thegrimgrinningghosts

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don’t check up on them!! don’t keep tabs on them!! don’t look at their social media!! let them go like they let you go.

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its honestly hurtful you like my posts. dont you recognize me? i know you never followed me back, and it was mostly me interacting with you, but come on! you have to know that thats me ... right? or maybe you forgot. i dont know which one hurts more

but then again, maybe im just projecting and assuming. for all i know you could just like it cause you like it, not really caring that its me the person you probably dislike from what happened. or maybe you forgot? or forgave? not like it was your place to forgive.

maybe this, maybe that. all that screams in my head are maybes now. i dont know what youre all thinking, what youre all saying or feeling. i dont know how you feel about me anymore. all i can do is try to move on. key word being try, since i keep being brought back

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i think ijust need to realize that no matter how long ive been on social media i do not understand how servers/gcs work and that i just need to stop joining them ... ESPECIALLY if its for art related things

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​i’m such a fake idgafer everything bothers me tbh

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today was so good and then it turned 6pm

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its so embarrassing i have to rely on daydreaming and selfshipping to be in a relationship cause irl nobody wants me literally just ONE person even if it lasts a month at least id have SOMETHING im turning 21 soon and havent even been asked out or told that someone thought i was attractive in a non-joke way

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im such an awful friend … my friend is ranting to me about how shes always getting hit on by older men at work and how it makes her feel gross and how shes worried the guy shes seeing wont ask her to be his gf and all im thinking to myself is “at least people want u” i need to be shot dead by everyone who considers me a friend

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i think its really sad the fact that my friend continues to make the same mistakes and never learns from her actions. weve told her time and time again to basically be less selfish/self-centered and yet she doesnt. youre 20 years old, how do you continue to act this way? shes gonna face a harsh reality when were all 22 and out of college living our own lives and shes alone cause no one else can tolerate her shit like we can. sometimes i wish we dropped her when we had the chance, that we were able to confront her for her actions and be free of her now. its too late now and every repeated occurance reminds me how stuck i am. why do i always have some form of friendship problems

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i hate how im the type of person who eats when theyre bored ... like this is why i gain so much weight!! i cant help myself!!!

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im glad that they changed i just wish i didnt have to get hurt to cause it

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Fat Ass dragon back there with the boobs and chest hair who care abt her

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i wish i could do things i want to do. i WANTED to draw today before work, i really did, but instead i spent it doing nothing. why am i like this?? why cant i just Do the things i want to do?

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flowey ran away.

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i always feel lame for always thinking about what happened to me and having trouble letting go but then i remember that they literally sent me hate for months because i made a vent post talking about how excluded i felt from the community and i feel better cause thats 10x lamer

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its so funny to me that for months ive been like “do u think about me too” when literally at least once a month they find a way back into my life like clearly they do bitch why r u asking!!!!

do you think about me too? do you hate me, or did you forget about me? if you knew i still miss it, would you think i was lame? why do i care so much about what you think? why did i care so much about what you thought?

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its actually so hard to purposefully distract myself when im spiraling like im watching youtube im drawing but im Still Thinking About It and Still Want To Talk About It even tho theres nothing to be said and nothing more i could do i just wish i knew what these people were thinking if i knew what these people thought i wouldve been a more sane person months ago