thejamdergod

[thejamdergod]

[thejamdergod]

My gender is picrews. lots and lots of picrews. so many picrews. endless picrews.

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Subtle signs of long-term psychological abuse:

Intrusive belief that you have to do everything perfectly and flawlessly or you are no good, deep drop in self-esteem upon making a smallest mistake or being criticized, feeling that your value is tied completely to how well you can finish tasks, perfectionism

Low self-esteem, feeling you’re less smart, less capable, less valuable or less lovable than the people around you; struggling to feel like you’re an equal part of something, worry that people don’t find your worth keeping around, always worrying about being left behind

Over-taking responsibility for everything, bending backwards to make things go well for everyone, feeling guilty and ashamed if something goes wrong that wasn’t in your control, always taking tasks other people wouldn’t do, doing anything to feel useful

Making excuses for other people when they hurt you, always being ready to ‘look at it from their side’ and assume they had a good reason to hurt you, or didn’t mean it, or didn’t realize they were doing it, or were ‘just lashing out’ and doing it because of their own pain – but you’d never make those excuses for yourself, or forgive yourself if you did that

Double standards for yourself and others, you feel it’s okay for others to be selfish, unreasonable, short-tempered, assholes, hurtful, impatient, self-centered, but it’s not okay for you to be any of that, judging yourself way more harshly than others

Constant fear of abandonment from your friends and loved ones, fear that you won’t be able to go on if you’re rejected and abandoned by them, over-pleasing them in fear they’ll leave

Feeling there’s something deeply wrong about you, always looking for a way to blame yourself for anything that went wrong, feeling cursed, impostor syndrome

Inclination to hide as much as possible about yourself, only showing an image to people you socialize with, fear that if anyone knew the 'real you’ they would be repulsed and grossed out

Shame for feeling pain, shame for crying, feeling weak and despicable for being vulnerable and hurt, urge to hide and isolate whenever you’re in pain, feeling others would hate you for it

Constant pressure to prove yourself, never feeling like you’re 'good enough’, rarely or never feeling happy or proud of yourself, every day is a battle to show that you’re still worth something

Feeling you have to be always open to scrutiny and criticism, even if it comes from people who don’t know you and don’t wish you well

Arranging your life only to please others, acting a role of support or a servant in other people’s lives, feeling selfish if you try to think of what would be best for you

Worrying that every nice thing anyone has said about you was out of politeness, and every horrible thing someone said about you is secretly true; inability to hold a consistent self image that isn’t affected by everyone’s view of you, imagining that others are thinking the worst of you

Spiraling into feelings of not wanting to exist anymore, wishing you weren’t born, not being able to find anything good about yourself, seeing yourself as a stack of flaws and past mistakes

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Hey Neil, due to a certain British author saying some stupid things again... Could you please quickly say something supportive for trans people? Would be really comforting right now

I’ve missed this (I’ve been taking a Twitter holiday for the last month, for my own mental health), but I can imagine. I’m sorry. 

Trans women are women. Trans men are men.  Trans rights are human rights. I’m sorry that some people have such a hard time getting their heads around that. But the world is changing, and history is with you.

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tumblr should add polls. it would get batshit insane so quickly and I want to be here for it

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carla from in the heights baby

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Y E S

The way Usnavi says “Yeah?” in Champagne rb if u agree

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Ayyyy I got an advance copy of The Nobleman's Guide to Shipwrecks and Scandal!

I know for a fact I'm gonna fall in love with my faves all over again lmao

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transmeds never can understand the invisibility of black trans people. ever in their life.

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*somewhere in the future*

child: bye mom!

me: bye alexander john gilbert jacky george james richard benjamin, have a nice day :)

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character in a fight scene: *restrains their opponent by pinning them against the wall by their wrists*

me:

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i miss the ever given being stuck in the suez canal so much i almost started crying

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most of the scenes between usnavi and vanessa just involve vanessa backing usnavi agaist the wall and him enjoying it so good for them

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i think trans milf is a contender for top gender. trans milfs i hope ur all having a good day being sexy and fun

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Kat: I made a marshmallow Lina. See? She’s crossing her arms because she’s mad at all the other marshmallows for annoying her. Do you like it?

Catalina, on the verge of tears: It’s okay.

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Anyone who sends anon hate. You are a coward.