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Stayed Down

You stayed down with meHow could i let you downYou showed me loyaltyYou gave me love i thought didn’t existI adore the truthfulnessYou never threw me awayYou held me till my feelings were in syncThe overflow is genuineThe way you praise me – i will forever stay down with youYou never traded on me – No lebronOur love is like the relationship kobe had with the lakersWe making scores like curryThree…

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Fuck…

Lose to winFeelings evaporatingThe mutual respect decreases with each passing dayThe willingness is unorthodox nothing usualThe up to no good is bitterA triggerPain and suffering of the pretending of love is a lossTears forming rivers of no endingThe energy has evaporated instead of escalatingRefusing to have sleepless nightsThe differences is no longer interestingInfidelity as your true…

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Honeycomb

Taste like honeySticky to ever lickI’m the real honey-b-hiveFlown in with miraculous powersBlack never lack as my color will never define the superior character of IPure sting to the heartI give you life without resuscitationDripping chocolate all over the placeDevour my honeycomb with every bite upon your tastebudsLet it ease into your pores as you feel the sweet sensationKicking flavors as I…

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7 years old

Once I was seven years oldMy mommy told me to make friendsYet that word is no favorFriends become enemies not knowing whyDrifting away as the breeze blew heavySpiraling out of controlThat’s majorI don’t believe in failuresIn this world we pushed each other to be betterYet turning 11 hit differentlyThose friendships seem to sink of no gloryTurning 20 was a big differentiatorHigh school over as we…

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Book 8 dropping soon…. Loading

I took the cap off my penBeginning in 2001 when I wrote my first stanzaI scoped the lines as each word let offThat was a vintage pieceYears passed and decided to be a triple threat on my behalfDelivering formats that was off the grid of original content of poemsI told myself I wasn’t going to stop my directionsMade it on a internet poetry radio stationDrop books so the time I put in was worth the…

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Love

I just want you….I just want you near meHands rubbing my glass frameTelling me things no other one spoke aboutWe chilling and laughing our time awayMaking memories only we can tell the true storyNo phones to interruptLips connecting our bondsYou deserve to be that dudeYou’re the boss calling plays as we live life on the very edgeI want you always deep within my poresFeeling your energy is a…

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Rules

Rules to my poetry: Charging to my losses to ink and paperAsking the words to forgive myself or notThey holding agony as each word displayed good and badHowever, forgiveness of my feelings was temptingDown bad asking God to fix itApologizing for the paragraphs I wrote upEach stanza represents truthYet every one thought lessThe devil busy as I sit with the notepad next to meReady to do a drive by…

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Even

Getting Even… We built a concept for the futureLove was magnified until we realized that love shouldn’t be hiddenWe built a empire from pain and suffering of othersWe became serious by no accidentWe collided with a burst of fireworks Then something felt like the wrong turnYou disconnectedYou disqualified yourselfYou never respected meYou gradually took me for grantedOur function of us was…

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Mistake

The biggest mistake was falling into the palms of your handsThe biggest mistake was saying those three words “I Love You”The biggest mistake was giving you my ear to listen to the bull-shitAt this point the feeling of being myself is worth the lonelinessThe fuck up is I’m the one to blameLetting my guard down to let you walk thruFuck… you’re the biggest mistake I madeFeeling foolish like Ashanti…

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Death of a Heart

All I ever wanted was a real oneSeeing the future was the vision I crownedYet my time was wastedFalling for unrealistic expectationsI say fuck’emThe goals no longer existYou became a flight riskI provided what you was missingThe feeling is not even worth itPartnership was the blueprintYou became conniving as you brought harm to my sanityMental illness caught me off guardTears flowedAnxiety kicked…

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Blessing

I’m a blessingA lessonTop classThe way I handle my businessThe way I would never settle for lessI can careless what any bitch think or feel they can do betterMy spit game on throat throttleUnderstand your blessingI’m ride it like a G-5 full speedTop notch driverThe need for speed as your adrenaline rush to new heightsClothes still on and yet the shaft on saluteThis is war for any bitch trying meI…

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Queen

I been a Queen before you stepped in proximityI been a Queen before you suggested a throneI been a Queen before you painted lies upon my footstepsI been a Queen before you tried to play me for some princessDraped in gold as my crown sit firmly perfectly upon the dome of a DiamondMy appearance reflects greatness without me speaking to engrave a conversation to satisfy your desireI am what I say I…

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The Flower

FlowersThey say flowers are given as an apologyI’m sure I don’t want your sorry in no kind of form or gestureFlowers are useless to meThey will eventually die away like the love I cast for youEach pedals represent the chaos you caused meThe stem that was drenched in water no longer given food to my soulNow the pedals are weathering away as the the buds fall to my feet where you once stood in…

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Under….

Underestimated by allInfluence by noneUnderstood by the most highestUnderrated pen flowUnless to the paperSpontaneous of wordsPoetry is my outlet of good and evilSupport comes and go by the close onesOutrage I have none to the ones of dispassionate as my own influence comes from self aspirationsTold to drop the pen but as I unfold the reality of dynamic versatility… I owe my words a freedom of…

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Nothing in between us

Let me wispier my apologiesSo the entire world can see the truth settling upon your faceI refuse to let anything come between usThis adrenaline feeling is loveI lost myself inside your soulYou came in my life and reversed the trajectory of love that feels like heaven sent flying into harmonyMy guard was surrounded by disappointment but on God…. He graciously accepted my request of forever with…

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New One

I see you got a new oneThe one who you cheated on me withRocking match chain linksTemptation had you texting and sexing herYou thinking you doing betterHearing through the streets soon she will have a name changeEntanglement of trying to love in a triangleI should of known better hearing your phone go off at 2 AMYou coming home smelling like perfume I would never spray onThe glow up was upon your…

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You will not be the death of Me

Trying to fathom my thoughtsWondering why I call and text and you leave me on readI see the message of deliveredYou got me feeling insecureLooking stupidLooking goofyMy headaches became migrainesYou’re choosing to loose me and not love meGhosting is your thingEntertaining these body to keep your body-count on guardI thought you were the best thing for meYou gave me this vibe you would ride till…