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said smthn on a blog about not liking octocon + being uncomfortable w/using it and some other anon had this whole spiel then said, "My hot take is, you can be upset about octocon being endo neutral, but.."

like. thanks for the permission???? 😭😭😭 they didnt mean it like that but their enTIRE ask came off as so rude lol

LMFAO?? The entitlement is crazy

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Barnes and Nobles is gonna start serving food and alcohol.

Everybody’s cracking jokes about how it’s a desperate attempt to stay relevant in the age of Amazon.

But you know what? Props to them. This is exactly what Blockbuster didn’t do. At no point was Blockbuster like “Hey, movie rentals aren’t the lucrative enterprise they once were. Perhaps it’s time we become known for our cheesy garlic bread.”

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Major controversial opinion, and a new branch of syscourse, but if you use ai to visualize your headmates/headspace I’m blowing you up with my mind. Go use a fucking piccrew

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Major controversial opinion, and a new branch of syscourse, but if you use ai to visualize your headmates/headspace I’m blowing you up with my mind. Go use a fucking piccrew

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because I've seen this a couple times now.

'ambulatory' does not mean "uses aid sometimes"

'ambulatory' means "able to walk, even just a little bit"

the phrase 'ambulatory mobility aid user' means anyone who is able to walk And uses a mobility aid. yes it includes people who are not full-time wheelchair users. but it also includes people who are full-time users of aids that include walking (e.g. canes, rollators, etc)

I think some people are using these terms incorrectly in a way that makes me confused about the point they're trying to make. so just thought I'd clear that up

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just cus someone has promised a change doesnt mean they will

and oftentimes itll be instantly clear whether their promises are empty

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although my politics are sympathetic to ethical direct action and illegality, i would of course never engage in those things myself. but if you are thinking about engaging in illegal activity as a result of the court decision that’s coming down, please do not post about it online, ever, anywhere. yes, even on tumblr. yes, even on that site you think is private. yes, even in DMs between you and a friend. do not engage with anyone posting about those things publicly either.

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i don’t understand people who love a problematic character but get angry when people mention the evil things that character did. like, that’s your man! he’s proud he did all that, support his hobbies!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Thank you! Happy New Year! We hope it’s off to a great start for you! -Ollie

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what actually are endogenic systems?

• Endogenic is an umbrella term that refers to all systems that are not completely traumagenic in origin.

Why are some people claiming to be endo?

• people claiming to be endogenic systems may:

• be misdiagnosed, they may not have DID/OSDD and may have a different disorder.

• may not have researched. Which is not a excuse. You cannot claim to have any disorder without any level of research.

• they may be a traumatic system in denial of there trauma.

• singlets with fractitious disorders [Factitious disorders are conditions in which a person deliberately and consciously acts as if they have a physical or mental illness when they are not really sick.]

•singlets misidentifying normal experiences

• singlets who enjoy "being a system" finding it fun etc

Why can't endos exist?

• as previously stated. DID/OSDD is a TRAUMA RESPONSE DISORDER. you cannot have it without trauma literally.

• OSDD/DID occurs because of childhood trauma between the ages 4-9 (commonly). Because extreme trauma happens when the majority of your "personality" is formed by then. the trauma interferes with your personality development, causing the formation of other alters to help cope with that trauma / deal with the brunt of the trauma and survive day to day life.

• OCDD/DIDs can only be formed through trauma.

Why are endos so harmful?

• they spread very harmful misinformation. (Even the idea of being endogenic, forming without trauma)

they spread dangerous misinformation and stigma (demonising roles (persecutors for example)) impossible beliefs (alter death, sys hopping etc)There growing presence in general on many platforms

• endos trying to say that they have any experience to anything close to the serious trauma that causes DID/ OSDD is so so harmful to actual DID/ OSDD have had to live through and survive.

• WE ARE ALREADY STIGMATISED AND DEMONSIED IN ALL SORTS OF MEDIA AS IS.

• IT IS SO HARMFUL AND HURTFUL TO SYSTEMS WHO HAVE ACTUALLY SURVIVED AND BEEN THROUGH THE HORRORS AND TRAUMA THAT CAUSES DID/OSDD - OUR TRAUMAS ARE NOT BADGES FOR YOU TO WEAR.

- blurred asf

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A system is a collection of alters. Alters are chronically dissociated self states, with different neurological pathways that often are accompanied by a varying degree of amnesia. Dissociation is caused by stress/trauma. Alters are a byproduct of dissociating from trauma. You can’t dissociate from trauma you do not have. You cannot dissociate without trauma. You cannot have alters without trauma. You cannot have a system without alters.

You cannot be a system without trauma.

Do you have to know about the trauma ? No. Does it have to be a certain type of trauma ? No. Does it need to be a certain severity ? No. It just needs to have occurred during critical developmental period of the brain. Before the ego states have stitched together, it must be chronic, and beyond the child’s stress threshold, otherwise it will not disrupt the developmental growth. This is different for everyone. The reason trauma cannot be listed as a diagnostic criteria, is because there is no “xyz trauma that causes dissociative disorders”. It’s completely unique to each person suffering from the disorder. And in often cases, the person suffering from the disorder isn’t aware of their trauma. That’s the point of the disorder. This does not mean you don’t need trauma to suffer from a dissociative disorder. Systems are byproducts of dissociative disorders, you cannot be a byproduct of a disorder you do not have.

Endos are not systems. What do I mean by this? I mean that, by definition, that term is not suited for them, and is not meant to describe them. Just like kinning doesn’t mean you’re a system, just like roleplaying doesn’t mean you’re a system, just like religious practises such as tulpamancy isn’t a system. You are perfectly free to do whatever you please, truly. But do not compare it to being a system. You do not share our experiences. You are a different community entirely, and that’s ok.

But please, for the love of god, stop invading our community, and stop spreading misinformation about an already stigmatised and misunderstood disorder.

I understand if you didn’t know better. But please, educate yourself, and stop spreading this misinformation. Being a system isn’t an identity. It’s not a label. And please, stop comparing it to being queer. This is a mental illness. Being queer is not a mental illness.

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Yknow, one of the more... interesting? Things that I've noticed since my partner started actively accepting they have DID is that they're slowly becoming less dissociated just by... being aware that they have a dissociative disorder. I remember for myself when I was going through this song and dance how it felt like I was actively getting worse and my life was falling apart as I became more and more aware of my DID. My partner, however, seems to be doing better with their memory day after day; already they've gotten to the point of being able to keep a full conversation with me without once asking me what we were talking about. Does it still happen? Sure, absolutely. But this used to happen multiple times a day for almost every single conversation we had and now I maybe only see them ask that... a couple times a week? And not only that, but they're so much more aware of when they're dissociating and will comment on such whereas in the past they'd brush things off with a "oh I'm just really tired" or a "sorry I wasn't paying attention" or a "I don't wanna think about this right now, I'm gonna play some video games". And because they're aware they can take measures to work on it and stay grounded! I'm just.... ahhh so proud of them and it also puts a lot of my own healing into perspective. That maybe the reason I felt like I was getting worse was because I was more aware of myself and my dissociation. That maybe it was because I wasn't so dissociated from the dissociation itself anymore, and that made things *seem* worse. And, maybe, it was because I didn't have the support in place to help me learn and utilize any other coping mechanism other than dissociation, and once dissociation started failing for me there was nothing for me to fall back on other than letting my life fall apart around me.

Looking at my partner's growth in even just these few months since they started becoming aware of their dissociative symptoms has given me a lot to think about in regards to my own experiences with dissociation. And I think, ultimately, I'm proud of where we both are now, as different as our journeys are.

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I don't know if something like this already exists or not, but I created a gender that describes me. It's called "Vertagender"

(Please don't judge me I'm just confused. 😭)

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There's an open pit in the middle of our office plan that drops down into a bunch of very sharp spikes that kill you instantly. This is bad. People keep falling in there and dying. Someone put a sign up, the other day, all bright yellow so you can't miss it, that says "Beware!!! Spikes!!!"

The office immediately split into two factions over it. One says that if anyone falls in the spike pit it's their own fault for being so stupid and not watching where they're walking, so we should remove the sign. The other says that the sign is an insult, there shouldn't be a spike pit in our office at all, and having the sign up like that is just normalising the existence of the spike pit, so we should remove the sign.

We ended up removing the sign. Probably for the better. Still... for a while there it looked like it might have worked...