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I lost my best friend 3 years ago- not lost as in dead but lost as in we only text each other on our birthdays now. Movies and books don't tell you that a friendship dying is like the sinking of a ship, you try to get higher and higher and hold onto the rails and unanswered texts, the captain tries to steer it to safety and salvage pieces of two broken hearts until you're left with memories of what once was. We were friends for a decade and knew each other's diaries by heart, I still remember her phone number and the way she took her coffee. Seeing her in streets is like breathing in a scent you forgot you knew but it immediately takes you back to a summer in '07.

Movies and books also don't tell you that friendships don't just end after one fight or incident, it's like the rusting of a bridge, the slow decay of flesh and bones and secrets. It took weeks, months- until one day I woke up and I realized I hadn't thought of her in a while. And I wrote a poem that day and I titled it 'The dying of a best friend' and I put all my love for her in a tiny box with my half of the matching pendant of a dolphin we had and stored them in a corner of my heart under the heading Grief. Where else can one hide unspent love?

It's been 3 years since I lost my best friend, lost as in I still carry our secrets in a tiny box but we only text each other on our birthdays.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

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next week will be the end of january.. february is like 2 days long. so march will come super fast and so will easter. summer will come and go, then christmas. basically 2022 is finished happy new year everyone

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Drone "Portraits" UK-based photographer Dimitar Karanikolov shares a collection of portraits using a drone taken from 2017-2021.

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Please release the FAM season 3 trailer or I will cry.

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9.28.21 Preparing for midterms by spending all morning in the physics building between lecture, lab, and discussion sessions then stocking up on comfort foods for the upcoming week of never leaving my dorm room!

🎼- Mariners Apartment Complex by Lana Del Rey

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2022

i am running into a new year and i beg what i love and i leave to forgive me

Lucille Clifton

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I'm gonna miss seeing these two at this years Olympics

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Studying at my friend's apartment

day 15/100 of productivity

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Normal people watching a show: just comments about it on that day

People on tumblr: gets a new url, changes their header, creates gifs, fanarts about it, starts a new wip on ao3, makes a playlist, over analyzes and tries to predict everything, quotes from poems and songs, projects themselves on their favorite character, makes color theories, spam likes and reblogs, poetic_cinema.png all over the place.

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This is a long shot, I know, but does anyone has a music playlist inspired by the second season of FAM?

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for god sake pls just give me this trailer already it’s a life-death situation

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guys this one’s for real

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Rewatching FAM (yes, again) there is this scene when Margo says to Sergei that her relationship with Aleida is a "long story", so imagine Sergei wanting to know said story, and Margo having to tell something along the lines of "I has her mentor, but then her father got deported and I really didn't wanted to look after a kid, 'cause I was living in my office, you see" and him being like "ok? Is standard NASA procedure?"

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me: starts typing a new line of code

coding software: WHat IS THat??? whAT Th?E FuCK Is thAT??? WHat arE  YoU ???DOInG ThaTs nOt? ReAL cODE?????

me: finishes typing the line

coding software: :)

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the intimacy of knowing how to make someone’s perfect cup of coffee or tea