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lana del rey photographed by chuck grant - 2013

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Nita Collins

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Sunset Safari Impossible Project film 28x32"

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Tw. Ed behavior is so bizarre, and hard to discuss even at the college level everyone is always so triggered about discussing weight but the truth of the matter it's all on the societal clock all about grand picture, what does the other person perceive? doesn't matter if it's accurate but do they see me as my smallest self?

I have been so good with my habits as of recent cooking meals based on my cycle and nutrient needs but then I mix together some chocolate chips grape jelly and some pbfit and that to much for me??

Like I used to eat ice cream and Taco Bell and not purge but looking at the choice to purge and not feel guilty or think about it as mark on my body is kinda where I'm at?? I haven't purged in forever and the fact a chocolate pb jelly sandwich with a cup of coffee sent me there is kinda concerning but also ?? Why am I impulsively eating? Like yes I'm on my cycle but it wasn't out of hunger cues or anything like while I was mixing up the concoction I had the idea and I still kept going and mixing and then eating? I don't feel bad about it I just feel weird, purging isn't a cute thing, I don't want ruin my teeth. Its weird what I consider a binge was probably 300+ calories but what others consider a binge is like 1000+

not tryna trigger no thin spo cause i wouldn't put that on me or anything but ew? It's really just sweets that I find disgusting? Like if I would have ate some eggs and cheese i wouldn't have had a second thought but the sugar is gross??? Like in the baked dairy sweet candy chocolate milk way not in the small jolly rancher and gum way? But also please don't give me gummy worms or? Heavily sweetened beverages? No frappees. I can't wait to be off my period I hate this feeling I don't want to feel sick and bloated all the time I'd rather be a shell

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Being over a yr celibate is crazy dick is a disease

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Surrealism by Christoper McKenny

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a gift, and i love him

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juan brenner

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Wet Veil, c. 1937

Photography: Erwin Blumenfeld

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Myself, Lamar Odom, the basketball player went to Memphis and Graceland old house along my old hairdresser, who is it Photographer? For some reason and this other lady who my friend was friends with ? it's a horror festival at Graceland there was this animatronic of a homeless man, a wolf and a groundhog or a chipmunk in a shoe that you would pass and they jump out at you and for some reason we leave the festival after touring Elvis house and as we about to leave, the Photographer comes and in-came pictures, wanting pictures, she made rude comments about my face so I went to go find Lamar to leave, he was saying he used to live in Graceland before they restored everything and one of the rooms used to be all cheetah print and red the radio was attached to Piano, so he sits down he pulled somebody up on CV and they started talking but then I went to go hide from the tag game being played by everyone else in the house, But when Lamar comes back out, he's different he's contorted Backbend the ring Stranger things upside down mind-flayer contorted And then it was like the tornado hit and everything went in flames and I'm just running through Graceland early in the morning all the workers crying starring at me watching me run from the mess of a mass burning in the background which is now Graceland and Elvis's home

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I ran 3 miles today and I still feel horrible

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