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“Loving someone is taking a constant risk with your emotions. When you find the right person,the one you know you want to be with, that person becomes worth the risk.”

— Monica Murphy, Second Chance Boyfriend

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“I will love you with the dust of who I was, with the skin I am now, and with the bones that will one day decorate my tomb.”

— Christopher Poindexter

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April 13, 1913 Letters to Felice by Franz Kafka First published : 1973

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author: lostcap  /  poems used: x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x  * do not remove this credit , thank you.

❛ what a modern fucking tragedy you turned out to be. ❜ ❛ what do you think the stars wish for then? ❜ ❛ maybe i could have loved you in any life but ours. ❜ ❛ i used to ache for a hurricane, an earthquake. ❜ ❛ i found a catalyst for disaster in you. ❜ ❛ is this what happens when the poem ends? ❜ ❛ i found religion in betrayal. ❜ ❛ things like us only exist in dreams. ❜ ❛ you can’t give your storms to someone else. ❜ ❛ nothing lasts forever, not even the rain. ❜ ❛ it’s okay to fear. ❜ ❛ don’t claw out your own throat while waiting for someone else to scream. ❜ ❛ you are memories and moments. ❜ ❛ in some other universe you’re asleep. ❜ ❛ everyone leaves. let them. ❜ ❛ you are not a ghost.  ❜ ❛ you can’t haunt those that forget you. ❜ ❛ everything ends and it’s okay. ❜ ❛ my heart kept beating, out of sync with yours. ❜ ❛ maybe i get to have a reason for the ache you left in my chest. ❜ ❛ you exist still. ❜ ❛ we can’t remember how to be alive. ❜ ❛ the heavens burn for you and i. ❜ ❛ every star is another story, every night a different sky. ❜ ❛ we end to begin again. ❜ ❛ beyond every somewhere, we exist. ❜ ❛ the gods lie as often as men. ❜ ❛ i sit not upon a throne of bone. ❜ ❛ my kingdom wasn’t chosen. ❜ ❛ the dead of mine do not speak. ❜ ❛ history will write that you were the bravest of them all. ❜ ❛ all stars must burn. ❜ ❛ the greatest things must end. ❜ ❛ hell is just another place i guess i’ll go to keep you warm. ❜ ❛ if the monster always dies at the end of the book, why am i still alive? ❜ ❛ gods don’t care about what might have been. ❜ ❛ men shall fall and gods be forgotten. ❜ ❛ you will be remembered eternally. ❜

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devoted, yearning & obsessive

❝ you occupy my thoughts. day and night, even in dreams you're there. i want you to never stop haunting me. ❞

❝ i am eternally yours. until the stars go out. and maybe, even after that. ❞

❝ my heart bleeds the color of your soul. i would cut it out and put it in your palms if i could. ❞

❝ it's like you have knit yourself around my ribs. i could no more cut you out than i could remove my own lungs. ❞

❝ you are woven into my soul and i dare not cut a single thread. ❞

❝ i am yours, body and soul, to do with as you wish. ❞

❝ i don't require you to love me back, or to care for me as i do you. only let me be here, let me devote myself to you. that would be enough. ❞

❝ i want to trap your smile in a bottle and take it out when no one else can see. ❞

❝ you belong to me and i to you. ❞

❝ do not look away from me. i cannot bear it when i do not occupy your vision. ❞

❝ i will follow you. to the ends of the earth, to the very gates of hades and whatever might lay beyond. ❞

❝ i will always be here. no matter how far you go you can always come home to me. ❞

❝ tell me all the places you have been hurt, every rejection, every scar. let me love you in all the places where you have burned. ❞

❝ i will not ever let you go. ❞

❝ you cannot escape this. you cannot run away from the love we share. ❞

❝ what we have is deeper than words could capture. ❞

❝ i will be anything you desire. i pluck out the parts of me you find distasteful and stuff your love in the craters left behind. ❞

❝ tell me what you wish of me and i will do it. ❞

❝ i could spend all day merely watching the air in your lung. i would count every blink. i would cherish every sigh from your lips. i could watch you merely exist for the rest of my life. ❞

❝ don't let go of me. i think if you lost me i would die. ❞

❝ i will cut out the tongues of every man who has wronged you. ❞

❝ i wish i could crawl inside you and make a home out of the hollows of your bones. ❞

ACTIONS:

WATCH: for sender to watch receiver sleep.

WATCHED: for sender to wake up and find receiver watching over them.

DISCOVER: for sender to find a journal full of sketches receiver made of them and sender finds them looking at it.

DISCOVERED: for receiver to find a journal full of sketches receiver made of them.

FOLLOW: for sender to stalk receiver, claiming they're doing it to protect them.

FOLLOWED: for receiver to stalk sender and claim they're protecting them.

GOING: for sender to take receiver to a secluded cabin for a romantic getaway.

GONE: for receiver to take sender to a secluded cabin for a romantic getaway.

SACRIFICE: for sender to kill someone who wronged receiver as a grand gesture.

SACRIFICED: for receiver to kill someone who wrong sender as a grand gesture.

CAUGHT: for sender to catch receiver staring at them.

CATCHING: for receiver to catch sender staring at them.

REVEAL: for sender to slowly undress themselves while receiver watches, but doesn't touch.

REVEALED: for receiver to slowly undress themselves while sender watches, but doesn't touch.

BATHE: for sender to bathe receiver, meticulously and tenderly as if serving them.

BATHED: for receiver to bathe sender, meticulously and tenderly as if serving them.

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"I crave touch, yet I flinch every time someone is close enough."

— I have become rather fearful I suppose (via @dollpoetry)

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{Words by Anaïs Nin, from The Diary Of Anais Nin, Vol. 4 (1944-1947) / Cynthia Cruz from diagnosis,The glimmering room}

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“My blood suddenly knows you are gone It is shouting your name It runs down to the ends of my fingers looking for you”

— From This Is a Love Poem by Mary Fell 

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arlise's mind was awash with sensations as she felt the gentle caress of astoria's tongue against her own. a warmth surged within her, painting her cheeks a deep crimson, while a profound desire began to pulse through her veins, a longing that threatened to engulf her entirely. when arlise had stepped into astoria's chambers, she had an inkling of what awaited her; she understood the direction in which the night was headed. yet, nothing could have prepared her for the overwhelming sense of rightness that enveloped her in that moment.

as arlise inhaled sharply, she felt astoria's hands glide toward her thigh and breast, each touch igniting her skin with a delightful tingling sensation. "you may touch me in whatever manner you wish," arlise whispered softly against astoria's lips, cherishing the brief interlude before a response. with each daring caress from astoria, arlise felt a surge of confidence swell within her. she tentatively allowed her own tongue to explore in return, her teeth playfully grazing astoria's bottom lip. her hands tightened around astoria's neck for a heartbeat, then one slipped lower, drawn to the enticing curve of astoria's exposed cleavage, pausing just before her fingers could brush against the softness of her breast.

her legs opened generously at the other's touch, almost daring astoria to touch what lays between. the delicate fabric of her smallclothes allowed the palpable heat and dampness to seep through, an undeniable testament to the moment they shared. her courage was still building with each passing moment, and arlise let her hand finish trailing over astoria's breast before coming to rest on her slender waist, her fingers softly clawing into the flesh of her back, pulling her in closer. "what will become of us when my father hears of our affair?" a mix of trepidation and longing in her voice.

months had slipped by since astoria first mentioned the possibility of a romantic connection between her and arlise. it was clear to anyone who observed them that the two shared deep feelings for one another, and astoria had long been prepared to embrace those emotions. yet, she chose to be patient, understanding that arlise might need a little more encouragement. arlise had been raised in a prominent, though small, family, while astoria had the freedom that came with being born out of wedlock to a noble lineage. as a result of her status, astoria enjoyed a certain liberty to follow her heart, a privilege that arlise did not possess.

she relished the gentle caress of arlise's touch for a few precious moments before finally finding her voice. "the gods have conspired to bring us together," she declared, her tone imbued with certainty. "if we choose to move forward, only the gods themselves can sever this bond." with a graceful motion, astoria closed the distance between them, her hands slipping around arlise's waist. their lips met in a delicate dance, brushing softly against each other once, twice, and then a third time, before astoria finally pressed her lips against arlise's in a kiss that was both warm and profound—a kiss that spoke of passion and a whisper of desire. "i would journey to the farthest corners of the known world just to be by your side for all my days," she breathed, her voice rich with emotion. and with that, she kissed arlise once more, her hand trailing down to the softness of arlise's thigh, barely covered by thin smallclothes, while her other hand ventured ever so slowly towards the gentle curve of the woman's breast.

astoria deepened her kisses, her tongue moving in smooth, gentle dances that spoke of tenderness and longing. her thumb brushed softly against arlise's breast, a slow introduction to each delicate touch, as if unveiling a secret world of sensations. although astoria had only been with one woman before, just once, that experience had taught her invaluable lessons. now, she felt ready to take her time with arlise, eager to savor every precious moment they shared. “do you mind if I touch you there?” she whispered breathlessly, allowing just enough pause for a response before their lips collided once more in a fiery embrace.

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Mary Oliver, from "Dogfish" in New and Selected Poems

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‘TOL AND SMOL’ PROMPTS

feel free to combine these with dialogue whether it’s something you make up or from other memes your partner has reblogged. 

[ BEND ]  for the shorter muse to tug the taller muse down so they can kiss their forehead. 

[ LEAN ]  for the taller muse to lean down to kiss the shorter muse’s forehead. 

[ LIFT ]  for taller muse to lift up the smaller one and sit them on a surface where they can be eye level. 

[ CLIMB ]  for the shorter muse to find somewhere to perch so they can be eye level with taller muse. 

[ INTERRUPT ]  for shorter muse to stop during the middle of a conversation and stand on a chair/sit on a table so they can be eye level with the taller one. 

[ GIVE ]  for the taller muse to place their jacket around the shorter muse’s shoulders,  the garment essentially ‘swallowing them whole.’

[ TAKE ]  for the taller muse to find the shorter one has ‘borrowed’ a shirt/sweater/jacket etc.  which is oversized on them.  

[ GO ]  for the taller muse to pick up the shorter one and carry them away from a potential/just started fight. 

[ RIDE ]  for the taller muse to give the shorter one a piggyback ride so they don’t have to keep up. 

[ SEE ]  for shorter muse to insist on getting to ride on the taller one’s shoulders.  

[ FIND ]  for the taller muse to lift the shorter one by the waist so they can reach something. 

[ EMBRACE ]  for the taller muse to lift the shorter muse off the ground when they hug. 

[ CATCH ]  for the shorter muse to run and jump into the taller muse’s arms. 

[ CARESS ]  for the taller muse to pick up the shorter one to kiss them. 

[ GIVE ]  for the shorter muse to stand or climb to sit on a higher surface to demand a kiss from the taller one. 

[  PULL  ]  for the shorter muse to tug the taller one down by the collar to kiss them. 

[ URGE ]  for the taller muse to tilt the shorter one’s chin up so they can look at their face. 

[ LOWER ]  for the taller muse to kneel in front of the shorter one so they’re less intimidating. 

[ HELP ]  for the taller muse to use the advantage of their stature to shield the shorter one from something. 

[ AID ]  for the taller muse to pick up the shorter one to lift them over something  (  stairs,  while hiking, a large puddle etc.  ). 

[ INSIST ]  for the shorter muse to guide the taller one to sit so they don’t have to keep looking up. 

[ COMFORT ]  for the taller muse to tuck their chin atop the shorter one’s head while they hug. 

[ MELT ]  for the taller muse to lean down so they can bury their face into the shorter one’s shoulder. 

[ GENTLE ]  for the smaller muse to hug the taller one while they are seated so the taller one can hide their face against them. 

[ BLOCK ]  for the taller muse to stand in front of the shorter one to prevent them from having to see something. 

[ CUDDLE ]  for the taller muse to the big spoon. 

[ HELD ]  for the shorter muse to be the big spoon. 

[ TENDER ]  for the taller muse to kiss the shorter one’s head while they embrace. 

[ GENTLE ]  for the shorter muse to kiss the taller one’s chest while they hug. 

[ REST ]  for the shorter muse to lean forward and press their forehead against the tall one’s chest/shoulder while they stand in front of each other. 

[ TOUCH ]  for the taller muse to lean down and press their forehead to the shorter one’s. 

[ PRESS ]  for the shorter muse to take hold of the taller one’s face to pull them down so they can press their foreheads together. 

[ GAZE ]  taller muse is sitting and the shorter one who is standing in front of them takes their face into their hands while they talk. 

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𝐒𝐔𝐁𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐍𝐒𝐅𝐖 …

✦ a collection of prompts that can be considered nsfw, with a lot of teasing and tension driven prompts. adjust as needed ; send ‘ + reverse ‘ for sender and receiver to switch spots. Combine prompts by sending more than one.

「 SQUEEZE 」 : for sender to rest their hand on the receivers thigh , giving it a squeeze .

「 LINGER 」 : for senders touch to linger on the receiver.

「 MASSAGE 」 : for sender to give receiver a massage .

「 LOTION 」 : for sender to rub lotion into the receivers skin

「 SLIP 」 : for senders hand to slip between the receivers legs.

「 TUG 」 : for sender to tug on the receivers hair

「CLIMB 」 : for sender to climb into receivers lap

「PULL 」 : for the sender to pull receiver into their lap

「BITE 」 : for sender to bite the receiver ( include the location )

「 MARK 」 : for sender to leave hickies on receiver

「 BARE 」 : for sender to undress in front of receiver

「 HELP 」 : for sender to help receiver undress

「 GRIND 」 : for sender to grind against the receiver

「 HOT 」 : for sender and receiver to share a heated kiss

「 OOPS 」 : for sender to accidentally send receiver a risqué image.

「 CHIME 」 : for sender to purposefully send receiver a risqué image.

「 WHISPER 」 : for sender to whisper something suggestive in receivers ear

「 HOLD 」 : for sender to hold receivers throat

「 THROW 」 : for sender to throw receiver onto the bed

「 PRESS 」 : for sender to press receiver against a wall and kiss them

「 CAUGHT 」 : for sender to catch receiver pleasuring themselves

「 LIGHT 」 : for sender to touch the receiver with a feather light pressure.

「 INNER 」 : for sender to kiss along the inside of receivers thigh

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𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓 & 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒. prompt | accepting "One kiss, and no one would have to know... unless you want them to." from @sheshieldsworn for asoiaf/got verse

her head swims as she listens to astoria's words, absorbing what her dark-haired friends' words mean. only words had been whispered, for just them to know. the pair had not graced one another with touches beyond the linger of brushed fingers. for years arlise had listened to her fathers rules and instructions, never having followed her heart or done what she felt was right. she knew it was only a matter of time before her father sold her off in marriage, before astoria was gone from her golden coated sights. for the first time in her 18 years, arlise decided it was time to do what she wanted. what felt right to her.

she gazed deep into the others eyes, looking as deep into astoria's soul as was allowed. she would follow astoria to the ends of the known world - beyond, even, if that was astoria's wish. arlise's willingness to give herself over to astoria had minimal to do with her father's abuse at home, but had everything to do with the burning passion and desire coursing through her veins at every glance and touch. the pair had talked for months, always discussing their options, always deciding not to act upon their longings.

"oh, gods." arlise's face was warm with blush, her hands shaky as her hands reached out and cupped astoria's face. "we both know tonight won't end with only one kiss shared between us, astoria." her thumb gently stroked astoria's chin as she leaned in ever so slowly towards the other. "i do not care if others know of what happens tonight. let them know that i am yours and yours alone."

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Arlise squeezed Genie's hand tightly. "Thank you for coming, even if you can only stay until dark. Make sure to thank your mama for us, won't you?" Arlise frowned slightly, the more she thought about Genie's mother. "I'm sure this time of year is not easy for your family. My mama had us out for a walk to get our energy levels down earlier this week and we saw your mama at the cemetery. Mama told us to hush until we were out of ear shot, so our shouts and laughter would not disturb her. Maybe you can take some soul cakes home to her from us!"

Genie allowed herself to be manhandled by the twins. She always liked spending time with the Riordan girls. Besides being the closest girls in age to her in the village, Genie also often felt like this is what her home would be like...if Madeleine hadn't died...if Niall and Claude had lived. Sometimes, especially on days like today, her house felt more like a tomb than a home. She couldn't blame Mama for being sad that three of her babies died. She just wished that Mama would remember that Genie was the baby who stayed. Who put up with Father.

She shook herself, as if to shake off the bad thoughts. That didn't matter right now. For one blessed afternoon, she would get to be a normal kid, playing with her friends. "Mama says I can only stay until dark." She said, looking at Jacquetta

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𝐌𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐕𝐀𝐋 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐆𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘 𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒.

Desired Pregnancies

"I prayed for this child, and the gods have finally answered."

"The midwife says the baby is strong. Our family will grow, just as we hoped."

"After all these years, we will finally have an heir."

"You’ve given me the greatest gift I could ever ask for—a son or daughter to carry on our name."

"I can already feel the baby moving, a sure sign of a healthy child."

"Our child will be the future of this house. I couldn’t be happier."

"We’ve been blessed, my love. Soon, we will hold our little one in our arms."

"The child will unite our lands, just as we dreamed."

"The maesters say all is well. You and the babe are thriving."

"We will raise the child together, with all the love and care we dreamed of."

Accidental Pregnancies Out of Marriage

"I never meant for this to happen. What will the people say?"

"If my father finds out I’m with child, he’ll disown me."

"What are we to do? A child born out of wedlock will ruin everything."

"I don’t know whose child it is, and that terrifies me."

"How can I face him? I’ve brought shame upon our house with this."

"I never wanted this, not like this, not before marriage."

"We must hide this, at least until we can figure out what to do."

"A child born in secret… this could destroy us both."

"Will he even acknowledge the child? What if he denies it?"

"I don’t know how to tell my family. They’ll never forgive me."

Worried Pregnancies

"The maester said it might be too early to tell if the child will survive."

"I’ve heard stories of women who don’t make it through childbirth."

"I fear the baby isn’t moving as much as it should."

"There’s been blood, just a little, but I’m terrified of what it means."

"What if the baby doesn’t survive the winter? The cold is so cruel."

"I’ve had strange pains, and I fear the worst."

"The midwives are worried, and that frightens me."

"What if the child is born weak, or worse, stillborn?"

"The last birth nearly took my life. I fear this one will finish the job."

"He’ll want an heir, but what if I can’t give him one?"

Happy Pregnancies

"I feel so full of life, as if the baby brings light to my every day."

"Every flutter, every kick brings me such joy."

"I can’t wait to meet our little one. The anticipation is the sweetest feeling."

"The baby’s room is ready, and the whole castle is abuzz with excitement."

"I love feeling the little movements, like a secret between me and the child."

"We are surrounded by love and family. This child will be so blessed."

"The midwife says the birth will go smoothly, and I feel so at peace."

"I already love this child more than I thought possible."

"I feel as though I’m glowing with happiness."

"Our baby will be the pride of our house, I just know it."

Confused or Ambivalent Pregnancies

"I didn’t expect this, not so soon. I don’t know how to feel."

"Am I ready to be a mother? I still feel so young."

"I thought I’d be overjoyed, but all I feel is uncertainty."

"I don’t know if I’m meant to be a mother. The thought scares me."

"I should be happy, shouldn’t I? But I’m not sure what I want."

"I don’t know how to raise a child in these troubled times."

"It’s a blessing, or at least that’s what they keep telling me."

"Do I even want this? I thought I did, but now…"

"I thought we had more time before this happened."

"I know I should feel joy, but all I feel is dread."

Desired Pregnancies (continued)

"The gods have smiled on us; this child will change everything for our house."

"I’ve dreamt of this moment for so long, and now it’s finally here."

"We will raise our child with all the love this world has to offer."

"This baby is our future, a symbol of our love."

"It’s a sign—a sign that our family is destined for greatness."

"Our child will grow strong, and together we will lead them."

"I cannot wait to hold our child for the first time."

"This child is everything I’ve ever wanted, everything I prayed for."

"We will have a child to continue our legacy."

"Our bloodline will be stronger with this new life."

Accidental Pregnancies Out of Marriage (continued)

"The scandal will ruin us both, but what else can we do?"

"If the court finds out, I’ll be cast out, or worse."

"I never meant to betray the vows of marriage, but now there’s a child involved."

"He said he loved me, but now there’s a child, and I fear he will leave."

"I must hide the pregnancy, at least until I can flee."

"The church will condemn us, and the court will never accept the child."

"I’ll be shunned if they find out, but what can I do with this child growing inside me?"

"How will I protect the child when I can barely protect myself?"

"A child born of sin, and yet… I still want it."

"This baby wasn’t planned, but I’m starting to love it already."

Worried Pregnancies (continued)

"The midwife said there could be complications. I don’t know what to do."

"I’ve been so ill lately, I worry about the child’s health."

"The roads are dangerous, and I don’t know if I’ll make it to the midwife in time."

"The maesters fear the worst, and I’m trying not to lose hope."

"I’ve already lost two children, and I fear this one will follow."

"The child’s movements have slowed, and my heart is heavy with fear."

"The castle is preparing for a siege, and I’m afraid I won’t survive the birth."

"The baby feels too still. What if something is wrong?"

"They say childbirth is the most dangerous thing a woman can face, and I fear I am not ready."

"I have been so weak; I fear for both the child and myself."