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28|04|2024

I rarely journal on Sundays because it's my rest day of the week so I don't get much done. Today I didn't get much done either but my head is full of thoughts and this is a good way to let them out, as well as to remind myself that bad days happen and it's okay. To be fair the whole week was bad, and I am still in a ill mood. The weather is not helping at all, it feels like it's November with so much rain and cold, and I have no energy whatsoever. I did take the day to rest, I finished the book I was reading, read some comics, listened to comforting podcasts. I did everything that usually makes me happy but my mood didn't improve, it just got worse as the day went by. I have been feeling nauseous and sick all day and anxious and I don't know if my bad mood comes from my body being unwell or if it's the other way around. I decided to give myself the freedom to decide last minute if this week I want to atten to lectures. It would be a short week made of only two lectures overall, and I decided to skip them I am just going to sens an email to the professor asking her if there's materials I can read to fill in what I miss in class. Part of me wants to force me going no matter what, but I am trying to learn how to listen to my body and look for alternatives when I can. We'll see what tomorrow me will feel and what I'll decide to do.

[the---hermit]

27|04|2024

Today I decided I didn't want to set an alarm and I am happy I did that, I got a bit more sleep but I still managed to be productive. In the morning I got done more than I had planned, which makes me very happy. I then went to my brother's for lunch and to spend the afternoon together rewatching the hobbit movies. We watched a movie and a half and we'll finish sometime next week. I am really happy about the fact that lately we have been having these movie afternoons because ever since he moved out we have not been spending a lot of time together and I really missed it. I hope we can make this a sort of an habit to spend more time together like we used to when he was still living here.

today's productivity:

read first thing in the morning

Irish review on duolingo

read and annotated the Merchant Of Venice (I finished the third act so next week I will be able to finish my first reread and move on to other tasks like finding articles to help writing my paper)

started looking for a couple of articles for my paper (and I have yet to find out if I can access them with my uni credentials but that is a next week task)

did a quick monthly set up in my bullet journal to write down all the things I have to do next month (I have to get back into using my bullet journal since I have not been using it for a few months now, and I haven't find the perfect system for this period of my life yet)

📖: Miti E Leggende Dei Celti, The Merchant Of Venice

[the---hermit]

26|04|2024

Today felt like a busy day even thoigh it wasn't, mostly because I feel like my energies are all out at the moment. The weather isn't helping at all, with rains and cold that makes it feel like we are in November and then random days in which the sun feels so hot. I did spend the morning rereading and annotating The Merchant Of Venice with the goal of fiding passages that might be helpful with the paper I have to write. I will have to admit my ability to focus wasn't really there so I felt kinda unproductive because I was getting very dustracted. I still managed to get some stuff done so I am happy about that. I then treated myself with the latest tmagp episode, and then in the afternoon a friend came over and we played board games together.

📖: The Merchant Of Venice by Shakespeare

[the---hermit]

24|04|2024

The week started in a very stressful way, so much so that I decided to skip class today. Yesterday was really too much for me with my commute and everything, and at the end of the day I am not missing anything too important with today's lecture. I took this as a way to start working for my English lit exam. I realized I had a pretty big block with it, I just couldn't bring myself to do stuff for this exam because it makes me very nervous (especially writing a paper for it). I decided to start with easy approachable tasks in order to get started and so far it's working. My paper will be on The Merchant Of Venice, which means that I need to reread the play and annotate the useful passages, but before I do that I wanted to write in pen all the annotations I originally wrote in pencil. So this was my main task of the day. Tomorrow I will start my first reread of the play, and once I am done with that I will plan the next move. I feel like this is the best way for me to approach a task that scares me. Just break it down in much smaller tasks and start on the easier ones.

productivity:

read first thing in the morning

small plan of my tasks for the next few days

rewrote in pen my book annotations

run some errands with my mum

updated my reading journal

Irish on duolingo

📖: Miti E Leggende Dei Celti by M. Fois

🎵: Miracle by A Day To Remember

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I am not a big procrastinator usually but there's some tasks i have been avoiding like the plague so here's a to do list to hold myself accountable. To make it less overwhelming the goal is to complete at least one task each week.

Replace protective glass on phone

Music stuff on phone

Upload travel pictures on laptop

Tattoo plan for real

Book appointment to get degree documents

Update reading journal

Start posting the book rec posts i have written like 6 months ago and never posted because i am a fool

whatever i am forgetting about as i am writing this list

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For the love of the gods don't be like me and remember about your tea

[the---hermit]

I just finished my reread of ntn and i feel empty

Currently rereading tlt and i'm having a blast

[the---hermit]

20|04|2024

I finally worked on a general plan of my study to do list for the next couple of months. As usual creating this kind of overview makes me feel way better because I feel like I have a clear idea of what I have to do. I spent the rest of the day reading and then out with my mom exploring old royal residences and birdwatching in a field.

📖: Nona The Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

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study to do list april - may 2024

I am back into my studying routine and so I am writing a master to do list for my uni work for the next couple of months. This is going to be edited so much in the next few weeks, but having a bit public to do list is a good way to stay motivated and track my progress during long periods. The end goal of the next couple of months is to take two exams in the summer session, I will pick the precise dates as I work on everything but they will either be in June or at the beginning of July. Both require me writing a paper before the oral exam, which is not something I have to do often so it's going to be extra work for me.

English lit

reread the merchant of venice while annotating all the useful passages for the paper

reread and adjust previously made annotations on MOV text

read and annotate the sources I had previously found

look for more sources for the paper

read and annotate said sources

plan paper structure

first draft (depending on how it turns out to be decide whether to write it in Italian or English)

edit first draft

additional edits (?)

reread richard II

reread important passages in paradise lost

additional reread of the merchant of venice to prepar for the oral exam (so not focusing only on the paper topics)

write key words for each scene in the plays

reread assigned articles (RII, MOV, PL) write/check notes about them (RII, MOV, PL)

reread notes taken in class

out loud reviews

Modern history lab

fix notes after every lecture in order to stay on top of things

start writing down potential presentation/paper ideas

look for sources

read and annotate sources

outline of the paper

work 15 minutes presentation on the research

write first draft

edit draft

send to professor

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Reblog if youre any active studyblr in 2024

Reblog so i can find my people!!

[the---hermit]

19|04|2024

I am realizing that getting back into a study routine isn't going to be easy because at least today I was not motivated at all to accomplish the minor tasks I had to work on. To be fair I have been very sleepy all day so that definitely had a role in it. I did work on my tasks in the end and I didn't even need to much time to do that, but still I had to put in more effort than I normally would so this whole getting back to studying and productivity is going to be an interesting journey. Overall the day was good I had a few things to do but I also managed to pack in some much needed relax time so I am happy about that. I would say it was a balanced day. Tomorrow's task will be to create an overview of my studying for the next month or so, and then I am taking the rest of the weekend to myself, again for the whole "trying to start slowly and not going from 0 to 100" thing.

things I did today:

read first thing in the morning

had my monthly therapy session

huge lotr rant with my friend who has no idea what it is about because she doesn't like fantasy but thankfully likes hearing me talk about it

highlighted and fixed all my notes of the past week and also added a couple of infomations I missed in class

practiced irish on duolingo

continued listening to Monstrous Agonies (beloved) which is definitely become my comfort podcast

watched the latest episode of shogun with my dad

I am going out to dinner with my family which is always a good time

📖:Nona The Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

[the---hermit]

18|04|2024

First day of slowly getting back to my studying routine. Today was mostly organizational after my first week of lectures, but I accomplished a few things on my to do list. Tomorrow I will focus on fixing my notes, and maybe start planning everything I have to work on in the next couple of months. I am starting with small steps to get back into the habit and not to go from zero to a hundred and burn myself out again.

some things I did today:

read first thing in the morning

enjoy some good music

planned my to dos for the rest of the week

downloaded a bunch of materials for my class (which is technically a laboratory on modern history)

wrote down the calendar with relevant info for each lecture, and annotated some useful infos for the exam

spent the afternoon with my brother to finish our lotr rewatch and we had such a great time

practiced Irish on duolingo

📖: Nona The Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

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Reading while having my mid morning salad because apparently that's a thing now and camping outside of the classroom drinking my tea while waiting for my lecture.

16|04|2024

I am so tired I cannot wait to go to sleep. Today went well, my battle with anxiety was better and I am figuring out ways to get enough food despite my stomach acting up because of said anxiety. The winning technique of today was eating a salad before taking my bus and brining plan foods with me on the road to avoid feeling nauseous. It did work and I was full enough until I got home in the mid afternoon. It's a decent enough solution so I hope it will continue working on my class days. Brining some tea with me has also been a very good addition, my backpack is heavier but it's worth it, it's very comforting for me and today I realized how much of a positive influence it has on my mood. I did try to read a bit while waiting for my class but people started talking in the hall and I couldn't focus on the page for the life of me, which is a nightmare because I get there so early I could read so much, maybe tomorrow I will be more lucky. I did end up highlighting yesterday's notes while we were waiting for the professor so that was a bit of additional productivity I hadn't planned. The lecture was good, today's professor I knew already and I like the topics he studies unfortunately he has the most relaxing voice possible which is honestly very pleasing to hear but unfortunate when you have to focus very hard.

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New book on Irish myths and a neew beloved bookmark my mum got me.

15|04|2024

First day back to class. I am slowly going to get back to my productivity routine. Today my anxiety levels were over the roof, it was really hard especially because it fucks up my stomach really bad and eating becomes very painful and stressful. I will have to find a way to properly manage that, but I know I can overcome it. I did take with me some warm herbal tea and that was a great idea because it was very helpful and comforting. The lecture itself was good, I am very excited for it which is great because it means the motivation will be high. There will be a lot of work to do, but as I said I am excited and there will be different professors talking about stuff so I think the interest is going to be pretty high. After class I took a walk into town with my mom which was a great way to help me relax, I ended up getting this new book I am really interested in. When I got back home I also got to spend a bit of time with my brother who made me tea and we planned not one but two movie afternoons and I cannot wait. Spending quality time with him is something I have really missed in the past few months and this is a great way to spend time together, it's really recharging for me. Finally I took a relaxing bath to also help me reduce the remaining anxiety and it was actually quite helpful.

📖: Nona The Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

[the---hermit]

14|04|2024

Enjoying the sun on the couch on our balcony. Taking walks in nature every other day. Starting our yearly lotr rewatch with my brother and finally spending some quality time together after months. Reading late at night. Sipping jasmine green tea and falling in love with that blend again. Laughing at the descent into madness of my friend who I conviced to read the locked tomb and rereading it myself. Picking back up my bujo after months to set up what I will need once I'll get back into my study routine next week. Seeing how much my lavender plants are growing from day to day. Just a few things of the last little while.

I will be back posting much more frequently since tomorrow marks my going back to uni after taking a break to recover from burn out. I am feeling much better. I am not sure I am 100% recovered but I am determined to make this work while not overworking myself. The class I am starting tomorrow is exciting since it's a seminar with a professor I know and really like. As usual when my routine has to change I am feeling nervous and a bit anxious but I am doing my best to enjoy my last rest day and focus on things one step at the time.

📖: Nona The Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

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I resorted to drawing on my arms like a child to test placement and i am v close to actually texting my tattoo artist

The urge to get a new tattoo is strong tonight

[the---hermit]

The urge to get a new tattoo is strong tonight