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apps n finals are so stressful

I literally feel like im dying. WHy did i even go back to school LOL

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Shes a tough mountain doggo at heart (Source: http://ift.tt/2AcIwrT)

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Grad school apps

I’m applying to 11 schools 6 California and 5 out of states. Why am I applying so far, because I really want to get into graduate school. If I get into none which I’m hoping is something that never happens there is always a plan B. Sometimes I feel life takes you into unexpected directions anyways so lets see! I’m gonna miss everyone though but I think living somewhere else could be good for me. No matter where I go I plan on living by myself or with a roommate but preferably myself haha.  Except for CSULA i’ll just live at home because well that just makes sense to. 

My out of state schools are - Hawaii, Michigan, New Mexico, Arizona, Arkansas,

Cali school - LA, Northridge,  Fresno, San Marcos, Long beach, San Jose 

THESE APPS:

Makes me feel so anxious just having it there. I feel so overwhelmed by everything around me that I tell people I’m busy which is true. I always have something to do. But this feeling of anxiety is almost paralyzing. I just honestly need to focus at the job at hand and do my best. 

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My life

Damn school is so overwhelming these days. I have to push myself so hard just to finish everything in a single day. I even gained weight cuz i haven’t worked out. I need a better routine honestly. I’m getting by but i need to be better. 

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The feels

Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m in a rut. Which is normal it happens but this time it’s like i’m sick of everything. I wanna live a minimal lifestyle and not buy useless stuff anymore. I never read “ The life changing magic of tiding up”. But I’m gonna follow the basic message of the book. Which more or less tells you if something doesn’t make you happy get rid of it. 

My job(S) didn’t make me happy

My relationship didn’t make me happy

Material items don’t make me happy ( clothes, makeup, etc)

Fear doesn’t make me happy ( This is a given so i’m gonna do something i’m kinda scared of and do it) 

-In this case its gonna be a haircut LOL but i need it long enough so I can do my hair at my sisters wedding in a year)My hair grows pretty slow too hahah 

School is one of the only aspects in my life where i feel like I’m headed in the right direction. I actually reached out to a private clinic to pretty much volunteer/ intern there. And they said they wanna meet me so I’m very excited about that.

I should practice my embroidery more my rose looks like a hot mess LOL but its okay. I can only get better its a nice hobby, its cheap too . Unlike baking, where I need all these ingredients and i have 1 shot to make it right.  

I also feel like I need to go see more shows and enjoy myself more. So I’m gonna try to be more active and see some bands. I really wanna see Cigarettes after sex and King Krule. I actually got his tickets presale and its sold out now ! I’m excited I’ve actually never seen a show by myself either so that’ll be fun.Usually I ask a friend to join me but lately  I feel like being more independent too. Maybe I’ll make a friend who knows. 

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Here they all are together!

All available in my shop here

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Jasen

It  just didn’t feel “right” I guess. I was with him for 2 years before he realized he really cared for me. Meanwhile I did like him at one point, but I guess those feelings faded into me just being content. I don’t wanna be in that type of relationship. He tried so hard though once he realized, but it was just too late. I wasn’t feeling it anymore. It’s sad actually he said he  loved me.  He didn’t wanna say goodbye for so long. I had at least 3 goodbyes with him. It was  quite sad honestly I felt bad, but you can’t change how you feel. He really was a good guy. I made the right decision though for the both of us. Meanwhile I’m gonna take a break and focus on other aspects of my life. 

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Goals

So i didn’t accomplish all my summer goals but its okay. Some goals take a while. Meanwhile I just paid $205 for the GRE FUHHhhhHHHhh. It’s getting real guys. 

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Often a heart tends to change its mind A new day decides on a new design A new day gets set on another way

Mac DeMarco - This Old Dog

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There’s only so much a frog can take before completely losing it. (Source: http://ift.tt/1SUKkH9)

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Get in line! (Source: http://ift.tt/2r80M3F)

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My summer goals!!

- Take guitar classes

 ( I’ve had this guitar for literally forever )

- Learn how to sew a dress ( learn how to make a pattern) 

- Study for the GRE 

-Go to Japan

Book Hawaii tix ( this one is in the process ) :)

- maintain my bod LOL 

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Fleeting moments & missed opportunities

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Sometimes its just nice

To sit alone and listen to your own thoughts 

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