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forced plurality as a kink

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Please remember:

Endogenic includes a whole bunch of shitty stuff that people don't identify as trauma for themselves. Stress, fakeclaiming, struggles with neurodiversity, anxiety, anything.

Endogenic doesn't mean not traumatised, just that a system didn't form from that.

Endogenic systems can have traumagenic members.

Traumagenic systems can have endogenic members.

Endogenic systems can be horribly depressed and traumagenic systems can be joyful and enjoy their systemhood.

No system owes you their trauma history.

- River

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Based on that one jesus meme

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Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.

Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.

Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.

Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?

Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.

Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.

Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.

There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.

This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.

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It's time

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Neil!!!

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my yearly redraw of neil banging out the tunes! 🎶🐀

past years: 2022/2023

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abstract and modern art haters are sooo snobby like klein literally Created an entirely new pigment and then painted a canvas in a way where the brush strokes wouldn't be visible. the insinuation that people with no skill could reproduce that is so annoying because unless you are skilled at color mixing and painting you definitely couldn’t lmao

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one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

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Please stop reposting this, let my notifications rest.

Update: IF YALL MFs KEEP ON IM GONNA DELETE THIS POST

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hey. hey guys you know what would be funny.

edit: im not sure if anyones gonna see this edit but guys. guys if you are on android. use aliucord. stop suffering and use aliucord it has any and all themes you could ever want made by regular people and a whole lot of awesome plugins. Guys.

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hey. good luck with everything, okay? [cutting the rope connecting your boat to the dock] just good luck. [starts pushing your boat further towards the stream] just have a good luck out there

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to all endo systems ::

you are valid . you deserve as much love and respect as traumagenic systems . your origins dont matter , you will always be valid in my eyes .

plurality shouldnt be gatekept . you endos will always be plural in my eyes .

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reddit is having a glitch where it puts the wrong captions over photos and it’s the only thing i care about right now

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I’m actually kind of amazed how many people do not understand this concept