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I wish you well.

I work so hard to avoid even the mention of you, compartmentalize. When I saw your photos today it isn’t even that I felt something. It didnt hurt. You’re still handsome. But you aren’t kind and I dont have room to feel shittily for you anymore. You dont have that power over me these days. 

I am old, and sewn through with sorrows, I dont need to carry yours also.

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Model: Azura Rose

Photographer: Taeden Hall

Red Velvet Gothic dress available on the Gloomth website in sizes S-5XL

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Memento Mori, ca. 1520

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Rose Mcgowan, 1997

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Autochromes by Thomas Shields Clarke, c.1910. (x)

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March, 1926 cartoon from “La Vie Parisienne”.

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là-haut for le temps : bingbing liu and unknown models for t magazine

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Lake Wallenpaupack, PA

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Finality

There’s a dust flavored feeling to the end of this. Long overdue, you disappear into wherever men one used to know go once they drift from your sky. Silence across the digital horizon, maybe I’ll run into you in a theater lobby someday. 

For a little longer I’ll send missives or respond to yours, realizing quickly you’ll only press energy into my open palm if you think I’ll fuck you. So much for 2017. 

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Not sure if it’s hope casting the mirage or whether my body senses things before I do but it feels settled with him. This is where my heart rests, this is the garden I’ll tend and explore and encourage from now on. I didn’t realize how badly I craved peace til I felt it in you, you feel like home. Beamed daft and bright after your message that morning, I haven’t been with someone who writes at a similar level to me in so long. Oh, I think this is going to be good.

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deValenten

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I see * by AlicjaRodzik

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“A Courtly Dance in Triple Metre”. Thais Borges and Ugbad Abdi photographed by Tyler Mitchell for Another Magazine S/S 2019