, to protect you even more. Even though he wasn’t comfortable with this arrangement at all, he was more concerned for you. 

Imagining how lonely, hurt and afraid you must’ve felt…

When the car came to a final halt, Do Young took the chance, to tell you everything, he’s been wanting to tell you.

“Listen (Y/N). I don’t want you to be scared of me. I have no intentions of harming you in any way. I am not the kind of man who gains joy out of hurting or abusing women. I know, right now, you have no reason to trust me in any way. You don’t know me, I am just a stranger to you and on top of that, I am the son of a cruel Mafia Boss. But I want you to know, that I want you to be safe. That is why, I need you to tell me whenever you feel unwell, if someone tries to harm you or if you feel scared. Can you do that? Will you try to trust me?”, somehow his words made you feel better. So much better, so much safer.

Although barely know him, you were able to feel the sincerity in his words, his eyes and his gestures.

Maybe he lied to you, maybe not.

Maybe you were naïve, maybe not.

Maybe you were just so incredibly desperate to have someone by your side, maybe not.

Anyways you were going to try.

“…Okay. I’ll try, Do Young. I’ll try to have trust in you.”

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...so this is my very first mafia AU! and also the first writing I ever uploaded here. I hope you guys like it :))

[thaticychica]

MONSTA X Concert World Tour 'WE ARE HERE' in Berlin

Soo...2 days ago I've been to their concert and was lucky enough to even get 'Ultimate VIP Tickets'.

It was my first concert of Monsta X and boy, I can tell you - if there was another definition of "real", it would be "MONSTA X". You definetly get what you see.

The boys were incredibly sweet. They were incredibly hype and so adorable. They tried their best to interact with us throughout the concert and learned soooo many expressions in german to show it to us.

Which is definetly not easy, especially with so little time to actually memorize it.

Even though they were somewhat tired and Hyungwon still a bit sick, they really tried their best to show how grateful and happy they were.

Their reactions to us singing, rapping and cheering with them were so honest and sincere - some of them were even shedding tears, while telling us not to cry.

I am still so happy whenever I think back and I still get teary thinking of them, 'cause they really touched my heart.

I love them even more than I already did - which was a lot, considering they are my Ulti Bias Boygroup.

For the future I hope that they get to rest well and be healthy!

I want nothing more, than them to be happy and love what they do.

They are true sweethearts and are just as cheerful and real, as you'd expect them to be.

[thaticychica]

Why is the only thing i can think about watching this, the cute way they are acting like silly dorks?

Maybe i am way too deep into them by now...

P.s BM is our man though

wait for iT-

[thaticychica]

This is so pure.

/ so i guess this is how 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲 feels like. the warm feeling in your chest, your cheeks hurting and the tickling sensation at the back of your neck. and i guess i’m never gonna get tired of it.

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Louder for the people in the back. 📢

STAN NCT DREAM AND HRVY

There’s not many like him left…

And to those racist fuckers still polluting the planet and copyrighting colors and concepts, this is called being a decent human being:

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And that's the tea. 🍵

Bill Nye for most of his career: Imma do science for kids. Science without politics. Nice, tame science for the kiddos.

Bill Nye now: