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Bag•yo (Baguio) • 122021

I will always be in awe of the cold breeze that chills me literally down to my core, the warmth and kindness of the locals, and the beautiful city lights at night that rests on top of the hills. Too dreamy, I know!

En route to the city is a five-hour drive from Manila. Since moving here for work, we would sometimes decide to go to Baguio on the day, pack our bags and go (lol). We’d come back every year, just to explore the city, move in a different environment just for a bit and then spend the night. We even went one time without securing a place to stay (please don’t do it, it was so stressful!!! i swear!!).

They say that Baguio City has this kind of a “curse” where couples’ relationship won’t last long if they visit the city together. Back in 2018 when we were just a new couple, we visited the city and we fought at that time when we were about to go home. LOL In 2020 pre-pandemic, we came back in Baguio as 2 people who were trying to fix their broken relationship (we broke up in new year lol). I really thought the curse would work on us at that time. 😵‍💫 Fast forward to 2021, we planned on going for our fourth anniversary and since we’re travelling during a different situation (with travel requirements, QR Codes, Vaccination cards and all), we really have to sort everything — from Hotels, to bus tickets and travel registrations. Tbh, I wasn’t the one who organized everything, it was Ferny 😋 (syempre, may plans pala! 🙈)

This trip is definitely the most memorable. Ferny got a reservation in one of the most romantic yet chill restaurant for our anniversary dinner date, I got tipsy from a margarita that I drank in Kamp, and got engaged in the middle of Session Road. Crazy, I know!!! Just like that, I’m getting married (but not too soon) with my person!!!

Anyway, I’m posting this a day after our first monthsary of being engaged lol 😂 It’s funny how things just works. Four years ago, I didn’t think that I will trust someone and love again, let alone believe in marriage but here we are. I guess things that are really meant for you will find you. God-willing, it will. 🤍✨

So here’s me and Fern just minutes after I said “yes, of course”. Our eyes tell 😅

••••

dear you,

remember those nights when you’ve cried so hard over a heartbreak? you thought you won’t get over it but you did, you got through the pain and you survived.

may this post be a reminder that every rejection is a redirection. you are meant for something greater and better, just trust the process and put your faith in the Lord, He will not fail you.

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“You’ve always wanted to put sunshine on other people’s lives that you forgot to pour a little sunshine on you.”

— Nikki N.

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“How do you know it’s over?” I asked. “that very moment when he no longer haunts you in your dream” she said.

— stories I never write about

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“She used to say that the most beautiful things are damaged in some way.”

—Sad Girls, Lang Leav

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“and then you came into my life like a rainbow after the rain, an oasis in the desert, a lone star in the dark night sky.”

— Nikki N. Excerpt from the Words I Will Never Tell You.

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“it was when you came along that the darkness has ended and the sun started to rise again.”

— Nikki N. Excerpt from Things I would Never Tell You.

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“her days become brighter and her nights felt warm – that’s when she knew she have found love again.”

— Nikki N. Excerpt from The Things I Would Never Tell You

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“She always loved the view of the lightning, but she never wanted to be near it. Maybe that’s how she looks at the idea of love too — beautiful and deadly.

— Nikki N. Scribbled Thoughts

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“and he loved her, like how he loved long walks and night skies, like how the stars, the moon and the constellations align so perfectly; how the waves and the sky meets mysteriously. He loved her.”

— Nikki N. Scribbles

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“How you left me will always be a reflection of how you loved me.”

— Nikki N. Excerpt from Unspoken Thoughts

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And when you leave, it’s not just my heart that needs to move on — it’s my mind that is filled with the thoughts of you, it’s my eyes that has loved the view of you, it’s my mouth that will long for yours when you’re out of words to say, and my skin that always electrifies with your touch.

— Nikki N. Excerpts from When You Leave

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“and in this world full of evanescence, how beautiful it is to finally found a love that stays.”

— Nikki N. Excerpt from Of Love and Life

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“Her eyes were tired of crying Her mind restless and her soul is aching Her life was a storm, her mind was a hurricane but after all the downpour of rain, he found her and kissed away all the pain.”

— Nikki N. Excerpt from Stories I’ll Never Write

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”It’s both a blessing and a curse to fall for someone deeply; genuine happiness and extreme pain.”

— Nikki N.

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“I look at you and I’m home.”

— Nikki N. Seven Word Story

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I wish it was that easy: letting someone in and letting someone go.

— N.N

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“Unravel every secret, I’m all in.”

— N.N