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what bpd feels like

being alone in the dark

you don’t fit it anywhere. anywhere.

you don’t know anymore what your true identity is

every time you feel bad, it’s the worst you’ve ever been. there’s no hope.

every time you feel good, you don’t get why you ever felt bad. you can do anything.

you either speak too little or too much.

you’re either too impulsive and wild or too calm and boring.

whenever you say something, it always turns out wrong. you never know what’s the right thing to say.

if you love someone, you love like crazy. you’d literally die for them, and i’m not kidding.

if someone you care about and love says something that feels slightly off or doesn’t respond to your messages for a while, that’s it. they hate you. they never needed you. you’re trash and a waste of space.

when you hate someone, you hate hard. you split like crazy and afterwards hate yourself even more for it.

you feel like you’re always selfish and manipulative and talk about yourself too much.

you barely have control over your emotions. they hit you like a tsunami every time, leaving you drained.

you have impulses to self harm or do things that you know are blatantly stupid.

every day you want to die.

you’re pretty sure your friends are tired of you and your problems.

if you don’t let your anger out, it builds up in you and messes up your mind even more.

you have hard time making decisions.

you feel like you’re not worth shit because of the way you are.

you feel like everyone’s just lying to you because they don’t wanna be rude to you, but they all actually secretly hate you.

you don’t know yourself anymore. every day you have a different personality. 

you’re actually scared of yourself and what you might do.

you just want to love others and be loved, but it seems impossible.

you hate having bpd.

YOU HATE HAVING BPD.

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Partner has gone nonverbal, what do I do? (info)

So I am one of the unfortunate souls who goes nonverbal whenever I get severely stressed out and/or self-loathing (because I think I screwed something up between me and my partner)

SO,

To help others out  who have possibly had this issue (or have a partner who have this issue), here’s some tips that might help you!

BE PATIENT! Give them time to formulate words. Give them time to ground themselves. Don’t get mad at them if it’s only a 1-5 word response, and/or they stutter. They are TRYING to speak to you, but their anxiety is preventing them.

Ask questions that will be simple “yes” or “no” answers. This requires precision with your words (for example: “ Do you want me to hug you? Do you want me to put a blanket around you?”).

Offer them a notepad with writing utensil. If they can’t speak for whatever reason, they might be able to write down what is on their mind. There are some applications out there that helps individuals who are nonverbal

Give them something cold to hold that has texture (such as an orange).This can help ground the individual and bring them back to reality.

After the incident, offer to talk about it in a safe, comfortable setting. Your partner might be able to better talk about the specific incident after the incident has taken place. They will have had time to process what had happened. 

 Take them out of the stressful environment. If there is something (or someone) in the room stressing them out, offer to remove it. Be specific with your questions. This might help them be able to form words again.

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BPD myth busted!

Myth: people with borderline are just overdramatic

Fact: people with borderline feel emotions much more intensely and for a longer period of time than people without the disorder

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I’ve lost so many battles, but I’m telling you, I’m not going to lose the war.

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Don’t allow your wounds to turn you into a person you are not.

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My BPD ass. Every damn time.

Me: They're not ignoring me, they're just busy. This isn't about me. The world does not revolve around me. They're allowed to do other things that make them happy and I should be happy for them. It does not mean they've abandoned me.

BPD: *snorts* I mean sure, keep telling yourself that...

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me: damn why is my personality so unstable

my personality disorder: sup

me: oh right

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this is the recovery you are meant to ache

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