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Some of yall have funny users love it. Needed a laugh thank you tumblr user [redacted for privacy]

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hey uh new type of ao3 spam comment just dropped. (I know it's spam because the fic they left this comment on . doesn't have chapters. lmfao). Report this kinda comment as spam and don't take it personally it is literally recycled bullshit

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have you ever been cheated on? yes no nuance results

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GOD I can't believe I slept on papyrus I need to hold his hand NOW!!!!!

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i need to start romanticizing my life again I need to take a chapter out of my goat Rose's book

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also i think responding to hunger cues with "i'll just drink coffee or tea because i know it can silence them" is like. not at all a good thing. like this was the kind of shit they told us about in my human health and nutrition class and WHOOP! here we are, like 5 years later hyper aware

I think. I like how my body is built actually. I do think losing some weight did do me some good mentally because I did put some on- but I do think. At this point in time continuing to lock myself in a deficit is only going to make me feel bad again. At least until I can consistently go out and do my walks/runs-- too humid outside... cant stand it--- like

i do think a lot of what was wrong post losing the initial chunk of weight was me wanting several things. wanting to conform to standards (but tbh... if people treat me better because im skinny then i dont want to be skinny), wanting to kill off a version of me that someone else got to physically perceive (which yk, looking at it after the initial rush unpacking that trauma gifted me, isnt really.. healthy i think. like i should do this because i WANT to and WANT to reclaim, not to destroy something because its someone elses memory), and blah blah blah

idk like. i think i like how i look, right now in the moment. i know this feeling of peace wont last but im going to cling onto it because i *needed* this. i dont think id look good thin anyway, i have really broad shoulders and hips, and ive been fat my entire life so having no extra meat is definitely going to be... weird...

and i dont feel like changing out my entire wardrobe. im already annoyed enough that my shorts keep slipping LMAO

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I think. I like how my body is built actually. I do think losing some weight did do me some good mentally because I did put some on- but I do think. At this point in time continuing to lock myself in a deficit is only going to make me feel bad again. At least until I can consistently go out and do my walks/runs-- too humid outside... cant stand it--- like

i do think a lot of what was wrong post losing the initial chunk of weight was me wanting several things. wanting to conform to standards (but tbh... if people treat me better because im skinny then i dont want to be skinny), wanting to kill off a version of me that someone else got to physically perceive (which yk, looking at it after the initial rush unpacking that trauma gifted me, isnt really.. healthy i think. like i should do this because i WANT to and WANT to reclaim, not to destroy something because its someone elses memory), and blah blah blah

idk like. i think i like how i look, right now in the moment. i know this feeling of peace wont last but im going to cling onto it because i *needed* this. i dont think id look good thin anyway, i have really broad shoulders and hips, and ive been fat my entire life so having no extra meat is definitely going to be... weird...

and i dont feel like changing out my entire wardrobe. im already annoyed enough that my shorts keep slipping LMAO

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Shoutout to people with “scary” f/os. Shoutout to people whose f/os are heavily mischaracterized by the fandom, maybe by their own source. Shoutout to people with f/os who are completely under-appreciated. Shoutout to people who love their unconventional f/os more than anything.

[ Dividers by @/kodaswrld ]

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Imiss my wife guys... I miss him a lot

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What is the worst part of vomiting?

-Taste

-Texture

-Sight

-Sound

-Smell

-Potential for making a mess

-Losing control of your body

-Germs

-Other physical issue (eg abdominal pain from heaving, nasal/sinus discomfort from it accidentally getting into your nose, etc)

-Other non-physical issue (eg shame, vulnerability, food waste, etc)

-See results

* from it accidentally getting into your nose, etc)

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Genuinely feeling better after kicking the deficit. I don't feel as tired anymore and my brains not all unfocused, I'm so much less irritable and I've only been off it for three days now. I'm still going to be physically active, as much as I can be at least, but God. It kind of makes me feel stupid for dragging this out for so long, esp because I was AWARE I was harming myself. My goal was never really weight loss, and tbh the goal was so vague and whim like I don't even remember what sparked it. I'm down thirty pounds, that's nice at least. I'm still overweight but I'm overall healthy- I was still healthy before I dropped down

I hope this little rush isn't temporary and I'm not sucker punched with the guilt of stopping- I grew to despise baking and cooking, and that's not... good... especially since that's literally like. The thing I want to get into career wise

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does dairy (that is not out of date) leave a sour taste in your mouth?

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I SAW UR OC MARI AND THOUGHT SHE WAS NEAT AND UH EXPLODES

Sorry if I got any details wrong and if it's ass also II need to actually send this ask before I die

Snapping myself out of bed so quick OOUUUGGHHH SHES SO CUTE I LOVE HER THANN YOU SOBS9BSOBSOBSOBS9BSSOBS

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idk trying to keep it real but like

i think between the horrible calorie deficit (forcing myself to eat 700-800 calories when my MAINTANENCE is like 2.5k), slowly realizing OVER AND OVER that ive been assaulted in multiple ways for years without processing it as such, unpacking that "hey just because i LOOKED white doesnt mean the things that were done to me werent done out of hate for the fact i was mixed race", having my hormones and period knocked out of whack (likely because of the aforementioned deficit), AND working on several different projects and irl things at once like...

might actually not be a healthy or good situation to be in. i feel dizzy eating now, and thats not... good i think

idk what this will mean for my writing stuff, i feel like im in too deep now to call it quits on all the projects but i do think im going to hit my lowest soon- i know its inevitable if something doesnt change

i think.

ill be nice to myself today and make brownies

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Must I dawn my apron today must I indulge in gluttony

"oh boys i cants wait to get back on my deficit so i can eventually get to my goal weight and end this nightmare thats teetering on disorder!"

i was then smited with the sickening desire to fuck up several vanilla cupcakes

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"oh boys i cants wait to get back on my deficit so i can eventually get to my goal weight and end this nightmare thats teetering on disorder!"

i was then smited with the sickening desire to fuck up several vanilla cupcakes

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Genuinely feels so nice being on the reading end of x reader posts again

I've spent so long being the writer that I haven't really given myself the chance to allow myself to read