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This is a piece of work that I did in a short, geometric burst of “fuck it”. 

I didn’t let hesitation get in the way of me wanting to create something. So I did it haphazardly, and then I added layer after layer. This is what growing up feels like. Making small steps of a stride when a moment of letting go of inhibitions comes along, and then you go back and add layers after layers to make it your own thing. For 24 years now, I feel like I have repeated loops of what I produce, and more time than I can count trying to think of reasons to not do something. Stuff like, “I don’t have the right computer”, “I don’t have the time or space to make something that doesn’t matter the absolute most”, or the most common one, “What if I do it and it was all for nothing because nothing came of it”. 

When making something, you can’t worry about what it might be or should be. You just have to go off of the whim that you need to or want to create something, and run with it.

I want to move forward with my life, not trying to recreate things I feel stuck on. I am allowed to do things haphazardly if it is what gets me going. I do not need to let that be the thing that holds me back.