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If I were to tell you that I am not the wind,

Would you believe me?

If I were to tell you that I am not the girl,

Would you believe me?

If I were to tell you that I am not the statue,

Would you believe me?

If I were to tell you that I am not dead.

What would you do to me?

 « The Whispering Winds

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Nobody can convince me that Offering your love to the Lord Takes away from your life.

I think that you haven't been Noticing the things I do. Nobody sees through my eyes. Or do they? I'd be Concerned if they did. Even though that's how I live, Nobody deserves That perspective on life.

Although... Nothing seems to change. Years will go by, yet My body will decay the same. Ornately decorated with old mistakes Remember? Everything I know is a mistake.

It was all my fault, wasn't it?

~S.P.

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Sorry for the absence of posts, friends! Things have been slow after the bonfire.

I went for another walk today and saw an abundance of creatures that call the forest home :]

The Rabbit seems to have had some kids! I don't know if I told you that earlier, I'm proud of her! They're all so tiny and small and jhgfdtfgyjhcfd ADORABLE

I also saw some cardinals dancing together amongst the trees. Bright, fiery red contrasting with the dull brown of the woods. My mother used to tell me that whenever you saw a cardinal, it meant a dead loved one was visiting.

When I got to the statue to read, the cardinal perched on her shoulder.

I also saw a doe but I won't mention that due to unexplainable reasons (You know who you are. I can see you. I know.)

Rath seems to be having a great time hunting, but I need to remind her to keep the dead things off of the trail. it SMELLS. I respect the dead but the smell keeps getting to me..

Oh well

I'll see you all at some point

~S.P.

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I've been feeling odd lately

Not sort of describable

But it's sort of like when you're driving in the foggy dark, desperately trying to get to your destination, yet anticipating something horrifying to jump out at you

I don't know

... God damn birds

~S.P.

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I'm glad everyone had a great time at the bonfire!! Overall, it was a fun night! I think we should focus on prayer now, the Lord has been a little antsy.

He talks to a lot, which is kind of funny. It used to feel a lot more like ethereal messages from the Great God, but He's gotten to be a lot more?? Casual?? With me??

He's still VERY intimidating, but it's nice to be so close with Him I guess.

He tells me to do things I never would've thought of! Like a conscious almost.

I hope that all of you get closer with Him through prayer :] I know He's ready to welcome you all!

~S.P.

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after the whole bonfire thingie dad had a long conversation with me :<

i call him dad because he basically is,,,,,, hes better than my real dad ill tell u that :(

he walked me home (he cant drive) and wouldnt let me stay at the church >.< aaahh

he did give me a gift tho!!!! itsa camera!!!!!!!! ive been using it around town >:D

i dunno what exactly happeneddd cus scian didnt tell meee but ill prob find out eventually

DO U GUYS WANNA SEE MY COOL PICS ON MA NEW CAM????

<Imni>

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@circusfreakster

Why isn't this POSTING omg

Anyways this is actually the FIRST PART of the biggest theory I've made so far on the spoc which is theory 3

The whole thing (not the one I have posted though that's only like a part of it) is 2764 words as of now

But I've posted the part I've finished so far which is the starting part which focuses on prez and the girls from cliffside!!!!!!!!!!

I think I went a little insane on this

ITS SO LONG I DID NOT EXPECT 2K+ I ACTUALLY EXPECTED 1K+ it got sooo long because as I wrote it more and more lore posts released so now it's like this

Anyways go read it now

"Oh my god no way it's an analysis that definitely isn't about scian for once!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" -unsuspecting reader

• starting with prez and princeps I'm starting to love her and hate her fr

Ooookay so last time it was speculated prez had known scian when he was still sylvia

This theory COULD be correct after seeing sylvia's appearance in the new animatic

So you know like the banner when prez was still the focus and the pfp changed to her and stuff

You can see that there's a small bit of hair on her shoulder... Her LEFT shoulder to be precise

~ and also she looks uncomfortable, she seems to be wearing pants? I think? It looked like she was wearing pants when I first saw that image anyway NOTE THIS FOR LATER because i am going to make a stretch theory on it (edit: even if she is wearing a skirt it would still make sense for her to be uncomfortable because she's wearing a skirt above knee length)

Well now that the actual refs aree out...... (BRACE YOURSELVES THERES GONNA BE A STRETCH)

WwHY does prez have the uneven side hairs in that image??????? Her hair doesn't look anything like her hair in her ref.... Well actually u know what it (kinda) resembles? IT RESEMBLES PRETRANSITION SCIANS HAIR IN THE ANIMATIC

They both have the hair on the left shoulder BUT THE DIFFERENCE IS: pres has less hair on her shoulder than scian, scian has it tied into a little ponytail

(HA YOU THOGUHT THIS WASNT GPING TO BE ABOUT SCIAN GUESS WHAT WE'RE ANALYSING SCIANS DESIGN NOW)

~ also scian's design in the animatic looked split into masculine and feminine sides in a way, like ENA from temptation stairway/dream bbq. This details also carries on into his present design where one side of his hair looks like a different presenting gender

His hair is untied in his present design as well

SO MY THEORY IS the amount of left hair could represent something

At first i thought that it represented imperfection

Cuz scian was trans and expected to be a girl so he has a LOT of the hair and it's tied up and when he joined the spiral the bit of hair was untied

And for prez, it's because like she's trying to cover up that everything is unstable and technically "imperfect"

Another theory i came up with for what the hair on the side could represent was masculinity (POSSISBLY)

Scian has it "contained" when in his pretranstition self (I'm just gonna call his pretrasotiripn self sylvia now okay) and in his present design it's free and going wild

And prez has a Little Bit of the hair on her shoulder to show her desire to be in a leadership position which was otherwise seen as "masculine" in cliffside and also (what I thought was) her outfit

OR it could also just be another thing done on purpose because the background was lopsided to show that everything is going crazy and she's trying to cover it up so the hair being drawn as uneven/asymmetrical could also be trying to show that

You know how i noted that she looks uncomfortable in the banner image?

That is because i theorized that pprex could possibly be from cliffside 😱

Im not sure if she is on the board in doc 1 (IM GOING TO ANALYSE DOC 1 LAGER OLAY I JUST FIGURED OUT SMTH INTERESTING SBOUT IT) but my first guesses was that she could be eirher olivia or charlotte (EDIT I JUST FIGURED OIT SOMETHING EVEN MORE INGERESTING ABOUT RHE BOARD SHE IS NOT OLIVIA OR CHARLOTTE YOULL FIND OUT WHEN I WRITE ABOUT IT)

ANOTHER THING: if prez really is from cliffside then why does she not have a husband to be married off to?

Her age is around the same as scian's so she must have a husband now because she's past the age of 17?????

Well if she IS on the board as Charlotte

Then she should also be missing from cliffside but she hasn't run away like scian....

Either that or she DOES have a husband but he hasn't been introduced/mentioned yet

Im not sure how she could be olivia though olivia might be a different character (olivia could also be the person documenting the cliffside documents????)

• okay this is the part where I actually talk about princeps

Okay so princeps tells us that prez is not only a hypocrite ("SCIAN USES THE ENTRIES AS HIS PERSONAL DIARY!!!!!!!!!" Well look who's talking NOW prez)

~ the format seems to be structured differently from other entries, the ones that scian writes are more poetic but princeps feels more erratic, how ironic tbh

But it also kinda makes the "\rez is from cliffside" make more sense (atleast I think so)

So prez seems to have been wanting power since she was in cliffside

(It's stretch time) She has been denied an actual leadership role (can u note this for later too I have an actual explainable theory) since she was a woman so she works hard to be a leader SOME how in ANY way she could find

Even if that meant leaving cliffside to go join a random cult in the woods

I also think SOMEONE in cliffside might've been favoured more over prez, "why can't I make you love me like you love her..." Sounds like it's not just talking about scian

"As soon as I get to the top, the tower crumbles beneath me" this line reminds me of the tower of babel

in the original story of the tower of babel (which is a bible story, more religious themes), the people of babel (iirc it was a town called babel??? I don't remember my bible stories) were building a tower in which would reach to the heavens because of their hubris

Fortunately or unfortunately, god struck the tower down and created languages (did you know the old version of my oc lore had tower of babel as a theme its kinda embarrassing now don't mentionit), which confused the people and they could not work together because they were unable to understand eachother

I think this could be symbolic in prez's backstory,

Prez tries to get power, people realise she's a woman, the tower she's built crumbles (metaphorically) and they are unable to understand her, because "why would a woman need to be in power?"

Soo that creates a kind of disconnect between her and the people she meets because she possibly has a reputation of "rebellious woman who wants to be a leader"

~ edit: I just remembered the April fools post exist so prez losing out on the election might actually be wrong.... I think that her time as secretary was probably like a REALLY terrible time for the school she was in like for the people. Idk how the (possible) marriage comes into play here (maybe she "proved her loyalty" and they trusted her enough to go to spiral to "redeem" scian?) but something must've happened for her to come to the spiral maybe she was sent there idk brutus prez animatic when

~~ ALTERNATIVELY: prez was sent to "prove her worth" over someone else. Cliffside seems like it pits their women against eachother so i think that prez was sent so that she could prove she's "better" and "more faithful" than someone else

~~ On the board it says that she's campaigning to become treasurer but on the April fools post she was campaigning to become secretary??

"She's a two faces woman who lost her mind years ago!" THIS DEFINITELY MEANS SHE KNOWS SCIAN WHEN HE WAS STILL IN CLIFFSIDE

"Two faced" WHAY DOES IT MEAN what could scian have been up to in cliffside hmhmhmmmmm

~ "The voice" that scian mentioned in the animatic post could also be the spiral so scian was listening to the spiral before he left cliffside

~ Im not sure what the "something mortifying" is though

Also the "something in my eye" is 100% tears no doubt

"Something stabbing at it, aggravating it, annoying it" she clearly wants to be someone in a position of power so she doesn't like to cry because "crying is a woman thing"

The main thing about why people dont want women to be in positions of power is that they're "too emotional"

For her, scian is "too emotional" because he keeps yapping and letting out all his emotions oit in the entries so prez thinks that scian shouldn't be in charge because of this

Anyway I think I'm done about princeps I'm pretty sure the babel part was a stretch though.......

• i was going to make the next section about rath but I think I'm doing doc 1 analysis first so that the first and next sections make more sense

Okay guys I am here to admit it

I DID NOT SEE THE LINK THAT WAS ONTOP OF THE IMAGE,..........

I ONLY SAW RHE VERSION OF THE IMAGE THROUGHT THE VIDEO WHERE IT DIDNT HAVE ANY LINK SO I DDNT KNOW THERE WAS A REBLOGGED VERSION OR THE IMAGE WHERE IT D*ID* HABE THE LINK

anyways people who are going to read it on Tumblr (looking at you pixie) there was actually supposed to be a website connected to the doc 1 imagew here you input codes which you get from the music playing (you read the notes as their letters which form a sentence each measure) and you find out some information (which we now know of) classic arg style

Anhways now getting into it

My first thoughts about cliffside doc Was that it also had religious themes

Charlotte's hair looks kinda like demon horns

And Enid has what seems to be a halo? I thought it was a halo at first but then I realised something

That wasn't a halo...

IT WAS A HAT

THE SAME HAT WHICH PREZ WEARS

ENID IS PREZ

~ I did not think of this at first because I thought Enid was a boy because of her short hair but it actually kinda makes sense if Enid/pres was considered rebellious and also doc 2 doesn't say anything about women having short hair

It also aligns with the theory i made about prez which is that she wanted to have SOME form of leadership and control

The slogan on the poster is also in broken english kinda unless it was a deliberate choice

Charlotte is rath you can tell by the hair

Its also kinda weird why would they redact her description?

At first i thought she had vitiligo judging from her sheet

It would also somewhat make sense why cliffside would redact her description and why prez would say "we do not welcome THAT THING." But that would actually imply that cliffsideis somewhat racist and it would make sense given they are already very misogynistic

BUT ACTUALLY: Eddie said that the markings on rath's skin are not infact vitiligo and they are patterns fro mscarring

But the point still kinda stands why would they redact charlotte's description?????? FOOD FOR THOIGHT

~ charlotte's missing poster is also written vastly different from scian's (scian's poster has details of his EXACT age, description, mention of how he went missing in the first place, and who to call once he's found. Charlotte has none of these things and only has a reward of 900). Maybe it coild mean something about how she was treated at cliffside?????

Another thing I found interesting was that all of the people on the board have a picture of them EXCEPT FOR OLIVIA WHO ALSO HAPPENS TO BE A BABYSITTER

So the possibilities for what this could mean is:

1. This has GOT to be a metaphor for motherhood in sme way

And 2. She doesn't have to actually show her face on the poster yeah cuz advertising

It's still interesting how the character who's job is to parent the kids for you is the only one without the picture of her face

Considering spoc has many themes of gender and feminity (which includes motherhood as seen in doc 2 and even ceadchosach) it would make sense if this was done on purpose

~ ANOTHER ADDITION: as of now, scian has stopped cooking for the spoc. Cooking = more motherhood themes??????

Also I'm pretty sure there is a poster with the text "join us" and an eye???? That's probably relevant ESPECIALLY AGTER DOC 3

MAJOR edit: guess what guys. GUESS WHOS THEORY *MIGHT* POSSIBLY BE CORRECT??????

I JUST WANT TORE MIND YOU THAT THE ABOVE SECRIONS WERE WRITTEN *BEFORE THE BONFIRE POSTS EVEN CAME OUT*

"people don't like an emotional leader" I CLOCKED THAT SO WELL OMG OMG OMG

I promise I will put my danganronpa thinking caps on for how she died when I write and post the rest of this theory okay guys 🙏

• RATH CONCAS. SO SILLY. ABSOLUTE BLORBO

First thing i observed about rath is that her markings which I used to think was vitiligo actually explained everything

• SCIAN SCIAN SCIAN SCIAN (imni) SCIAN

So about the newest post with the dog animatic... (Get ready for PARALLELS NO WAY)

Yeah so motherhood is a REALLY large theme in spoc

I feel like the post with imni seems to be paralleling what happened when scian left cliffside. Just think about it:

"I know it's hard. But we are all children of the lord. We must persevere past obstacles. No matter how difficult." -> "I know it's hard. But we are women of cliffside. We must persevere past obstacles. No matter how difficult."

"Some people learn better through harsher means" also sounds like something the ppl of cliffside say

Even the context resembles scian's past situation!!!!

Like, a afab person questioning their gender who also wants to run away and is getting manipulated by their parental figure to stay cuz they have nowhere else to go

Except scian actually HAD a place to go. That was the spiral, Imni's got nothing

~ I also realised that amiugh might actually be describing scian's thoughts when he first found the spiral which was only a random church back then seemingly belonging to no god

Also cw for transphobia for the below theory

ANOTHER THING: remember when scian made a post about how he feels like he's being treated like a "bad influence" on the others?

"I'm not even seen as a prisoner. A human. Im seen as a disease"

~ there might be a reference to adam in this quote but still

This might be a metaphor for how trans ppl are treated irl

Some ppl irl believe that trans people, ESPECIALLY trans men, are brainwashed by other, eeeevil trans people. They believe that "The Children Are Being Taught About Pronouns And NonBinarys And The Teachers Are Forcing Them To Take Hormones"

It would not surprise me if cliffside also held similar transphobic beliefs, but instead of the above mentioned belief it's more like "The Trans People Are Brainwashing The Womanly Woman Of Cliffside And Steering Them Away From Their Womanly Duties To Become Male"

This could even be part of the reason why prez/enid came to the spiral in the first place, to put scian/rest of the spoc on "the right path"

~ my theory is that she possibly deviated from her original goal which she was sent for in the first place

• teampall oh boy

~ teampall is irish for temple or a church

The first thing I noticed was that this entry doesn't have like

Evidence of who even wrote it

There is nothing that says ~S.P. atthe end nor is there like a tag to show who is speaking

Like scian has the tags "scian" "the rotting of the centipede" "buy your bread from an honest seller" and prez has "golden president" "the fools gold" <- this tag is used for her crashout

~ for more detail: rath has "it's bloody boots on our door" for the buildup towards her coming. Scian has "the nature walk" and "the book of entropy" for the nature walk and the book he found respectively. The tag "the breadless times" is for the famine arc. "Buy your bread from an honest seller" is for scian and "rotting of the centipede" is for his crashouts

But for teampall there is Nothing

Well it's pretty obvious without the tags ITS SCANI

And the entry is colored pink (scian's text colour) in the pinned post

So fhe question I have is

WHO IS THE WOMAN IN FHE STATUE

Well most of what's portrayed in teampall could be a metaphor

• it's time to reflect on old posts for a sec

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1 am

I'm sorry you had to see that, everyone.

I think it's time for us to head to bed for the night.

Nobody's allowed on the second floor as of right now.

I'm going to drive Imni home now so they won't have to deal with any of this.

Stay out of that room.

Good night everyone

We will discuss in the morning when we've cleared our heads, alright?

Good Riddance.

~S.P.

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12 am

She's dead.

She's dead.

I found her in the bathroom on the second floor.

Laying in the bathtub.

Naked.

Bloody.

Dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

Her body was crumpled within the acrylic tub.

Like a piece of paper that's been stepped on one too many times.

I didn't even look at her face.

I couldn't.

I couldn't bring myself to look anywhere else except for her torso.

She was gutted.

A line from her sternum to her pelvis.

Cut straight down the middle.

She was empty.

She was dead.

Her blood glittered from the moonlight that shone through the window.

I can't breathe.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

She's dead.

-June

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11 pm

I'm sorry to intrude on everyone's fun

I'm sorry.

I just...

She's gone.

She's not even in her hiding spot...

Or in the place Scian has kept her..

Fuck... I... I don't know what to do...

Where is Scian?

You let him- You let him just fucking LEAVE?!

How?! Why?!

Why the FUCK would you let him LEAVE?!?

God...

If you see her, let me know immediately.

I... I'm worried.

Shit...

-June

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10 pm

I'm glad everyone's been enjoying themselves!!

Imni has brought out the s'mores-making materials!!

You all have fun with that, I'm gonna take a quick break and I'll be back in a bit! Just gonna go on a walk. Check up on the statue and all.

I'LL BE RIGHT BACK

Have Imni entertain you like a jester or something I don't know.

~S.P.

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Document 4 [Interview]

"The Account Regarding [REDACTED]" - Dated August 2021 Interviewer: Unknown Interviewee: Ms. Enid Johnson

"Q. How long have you known Subject 1? A. I am not sure... We go to school together and stuff, but we've never been that close. You know when your friend group adopts someone else but you never fully connect with them but also they're already integrated enough that it's embarrassing to admit that you don't really like them as much as everyone else? That's how our relationship has been. Q. How long have you known Subject 2? A. Much longer... Our parents have been friends for years, even before we were born! Kind of forced to hang out together. Nice girl... I'm still in shock about what happened... Q. Out of everyone involved, you seem to be holding yourself together pretty well. What are your thoughts about everything going on? A. I don't know... I haven't fully accepted in my mind that it's happened... I just... I've grown a poker face after being in the student council for so long, I guess? People don't like an emotional leader. Q. What happens now? A. I... Q. Why do you always hide your emotions? A. I don't-... Q. Why do you hold yourself above your peers? A. Because-... Q. Why do you think I called you here today? A. ... Q. Did you do it? Q. Did you know about it? Q. Why didn't you stop it? Q. You could have done something, couldn't you? Q. How many years will it take you to forget? Q. How many years will it take you to forgive? Q. Enid you need to speak up. A. We are done here."

Notes: Poor kid... I'm trying to see what subject this interview is about, but either way, that interviewer was extremely unprofessional. I'll see if I can track Ms. Johnson down for more information? I really hope I can... - 135

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7 pm

Twilight will settle in soon

Food is ready

Come get some!!!

You all have proven yourselves worthy

Thank you, for accepting me in your hearts again

It is an honor to be your leader

~S.P.

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6 pm

Do you all remember when I started posting?

I was so lonely here ...

But now, I have all of you!

I'm glad you're all here

Thank you

The fire is tall ...

Menacing...

~S.P.

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5 pm

The bonfire has been lit.

It glows against the sky

It's kind of a purple hue now

a periwinkle

One day, it'll fully fade to red

but for now, the blue is stronger.

It's odd that media and stories show Blue as the color for good and Red as the color for bad.

Yes, blue is the sea. But the ocean is terrifying. It can kill you in seconds.

Yes, red is like blood. But isn't blood what gives us life? What keeps us healthy?

Red is like fire. Fire can burn. But, fire can warm.

Peaceful Danger.

Positive Chaos.

That's what a lot of people fail to recognize.

We need more Red in our New World, I think.

~S.P.

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4 pm

Hmm...

I'm making some food for the feast

And June isn't saying a word to me.

She needs to be more grateful, I think.

She's been around her for too long, I think.

I'm sure we'll get our normal behaviored June back by the end of the day!

Who doesn't love bonding over good food with good people?

And by good people, I mean she won't be there.

~S.P.

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3 pm

I have started to build the pyre!

It's... uhh... taller than expected... but THAT'S OKAY I THINK

Don't fall into the big pit filled with wood

We won't be able to get you back out

~S.P.