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Resident Evil 3: Nemesis Playstation 1999

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Resident Evil 3: Nemesis Playstation 1999

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Resident Evil 2 (1998)

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Sound on !

Warnings : violence/gore, flashing lights, spoilers for Gravity Falls/Journal 3/The Book of Bill

Saw someone suggesting Your Wicked Company by Harley Poe as a Billford song and then I blacked out for two months

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Frankenstein Directed by James Whale (1931)

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bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

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Some road that goes somewhere, Kimmo Ojaniemi

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Ah the joys of siblings

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I wonder if you can feel me

Thinking about you so deeply

I’m gonna start weeping

I don’t have time to rhyme

I wish we were okay

I took you for granted

I didn’t build you up the way I should’ve

I sabotaged us

I tore you down

I regret it all the time

And I’m questioning myself

I feel so vulnerable

Is that why

You made me feel whole

And they say let something you love go

And if it doesn’t come back it was never really yours

And that’s when the harsh reality sets in

It’s so deep and painful and I feel it actually ache and hurt

It’s not a sting it’s a genuine wound

I wish you’d fight for me

I wish you’d revive us the way I’d given you so many chances

It’s not fair how the cookies crumbles

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In practice it is every day 😅

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quick dreams pt1

Of course this is the dream that prompts me to start a segment of my dreams. I don’t know why I feel so weird about it, I guess it’s been a while. I think about him everyday, and I’ll always have so much hurt about it. I can say fuck it and act like I don’t care, but my first love hurt so bad. Quickly while it’s still fresh in my head, I keep hesitating and typing it makes me feel so weird. Again, it’s been so long. I was 13, 7 years later here I am D, same website different blog writing about you. Same feelings, different girl. I was in your house and you didn’t know yet. I guess I just showed up, I’m pretty sure the last time I went to your house is the time I just showed up with Gary. I think I was a sophomore going into my junior year, I’ll be honest I forget and it feels like we really did finish when I was 13. ----

I snapchatted Maycol about you, how stupid could I be? LMAO talking ab “reaxxxxx” he’s fine of course, how weird

Continuing the thought, it’s not as fresh anymore. But yeah basically I was in your house when I wasn’t invited and you didn’t know. Moments later you’re like oh wtf, basically saying you were going to do the same thing as last time. Gtfo, in a nice mean awkward freaked out way. This look on your face that I can still picture pretty well if I wanted to. 

---- I couldn’t even finish this, too weird

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alone pt2

Of course, here we go again 

Sometimes it feels so good to just be alone

Sometimes I would do anything to be alone

Sometime I wish that I could teleport into my lonely bed and put my head under the sheets just so I can stop and close my eyes and breath 

Sometimes I can’t function and everything falls apart 

And I hate that everywhere I go I continuously fuck things up or don’t do things in the moment and then it comes back to bite me later

I don’t even know wtf 

Or do I

Same dumb ass problem from when I was 16 only now I have to be here to be able to support myself and this fake image 

Am I really smoking too much or is it that I still have no self control 

Remember that joke about how when you can smoke 4 jays and not feel anything so your body is telling you that you’re ready for coke? 

LMFAO

How fucking funny, coke is amazing 

But dude there’s never enough, there never will be 

And when the times comes that maybe, just maybe, that I made it?

And what if I do get rich? 

What am I gonna do then? 

With the little bit of funds that I have now I toss them all willy nilly

Will I die of an overdose for having no self control? 

When will I finally be able to say enough is enough before running my shit down to 0 or before my nose falls off like that one fucking story me and Dora read

Fuck,, and then I would REALLY be alone lmao 

So scary, I’m a bad person

What if I am not reunited with my heavenly father 

I swear I would just tell everyone about how I never eqanted kids and I never wanted to get married

It’s odd how everything words, I never want to leave your side

I don’t want your kids, or do I?

You dislike kids just as much as me 

Do I like that? Hmmmmmm....

Everyone that I’ve dated has told me they were gonna marry me, that I would be convinced to have their babies 

It was nice to hear, but here I am

Not with them, but with you

Cuffed, I am yours

I am your girlfriend 

I am not alone

I am a friend, sister, aunt, and co worker 

I will and can be ok, it’s fine

I need to say that it’s fine and okay to remind myself to be positive bc it could be so much worse 

Being ok and things being fine doesn’t mean it’s perfect but that’s okay, not everyday or moment will be 

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My boyfriend pt 3

How do I want to start these? With a recap? C and I are doing well, I wouldn’t say amazing but I also wouldn’t say it wasn’t good 

I think we’re fine, and that’s fine. I know everyday isn’t going to be perfect and I know that we’ll still be okay

I just want to honestly pour my heart out, and I want to set everything out and organize my feelings on the table. I don’t even mean to be poetic, I just wish I could somehow explain even a small portion of how I feel for you/ 

I feel on top of the world. I hate that I’m weird about it too 

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exploring with dora the exploradora pt1

I want to write about one of my most close relationships, especially since I’ve opened up to her almost more than anyone even more than my abusive ass ex. 

Last night we went on a jay ride, it was really nice and I had a lot of fun

I think about weed all the time, because I am high all the time technically 

I always have my dab pen and I will always hit it

Sitting here right now reminds me of about 10 months ago we were just in my car forever. 

I swear we were both just fueling each others sadness with cushioning and burrowing and I don’t think it was as bad as I thought it was

we had each other and we were safe at least the time we spent at my house

i’m sure I lost some of the weight with the friendship, and I know I gained some with it too

Dora has made me insecure but she’s great, I love her a lot

When she gets comfortable and really wants to be friendly its so nice to see her be loud and talkative 

I will always enjoy her adorable stories of when she was a child

Very adorable, but mature and thought out

I hope we never stop being friends

I would hate to have to try and find someone I feel that comfortable with