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happy pride specifically to my friend whom i temporarily blocked so they would be safe from my hatred (and bouts of delusions) of relationships when they themself are not quite well

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want a soda part 2. this time i requested it from this hellish body's father (he forgot and sounded too annoyed when asking if i wanted him to go back in the gas station)

just want a damn soda

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month without friend i will go insane and talk to my mirror again

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the absolute wildest thing to me rn is that it's cheaper for me to buy fabric and have it imported via proxy services than buying it from anywhere else. this is specifically about quilted fabric i would use to sew a gambeson for a cosplay.

well, either buy quilted fabric or quilt it myself, and i got cute patterned cotton i could use but damn i don't want to quilt an entire fuckin bodice.

but also how am i supposed to hide the seams of a quilted thing if i put sleeves in it?

there's also heart quilted fabrics which would be so cute on a gk cosplay and i made a cute design of him. i say as if im not making a dmk costume rn

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> starts day sounding like a villain

> gets to sew with friend

> is fixed

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why was my dream exclusively me ranting about airride2 to a dead person

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just want a damn soda

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i hate people. absolutely loathsome. gas station food would fix me

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my dearest, closest, most beloved/loathed best friend is yet again mentally ill. which, same

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the super villain speech pattern has claimed me

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man. i fucking abhore all relationships

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SINCE WHEN HAVE I HAD A FUCKING NETFLIX ACCOUNT?????? TIME TO WATCH HEDGHOGS I FUCKING GUESS??????

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it's back to freezing temps

SNOW FUCK

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uggggh ever rant to a friend then get paranoid so you go like sorry i ever said anything and thrn want to die only for them to say you need to make up your mind on if you're going to talk about stuff or not since they're sick of going it's fine but they literally dont have to do that so your slightly unstable brain interprets it is you never can talk about anything again now you're trying to not have a panic attack at your college and then learn your school is weird because others dont have class and now you're breaking down at a plate and realize that you never can truly expain to your friend that you mildly lost it and you're convinced they wouldn't believe you and you KNOW it's all on you because you know your brain is like that but you know you got to not be awful or else you'll never survive the world

haha no? same

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okay i saw a post that i agree with about DID BUUUTTTT it reminded me of something annoying a peer at college said. additional context: this bitch has an ex with DID, doesn't know i have it and that they talked to the most destructive persecuter (curie, aka our radiation nerd who likes school) in this damn head for the majority of our time knowing each other.

so the post was about how alter roles isn't a cut and dry thing (so fucking based, not the issue here). and one time college person had me invade a system discord server to spy on their ex.

side rant, the two started dating after like 2 or 3 months of knowing each other and were together for a year. yall fucking alloromantics confuse me.

but while they had me spy, they started complaining about how persecuters need to stay away from people, because their ex apparently never was accountable for shit. like okay what the fuck man. so enter me remembering that a big switch happened that took curie's subsystem and made it front so much less (literally for curie's safety ppl were fucking weird to them).

now curie, that bitch (dw they're my friend) is crazy, got issues, who doesn't. but important to note, they proudly use the lable of persecuter. does it fit? hell if i know but that's what they say fits.

and yeah the college freak doesn't know about my DID, but to remember they interacted with someone they believe shouldn't be allowed around people is pissing me off. and the suspicion they would make life hell if i shared that with them. like come on, i need someone to be useful at school that lives nearby.

that fucker also acted stupid when saying they wanted to be vp of a club, and keeps sharing shit i tell them privately. they also act like all the hot autistic bitches (including me) are getting their passive aggressive body language ques. and they're judging me n other based on private things they snoop on. like me laughing about a slur i can fucking say, with my bestiest friend, who can also say it. maybe i should burn the bridge by telling them about the disorder... I'll debate on it because I'm so fucking pissed off

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it's bouncing between 30 and 70 wtf is southern February

SNOW FUCK

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i have managed the dragoon 3 games in a row

why are gamecube games so much harder now that I'm a grown ass adult??? what was kid me on to master air ride and monkey ball???