thefunctionofarubberducksthings

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Bro this fucking chest pain, shortness of breath, and inability to cough better have a simple fix bc i dont wanna lose him. I dont want him to die when he's just stopped counting down the days to his death.

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I love you, and we almost made it

I trusted you, but actions speak louder than words.

So you can imagine how I fell in love with the unspoken words on your guitar strings when I woke up that morning

Or the sound of your fucking laugh at one of our stupid jokes

The way you would call me every night and soon your breathing would b all I heard,

but I didnt mind bc that was enough of your company

I finally had a person to think of in love songs something with someone that I could hope for.

I didnt fall head over heels

Honestly I didnt fall at all

I think somehow I was in love with u before I met you

I must've been

And some part of u was in love with me too

So

Why did u let me wait

Why did u lie and say u weren't ready yet when u never were going to b

Why didn't u tell me when u figured out u couldn't stand being so far apart

You let me fall in love with u more everyday until I loved every part

So next time if this happens again, don't play them fucking guitar as they fall asleep

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Bro toxic guys confuse me. Like one just was at his friends house got on his pc to talk to me just to tell me A wants to fuck me and ask how I feel abt that. And when I was like ik were chill we just friends. Homeboi got triggered af started telling me As gonna commit die bc of me and then tried to insult me ig??? And I just responded to all this with uhuh ok cool bc ik A in fact is not horny only want love and cuddle and also is gay and has crush on someone else. But like what did this guy want me to do? Say oh no horrible let me lead him on for six months use him for his body and break his heart bc I can do that if ud rather??? Like I dont understand y he was so pressed abt it lol. I do wish I had been like bruh u took time out of ur day to tell me something I already knew on ur friends pc like this isnt even urs why r u so pressed about something that doesnt effect you is your life really so meaningless that this is the best u can come up with. Wheres the spice wheres the flavorrrrrrr

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Me: I'm not worried abt A anymore I think they just wanna b friends:)

The universe:

A (literally 5 min later): Hey, uhhh how much do u like me?

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sometimes I remember this guy who like wanted me to roleplay as his uncle pretending to rape him, but nothing else. I hope hes doing ok but bruh is u good like sir

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The saddest thing is I have one friend who I think uses sexual attention from boys to make herself feel worthy. And she blames herself for what they do to her. She thinks its justified because of how she acted or what she wears. When it's not. But she keeps going to back to the same type of boy and expects different results. She leaps at any half decent boy and will justify abusive behavior because the boy is attractive. She either refuses to admit or actually doesnt believe that this is a problem, and she is worth more than what a boy sees her as.

Idk maybe I'll write her a poem abt it.

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I need to step up my fucking game my friend gave herself an acab stick n poke

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The more I think about my mental state the worst my headache gets

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I'm hype I accidentally sent a girl the link to my discord server (bc I just made it and had been sending it to ppl) instead of the paragrpah for the story thing and she said I was cute and she would join the server soooo 😎😎😎

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Stg I responded to someone being depressed on my friends discord server being like hey hope ur ok which is good except they're responding with cryptic edgelord stuff and seem kinda suicidal and I'm scared bc I've never talked down a stranger before

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The gayest I've ever felt was when a cute egirl told her first impression of me was yep that's a dyke

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Ngl being mentally stable is fucking whack I feel like I just woke up and began living my life last year.

Also now that I'm in an average place I don't wanna do crazy things and fuck it up. Like I cant even simp over a drug dealer in peace :/

Last thing I feel overwhelmingly gay

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Schl makes me want to give up but I dont have time to worry abt that bc I'm so fucking stressed out abt schl work. But its definitely not good that I'm thinking about breaking my hand so I literally cannot type/write.

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*deep sigh*

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Ok so like a year ago someone posted on insta that their dog died and i commented rest in piece which is the wrong kind of piece right but i didnt notice for a week and then I waited a long time but I finally deleted it bc I felt so bad but now my best friend just posted on her story that her rabbit died and she spelled it rest in piece so idk if I should tell her or not bc that's kinda mean but also its rlly embarrassing ahhhhhh

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Who the FUCK created finals week this is the worst idea I've ever fucking heard. Making all the finals at the same time? Who the hell does that? Idiots that's who. Imagine if u spread it out so for the last couple weeks u had 2 finals/week thatd b absolutely fine. Zero complaints. Karen is happy. Stress is decreased. Very zen. Very new age. Very NIT STUPID LUKE FINALS WEEK

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Adding on to this y should skinny white boys who looks like skaters get all the attention?? What abt the gals possibly a skater girl appreciation post...

As a girl with curly hair, I think we should get the same attention as boys with curly hair the fact that my hair doesnt make me magically more attractive? Honestly? I feel excluded