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I am going to do 5 days of nothing but water and protein powder

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Why does she have to ruin everything

I was forced to go to my grandparents and my grandmother came to pick me up. I live in a messy house and my dad has some hoarding issues. Friday I cried and told him that I hated him for what he is and told him some really cruel stuff. I could tell it was really hard for him. He missed his wife and his daughter hates him. When grandmother arrived she got upset on how "moody" and "disrespectful" I was and gave me a big lecture about how no one likes me and stuff. I quote "no one is going to change for you, your dad is old, he is 43, he isn't going to change anytime soon." It was really annoying and I could tell that my dad was mad after reassuring me that things would change and get better for an hour. I think grandma tries to help but I really wish she wouldn't. I can't wait to move away from this god forsaken place and never come back to my grandparents house.

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Be skinny my friends.

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Thighs are so fat today!

First day of not eating thigh check and I am not happy!

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Proud

I haven't eaten for about 24 hours and now I weigh...

95.4 and proud

I don't plan to eat for another 2 days tho

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When the highlight of your day is skipping meals

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Favorite workouts my fitbit said I burned 200 cals and these workouts were not very hard so that was an easy burn that is better than just sitting while watching youtube! Ps: I am shorter so the calorie burn is significantly less.

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Why did I eat that

I just ate a muffin 210 cals I feel so fat that I am going to excercise for an hour. Hopefully that will get rid of the shame that I have brought upon myself.

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Body check

My ribs are more visible today!

(96.4 lbs)

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My safe foods

(Lowest forming highest calories)

Water whatever cups 0 cals

Stawberries 1 medium 4

Salsa 2 tsp 10 cals

Cabbage 1 lead 6 cals

Peppers small 10 cals (each)

Cucumber 1/2 cucumber 12 cals

Sour cream 1 tsp 30 cals

Apples medium 60 cals

Cheese 1 slice 60 cals

Eggs 1 egg 60 cals

Banana medium 95 cals

Cottage cheese 1/2 cup 111 cals

Oatmeal 3/4 cup 125 clas

These are a couple but I probably have a few more but I don't change what I eat often so I can't name them off of the top of my head.

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See through leggings

So 3 months ago I got these leggings and they were a little tight and see through on my thighs but I didn't want to be embarrassed by my mom so I just kept them in my pants drawer and I got the confidence from my lower weight and I wore it perfectly without anyone knowing the color of my underwear.

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96.6 this morning and I already had a bannana probably lower because yesterday I did my 4 miles on the treadmill and did 50 jumpingjacks after I ate anything.

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"LOL, I AM SO ANOREXIC!"

-attentionseekingpersonatmyschool okay there is person in my art class who claims they're 108 lbs and sometimes they just randomly shout out "oh, I haven't eaten in 4 days" and all the class is like oh you should eat something here have this you are sooo skinny they also talk all the time about how suicidal they are and I just say "bruh, those are mental health issues. If you are suicidal wouldn't you not want anyone to find out? If you were anorexic wouldn't you try to hide that fact that you are starving yourself?" Anyway I just wanted to rant because this person just really annoys me.

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I am starting to worry my best friend

Me and my best friend have been together since the start of the 6th grade. When I don't eat lunch at school she gets really mad and basically forces a couple of crips in my mouth (which is fine I'll just burn it off with 100 jumpingjacks in the private bathroom) and says I have an eating disorder. But like she is also trying to loose weight to get her at a healthier BMI and doesn't count her calories. I don't know what to do to make her think I eat more because I don't want any one to find out. #ed #bestfriendhelp #hindmyed

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Ana bud anyone?

I will take anyone under 16 over 13 and preferably around my weight. Only female. First come first serve anyone who DMs and does it quick enough will be my ana buddy. I do #meanspo and #sweetspo with some helpful hints and advise. I will except any encouragement and we can be skinny minnies together!

#ana #anabud #anahelp #anahint #anabuddy #edthoughts

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I am starting this on Sunday my goal is to get to 92 lbs by the end of the month. Not too hard right?

Starting this on Monday.

Update: I lost 6 pounds in 4 days staying under 600 calories!