thediaryofafool

[thediaryofafool]

Meeting you was like meeting a part of me I didn't know was missing. The moment I saw you standing outside in an outfit not suited for the cold, I felt a swell of emotions, both good and bad. Anxiety. Fear. Happiness. Love. I thought I was ready for it. I thought I was ready for you. I thought there was no way I could be surprised, that we'd have a couple drinks and go our separate ways for the night. But you asked me and my friend back to your room. You made him play your game, and watching you light up and try to help him get the best ending... It out things in perspective. Love wasn't the right word anymore. There was so much more to it than that. As the night went on, that became more and more apparent. I liked who you were. Not the idea of who you were. The person I saw. The subtle things. The way you can't sit still when you're excited. The way you get loud when you think someone isn't listening to you. The way your nose crinkles when you laugh. We spent the night together. You let me hold you, and you held me in return. You didn't get mad when I couldn't get comfortable. You comforted me when I needed you to most. You didn't let me feel bad, didn't let me slip down that slope. And laying there with you, I felt something I hadn't ever felt before. Normal. Truly and utterly normal. Something unfamiliar to me, and yet you were able to give it to me like it was nothing.

You aren't perfect. Nobody is. But you see me like nobody else does. You see my fake smiles and call me out on them. You see my real smiles, and you smile back.

In just two days, I've seen so many sides of you. I've seen you excited, happy, exhausted, irritated, sad, jealous, and angry. I want to see more. And I want you to see more of me.

I know you're confused. I know you don't know what you feel for me. Neither of us knows where this is going. Neither of us know where we want this to go. And that's okay. Because even if you we don't end up together, as long as we stay together, I'll be happy. And as long as you stick with me, I'll stick with you. No matter what.

Together forever, right?