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June 15, 7:24 p.m.

Yesterday, I woke up at 5am because I fell asleep too early. Forgot what time because I didn't care to check but it's not like you care either. I woke up to my brother still awake and hyper, still on the iPad. And after realizing that I couldn't go back to sleep, I decided to brush my teeth and...my memory's really foggy. I think I fixed my Turkish exercise and posted it on instagram cause I thought it was kinda weird. I don't know what else I did. Oh. Right. I spent 2 hours listing down all the memories I had with my braces. Look, something you have to understand about me is that I consider 2023 to be the best year of my life and I want to preserve every memory and every second of it because I just don't want to lose it. You'll also notice that it's also the reason why a lot of my works that take place in the 2020's are only up to 2023.

Anyway, I sort of watch this girl named Coleydoesthings. I watched her most recent video (and I don't mean to brag, but I was early by 14 minutes) and while watching, I drew something that I ended up posting on instagram.

I think I ate after that. Then I went to sleep and I drew again, this time I was watching Savantics' video on Plan Bee, my new favorite movie. My mom came back from the orientation and the gym. I got two kit-kats. :-/ Not that I'm upset or anything, I'm just not in the mood to type a smiley emoticon. If you're wondering how my drawing came out, here it is.

Took me an hour I think. I guess four Savantics videos. And guess what I did after that? Well, I watched Conan at the American Girl Doll Place...and then I drew again. While watching Conan at a southern charm school and then I watched a Parks & Recs compilation of Leslie Knope cold opens, I ate my last Kinderjoy with a teaspoon because I put it in the fridge, and then I got this terrifying ad

Hey, what would you do if you woke up to these things dangling right about your head? Anyhoo, I finished the drawing when I was probably five minutes into the Leslie Knope compilation. Again, this is for my future self incase she gets nostalgic about things. My future self wants specific details about things. Anyway, when I was done with the drawing...I drew again. I have a very good reason for these drawings and it's cause it's for Stereotype. Minus the ones I posted on instagram. So I can't show it to you guys now.

I was scrolling through the chapter picking which parts to illustrate. I was on the second illustration and...sorry, I just HAVE to mention what I was watching while drawing. It was The Needlers. All that Amy Poehler reminded me of my most favorjte SNL sketches and I rewatched all of them. I was called for dinner, so I charged my iPad cause it's been draining a lot recently. It's been like that since December. The food was fish. My parents were talking to me. Whatever. They ordered Red Mango and when they asked me if I wanted to order 'Red Mango', I thought they were asking me if I wanted to order the fruit. Like as if a 'red mango' was actually a thing. Cause I forgot it existed. I have never been more stupid in my life, but to be fair, my brain was probably affected by the entrance exam I took.

So I said no. When I remembered that it was a frozen yoghurt store, I said yes. But then I said no again because I remembered those times when I would feel really sick after eating it. This is my usual order if you guys want to... try...

Oreo crumbs 3x

Caramel shell

That's it. Now, as I was saying...I went back upstairs to continue drawing. I began to struggle picking a photo for the backdrop so I decided to make Diane's room in a 'Room designer app'. This led me into insanity, because all of these apps would put 90% of their furniture and sometimes, features behind a paywall. And I started going crazy, I was so angry. I also got this ad for a 'brainrot quiz'. No comment, I'm gonna go and plank for 27 hours.

The rest of the night was boring. Nothing special. Okay, bye. 8:17 p.m.

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June 14, 5:39 a.m.

Missed a lot. I almost got my braces removed, I went to summer classes on the tenth, I took an entrance exam which I barely passed because it was all about topics I haven't learned at my current school. Thankfully I got in. I started listening to Jane Child and I'm halfway done writing Stereotype. So, since my braces are coming off soon, I thought it would be nice to list down all of my memories and achievements while I had my braces. Warning: it's full of unnecessary information.

The day I got braces (08.25.2023)

Wrote The Crappers (08.25.2023)

Drew Scandal's first cover (08.27.2023)

Went to my piano lessons (08.30.2023)

Tried working on an animatic to Loona 1/3's 'You and Me Together' (08.30.2023)

Created the family tree (09.02.2023)

Drew Scandal's second cover (09.02.2023)

Got into Atarashiii Gakko after 6 months of listening to 'Koinosyadanki' and 'Otonablue'. (09.03.2023)

My braces were loose while we were out with relatives but my mom said 'it's okay cause there's an appointment tomorrow, BARE WITH IT" (09.03.2023)

Lost my best friends (09.03.2023)

Developed a life altering crush (09.03.2023)

Finished Disenchantment (09.03.2023)

Had a very random memory of playing every Atarashiii Gakko song I listened to at the time in the car ride home after the dental appointment (09.04.2023)

Started watching this guy called Primink (09.05.2023)

Ate ramen from a mug early in the morning (09.06.2023)

Drew Fayxine official art in the bus, I had to go to the bathroom really bad but we were stuck in traffic (09.06.2023)

Rediscovered Kylie Minogue while searching for Disco music (09.06.2023)

Created 'Favorite Songs' playlists for each of my favorite artists at the time. (Carly Rae, Britney, Katy Perry, Kylie, Chungha, Sunmi) (09.06.2023)

Listened to Katy Perry song remixes for my playlist (09.06.2023)

Bought a sketchbook and started drawing things in it for my tumblr blog (09.07.2023)

Drew something while listening to the CXG soundtrack, I kept listening to that one song from Season 3 but it's not like I'm weird or anything, it's cause I really like the choreography (09.07.2023)

I went to Shangri-la and I had to go to the bathroom really bad during the ride (again) cause of the ramen. (09.08.2023)

Watched the first few episodes of Superstore (09.09.2023)

Made a fake album and cd...while watching Superstore (09.09.2023)

Drew Elaine's second design while watching B99. Fun fact: She was going to be an anxious nerd in that design. (09.09.2023)

Auditioned for Glee (& got in) (09.11.2023)

Redesigned Elaine again and also drew her twinsister who is now a deleted character. (09.11.2023)

Started writing fanfiction for a ship that only I was providing content for. (09.11.2023)

There was an extremely heavy rain during Lunch. Some of my classmates and I went outside to see the whole thing go down and then LIGHTNING. LIGHTNING STRUCK right in front of us. It was so forking funny. (09.12.2023)

Early dismissal (09.12.2023)

Was trying to record myself playing guitar but right as I started recording, lightning struck. Like really loud. It woke up my brother. (09.14.2023)

Ordered ice cream. I got a red velvet cake sandwich thing, which I ate the next day, it wasn't so good. (09.14.2023)

Showed my dad The Good Place (09.15.2023)

Discovered a site called Charactour (09.15.2023)

Discovered this duo named Lime after browsing the channel who uploaded my favorite song (that got REMOVED off of APPLE MUSIC), Secret Weapon's 'Difference of Opinion'. (09.16.2023)

Browsed through artist's profiles in Apple Music, found Alexandra Burke. (09.19.2023)

Felt lazy and dead inside for the whole day (09.19.2023)

Went to my piano lessons for the last time. I think that was the last meeting? (09.20.2023)

Bought nerd clusters and watermelon sour patch kids, which started my new addiction. (09.20.2023)

Made a google form and sent it to my classmates for an assignment and somebody responded "skibidi sigma rizz ohio" (09.21.2023)

Crush at the time borrowed my pen for the whole day, I was freaking out (09.22.2023)

Pretty sure there was early dismissal because of the weather (09.22.2023)

Watched some B99 because I had nothing better to do (09.22.2023)

Found this Hokkaido box thing and I ate a few things that were in there. (09.22.2023)

Went bowling to celebrate my birthday (09.23.2023)

Tried writing 'The Crappers' during karaoke. Ended up taking months for me to write before I eventually gave up on it. (09.23.2023)

Redesigned Elaine again. This one design survived 12 months before she became 'Katherine' (09.25.2023)

Got locked out of my house and tried entering through the window...atleast my lunchbox made it. (09.26.2023)

Listened to some more Katy Perry by watching her music videos (10.01.2023)

Tried writing a song. It was stupid. (10.01.2023)

Assembled & painted a whole a-word lamp for an assignment. (10.02.2023)

Watched half of the Devil Wears Prada & watched Romy & Michele. Heather Mooney, I am your biggest fan. (10.05.2023)

Created Snake & Girl (10.07.2023)

Burnt my whole hand (10.13.2023)

Went through a phase where I would watch random movies on Disney+. This time it was 3 Men & a Baby (10.20.2023)

Released Snake & Girl (10.23.2023)

Just realized that I'm insane for listing all of these. 7:39 a.m.

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May 30, 2025 9:48 p.m.

Pretty good day today. I spent three hours drawing official art for Fayxine. I took inspiration from a Turkish girl group, Hepsi. Mainly the poses and the style. Fyi, my favorite member is Yasemin. I went to my dad to order a few things, just some chocolate and potato chips. Um, it rained pretty hard, I finished drawing. If you wanna see it, then just go look at Fayxine's recent post on instagram.

I let my iPad charge, I decided to listen to Hepsi's album while I searched up the members. Turns out Yasemin's birthday is near my birthday. Crazy, right? So I ended up making a list on my notes called "Celebrities Who *Almost* Share The Same Birthday As Me"

Not telling you who though. Not yet. Not until I become famous.

So I ended up on IMDB for an hour browsing and browsing celebrity after celebrity. Kaitlin Olson and Riki Lindbome, who I thought were born in September, wasn't actually born in that month! So weird. I must've confused them with Amy Poehler. Anyway, it all ended when I realized that I should let it come to me naturally, time after time. After scrolling through lists of "Celebrities born in September"

My things came. My brother stole all of them and left me with my chocolates atleast. Ended up stealing one of them back, it was this Lay's Double Crunch thing, it was soooo good. I took one last look at two more celebrities. Jane Turner and Gina Riley. Not even close to September and out of disappointment, I closed my phone and watched IASIP.

I watched 'The Gang Gets Stuck' and 'Thunder Gun Express' I think both episodes are very funny. They're probably my most favorites out of the whole series. Also, Kaitlin Olson was gorgeous in said episodes and painfully funny too. I love her...

I also really liked the setting in 'Thunder Gun Express'. I know it's in Philadelphia...I just don't know what part of Philadelphia it is, you know? What I'm trying to say is...Where they filmed was sooo pretty. It looks like BGC and Makati.

When I got to the part where Frank was talking about Charlie to the tourists, my dad came in and said that we were gonna eat. He also asked me what I was watching and I was just contemplating whether I should tell him I was watching IASIP or not. Because he knows that I watch it but...Well I ended up saying "Arrested Development" and he was like "Okay, also it's dinner."

I stayed in my room for a while, continuing the episode. My mom came in at the wrong time because Frank was saying something like "My favorite thing to do is bang..." You finish the sentence. Luckily, I paused it and got out of Disney+ on time. She cheerfully reminded me and I went down.

And the dinner was... Nilaga. And my rice was...a lot. They gave me a lot of rice and you know, if the rice is finished, then the meal is finished too. Even if there's some meat left, it's always done. For me. So, I just knew that I was gonna spend about 2 hours on dinner but thankfully my parents noticed. Dad was laughing at me. His laugh is contagious.

Eventually, I was given half of the amount of rice. It's still a lot. I was just shoving rice into my mouth and drinking water. There were toads outside croaking. It was super loud, it sounded like a car honking but low pitched. My mother and I were just joking around. Brother came in talking about something stupid. Then my dad told him to hug me. No. While I was eating I was mentally being interviewed on the inspiration for my book Fayxine. I was also mentally presenting these two characters of my book, Edie and Soleil, to a crowd. Talking about their relationship and I ended up finally solving a plot hole that has infected me slightly. Yay me.

I kept rewinding to the part where I was talking about how many children they had. It's 7. But I said that originally, I was thinking about making them have 15 children. Hey, they've been together for 8 to 9 centuries, they could've made more than 15 too. That's what I said in my mental presentation too. I kept picturing the audience's reactions...siiigh. That's why I kept rewinding back to that specific part. Anyway, after I finally survived dinner. I asked my dad to buy a book. Not telling you which one it is. Then I took a malteser. Just a single malteser. And went upstairs. I then played Just Dance for 3 hours.

While I was playing Just Dance, something very shocking happened to me, basically, CONFESSION. I said 'maybe' and my status is now "Well we like each other but we're not together"

M.U. Is a very annoying word. Probably cause it's been used by my friend a lot.

Ended up videocalling my friend...The call ended when I was jokingly scolding her about Just Dance, gosh, sure hope she didn't take that the wrong way. I just don't know how I come off sometimes. Anyway, I played this "Alien abduction mode" in Just Dance to wash away the anxiety. I didn't do good, but I did good enough atleast. Anyway, I am happy and I am waiting for my book and I am waiting for when they RESTOCK. Fully Booked, RESTOCK THAT BOOK-- Part 4 of my book.

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May 29 11:59 p.m.

Starting to have some doubtful feelings about my friend. I'm not talking about the friend who takes a very long time to respond. We haven't talked in 10 days. 10 days is like an eternity to me because my perception of time is all forked up. Anyways, I feel like a bad person whenever I talk to this friend and I'm starting to notice some red flags, that's all. Not sure what to do because she's quite an old friend. Anyway yeah.

For the whole day, I felt like crap until dinner then I ordered doughnuts and watched New Girl while waiting. Also, I released the second episode of Snake & Girl Turkish version.

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May 28, 2025 11:00 p.m.

Can you tell that I don't want to write in here anymore. So, what I'm gonna tell you happened two days ago. I decided to write a turkish version of Snake & Girl in order to practice speaking turkish and while I was working on the dialogues, I was watching Athena P. From my memory it was Frindle and Flat Stanley. My parents and brother came home from school. They also went grocery shopping. I was given cookies and pomelo while Ben was given Lays, and then he wrote an S beside the L like he always does.

So, I was going back and forth constantly pulling up the dictionary and conjugating crap. I just spent the whole afternoon working on that. Then my dad calls me, asks me "You wanna go on a drive?" I was like of course. Who would say no?

When dinner came around, it was steak. It waa amazing, very soft. I also had this weird daydream about me dying and then I meet my favorite paternal cousins in heaven and then we went to a Kylie Minogue concert. Kylie is there because she died from being too iconic that the world couldn't handle her. My mind is quite weird.

When I finished my steak, I got another one and ate again. I got really full, I was just shoving things in my mouth at this point. Then when I was done, I had to go use the bathroom and I was just thinking about the song 'Swish Swish' by Katy Perry? I think it's cause when I was still downstairs, taking my medicine, I was thinking about the choreography for it on Just Dance. (I think it's really good if you removed the flossing.) And you know, I decided to look for some remixes of it on her profile because I enjoy the song's instrumental. At the beginning though.

So, first was Valentino Khan, not my taste. Then came...The Cheat Codes Remix. My gosh, this was probably the best remix I have ever heard. I think I forgive Katy Perry for that music video. Although I'm not ready to forgive her for 143.

Anyway, I was just on the toilet and I was being graced by the beginning. I immediately added it to my playlist, then I...got out of the bathroom, got dressed for layer and continued illustrating the turkish version of Snake & Girl. I was watching Athena P's video on Sofia The First!

Anyway, minutes pass by and then my dad calls me and it was time to go. When I went downstairs, Ben was calling the maid, telling her about the frog behind my piano. I quickly got my shoes and ran for my life. Hate frogs. Funnily enough, my Lolo was watching a nature documentary and it cut to frogs. Yeah. Pretty funny.

I put on the Cheat Codes remix when we left and I was BLASTED. My ears. When I heard the chorus for the very first time, I was going insane. I saw everything. I can't even- gosh, I wish I could listen to that song for the first time again.

Sooo, we got into lots of traffic on the way. Forgot to mention that the reason why we were going out was to deliver some things to our relatives. Pretty much it. They live in what I consider to be the most beautiful city ever. Pasig. It's so pretty, especially at night.

Anyhoo, we're just driving. That was kind of it. There was some trouble with the security guards however. But we did get to stop by a gas station and get some snacks. Vcut and a crunch bar.

Um. Yeah. This is exactly what I wanted my summer to look like.

I started giving up on every other song and ended up listening to Swish Swish over and over again. It was nice actually.

I ate my Vcut immediately, as for the Crunch Bar, I would just take a few pieces every hour as if to have self-control. I ended up devouring half of the bar by 3am and finishing it 11 hours later.

That's pretty much it. 11:26 p.m.

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May 22, 2025 12:16 a.m.

Not feeling like myself today, nothing feels right, I feel like something bad is going to happen. I've never been more bored in my life. Trying to resist the urge to eat the last Gushers in the drawer, what if they need it?

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May 19, 2:08 p.m.

I should probably go to sleep. I have to go and visit my new school tomorrow. Not go, visit. Just kind of see what it's like. Rumor has it, I might go to Shangri-La tomorrow to. I guess I shouldn't be so gullible, what are the odds?

I spent the whole day drawing while watching 'Whose Line is it Anyway?' and Key & Peele. The other half was sleeping. Mother called me for dinner, we had chicken. I did not like it, barely finished it so my brother snatched it from my plate. I made coffee. Again. And went upstairs to work on something on my iPad. I watched two vine compilations, that was also for something I'm working on. Halfway through the video, my mom came in and checked on us. I followed her to the other room because I wanted to talk to her, turns out she was going to buy fruits at the most beautiful place ever. Won't say the name, but it's just sooo pretty.

I begged to come with her, she told me to take a bath first so I did, really quickly. And I felt really active, I was talking to myself a lot. When I got out, I imagined auditioning for a show...and getting to show off my acting range. Or introducing myself at a drama club, saying things like "I'm looking for the Tina to my Amy, the Riki to my Kate" while dressing up. Amazing.

I was just listening to Party Rock Anthem and Sweet Sensation on the way, my dad and my brother kinda just stayed in the car. Mom took a long time to get those fruits. I was just thinking a lot...

I'm gonna go to sleep.

- 2:17

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May 17, 10:17 p.m.

There was the high and then there was the low. I was feeling REALLY happy. Actually. I was just watching Athena P after foolishly deciding to reinstall instagram. And scroll through it. Okay, I just came to instagram for one thing. To film a video I've had in my mind for a while. I SHOULD'VE DELETED INSTAGRAM AS SOON AS I FINISHED FILMING. Okay, okay, look. I'm still a little shaken up from the New Girl episode so I still have this weird hyper behavior but I am back to my old regular self on the inside. I am filled with shame. Like I always am. When will this nightmare end???

So it started when I downloaded a video that I thiught was really funny. Until I started to look into it more and was like "ohh no, this is a little too far" so I deleted it. And I feel very bad for downloading it. :-( . And I was talking to my firend-sister and I got a little too weird, so now I'm even more embarrassed!!! I HATE MYSELF!!!! THE MOMENT WAS GONE SO FAST!!!

- 10:24 p.m.

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May 17, 8:06 p.m.

Earlier than usual, I know, just really happy right now! My inner Leslie Knope and Jess Day is beaming. Basically, okay, let's go back to after I woke up from my nap. It was...4:37 p.m. and I don't remember much, I think I just played Star Girl for an hour and trying to play this very confusing game called 'Like a Fashionista'. Then I went downstairs to get some coffee. Lots of milk, then I decided to watch IASIP. "Chardee Macdennis", the most common username for an IASIP fan. Now this is where the magic starts, because I watched a New Girl episode. The PRINCE ONE TOO! I...love that episode. It also has my new favorite Zooey Deschanel look.

The dress, the acceories, HER, it was all soooo pretty. It's so underrated. I can't believe I haven't seen this look on pinterest. It's been sooo long since I've seen New Girl.

Anyway, this episode was crazy. Imagine eating pancakes with Prince, I LOVE PANCAKES BY THE WAY. Imagine Prince giving you a makeover. Imagine playing ping pong with Prince. Imagine PERFORMING with Prince and YOUR FRIENDS ARE ONSTAGE AS WELL!!!! If my adulthood isn't like New Girl, then what's the point?

And yes, maybe it might be weird to you guys to see me so happy instead of my usual "life is meaningless and I want to die" attitude, but it's just that...an episode of New Girl can change you. But on top of that, I listened to 'Don't Look Now' on repeat. It was so amazing, I wish I could stay in that moment forever.

Everything just looked right, I was feeling right, I was even eating lays. Oh yes, funny story, my little brother keeps saying 'Slay' and singing that Sara Bareilles parody. You know, the irritating one. I'm not writing it down, you all know which one it is. And...well, he got a marker and wrote an 'S' beside the 'Lays' before asking me to open it. Just eating so much Lays like I should be. The pain in my mouth hasn't stopped, so I had to just put the chips in my mouth and let it soften. I know it's a little TMI.

Siiiighhhh, my life is amazing. I ate sinigang for dinner, it needed more tang. My dad noticed that I haven't really eaten much just some rice soaked in broth and offered to order something...I had to pass, I already had my Wendy's. I then took my vitamins and went back upstairs.

I watched the Just Dance routine for Party Rock Anthem, yes, I'm really obsessed with the song, I'm gonna play it on Just Dance Now like...tomorrow. Now's not a perfect time, Ikm sleepy from the coffee and my brother is asleep. But right now, I'm rewatching an Athena P lore video right now (Sofia The First).

So, I'm also VERY happy because I can FINALLY. Stop wearing the rubber. The one in the front. A.K.A. The source of all my pain. That probably doesn't make any sense to you, but basically, there's something wrong eith my midline and they're trying to...move it so they added hooks to my brace for the rubber and it FORKING HURTS! I AM SO HAPPY TO BE LET OUT OF PAIN! BUt bad news, I have diarrhea.

- 8:35 p.m.

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May 16, 10:39 p.m.

My little brother's asleep so it's dark here. Only source of light over here is the night light that can never catch a break. I just leave it on, never turn it off. It's been like that for 3 years already. I am very hyper, and very hungry. I have a Wendy's order on the way. My mouth hurts like hell and I am also waiting for my friend to respond again. I see that I am waiting for lots of things tonight. That must mean something very deep.

What I did today was...

I went to my brother's graduation. I was forced to be around the things I hate most, kids.

I went to the grocery store right after that.

I fell asleep.

I woke up, ate ramen while watching Arrested Development.

Listened to Björk's Vespertine, Homogenic, Volta, and Biophilia

Renamed my playlists and changed their covers while listening to Stevie Nicks. I lost complete track of time.

Skipped dinner because of my mouth pain.

Watched youtube while redesigning Tiny Julie.

Started talking to my friend again, it was a very short-lived conversation.

Started getting hyper. Also asked my mom to order Wendy's.

The present

Sooo. Well, I don't know what else to say. Only that I am starving and worried sick. About my grades of course. I mean, I did do good on homework, I got perfect in lots of them. I even did good on the quiz and test (they were just group projects, but--) so maybe that can contribute greatly. But I did do bad in my exam and some other tests. I think I see the glass as half full.

Anyway, if I fail, then I'll kill myself. And if I don't? I'll treat myself to some Mad Mark's madagascar vanilla bean ice cream and kill myself right after. Gosh, I'm sleepy and Party Rock Anthem is stuck in my head too. The pain in my mouth definitely doesn't help either. And I know, I'm whining too much about that mouth pain but it just HURTS so bad. It feels like somebody punched me in the face 3 times. Ughhhh.

- 10:50 p.m.

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May 15, 10:20 p.m.

This afternoon, I went to the dentist. Before all of that, I dressed up and waited for an hour. I ended up browsing the internet for some inspiration, specifically pinterest. I did some poses in the mirror as well, I couldn't believe my eyes. I looked so cute, it was beyond terrifying. When I left, I listened to music throughout the ride.

So, when I went to the dentist they changed the wires of my braces and made we wear rubber again. Four. The pressure was painful and it still hurts now. You must kill me already, I can't handle it anymore. I haven't felt this much pain in 2 years.

We got stuck in traffic going home, I listened to Party Rock Anthem, Sweet Sensation (Flo Rida) at full volume on repeat the whole time. Well, occassionally there were some other songs in the mix. Mostly songs I listened to back in 2019. I went on a nostalgia trip. But anyway, I ate steak. Nothing special, my mom just said we had leftover steak. Oh yeah, I made a new friend. She takes a very long time to respond but she is amazing.

Then I lazily watched some episodes of shows I used to watch when I was younger and I was officially overdosed on nostalgia. I...am so sleepy. And the pain has not lessened.

Well, what made me really happy was how there wasn't a single cloud in sight today, the sky was really blue. Also, the pain feels like somebody punched me really hard in the face. I can't even open my mouth without experiencing endless pain from my teeth. So much pressure, I just wanna DIE.

- 10:32 p.m.

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May 14, 9:48 p.m.

I read 3 stories from 'Chicken Soup for the Soul' and now I'm inspired to write in my diary again. Except online. Just so you know, I'm not going to write anything too personal. Anyway, I started watching Tina Fey's new show, 'The Four Seasons'. I liked it, um. That's it. I was also eating some fries while doing so if that...even...matters. It was chili barbeque and sour cream flavored. So then I...don't remember what happened next. Probably because I spend lots of my time playing this game called 'Style Queen'. It's addictive, I'm an award winning model-actress-singer and my boyfriend is cupid. I must've blacked out while playing that game. Oh, I remember now, I rewatched an episode of She-Ra. It was Mer-Mysteries, and when I was reminded of how Aimee Carrero played Elena from EoA, I immediately went to Disney+

So I watched Elena of Avalor. The first episode. Again. Because I've seen it when it was on air, okay? I remember going back to Sofia The First to watch the 3-part crossover. The ending sent chills to my spine. I also found out Chris Parnell was in there, that shook me terribly. I also got inspired to continue my Fayxine worldbuilding. But first, I procrastinated.

I listened to Carly Rae Jepsen's 'Summer Love' on repeat while it rained hard, just thinking about Snake & Girl and the lore of Fayxine. It was amazing. While I was listening to my CRJ playlist, I spent a few minutes on this app called 'Dust Bunny'. You get to grow plants. I named my plants after my characters, so far I have Plant Shelby, Plant Lis, Plant Yuna, Plant Neil, Plant Liza, Plant Elaine, Plant Gregory, Plant Narci and Plant Suzy. So when i finally decided to focus on creating the map for Fayxine, I finally took out my binder and sketched things out.

Soooo here are some fun facts here. I also really hope that all of these names don't mean anything bad in another language. That would be embarrassing.

Venur De Cara comes from vena cava. The largest vein. From what I heard. Aortiare comes from Aorta and Ventriciline comes from ventricle.

Hartvurne comes from heartburn. I might have to change that because it feels like a mean joke. Basically, Hartvurne (formerly Hartelle) originally belonged to Aphenus before the 18th century came where Flamesia came in and was like "that's actually ours". They ended up winning and now it's Hartvurne as if to fork with Edie.

Yuldura comes from the turkish work, Yıldız. Talara comes from the tagalog word, Tala. Etalle comes from the french word, Etoile.

Emeryl is a combination between Emerald and Beryl.

Vultishe is a distorted spelling of voltage.

Bettspleirenas comes from the Betta Fish's scientific name.

Perihelis comes from perihelion, Sticia's from the last letters of Solstice

A lot of Glacia's names are just made up.

Va Cynthelle comes from 'Cynthia'.

Artella = Artemis.

Yureloune is a village in Crystahlea in the province of Vivali. It is in a very small and secluded area, hence the name Yureloune. As if to say "You're lonely".

So as you can see, I put lots of thought into Fayxine. Which is why it gives me a terrible migraine. I was watching some Parks & Recs compilations while working on it too, it cured me of my migraine. #parks&recsisthecuretomysuffering.

Not much happens, I listened to Katy Perry's old songs. (Simple, Long Shot, Diamonds). Even this video of her on a tour from 2001. It was nice. I proceeded to sing to some Suzanne Vega songs, Björk, some Siouxsie and The Banshees, even the Thompson Twins. I then ate dinner. It was my least favorite food, nilaga. Atleast there was corn.

I took a bath...then I got really bored. Oh yeah, I started having this weird headache throughout the day and I would always feel like my vision's getting...I don't know, it's like my vision wants to stare at the sun. It's in need of something bright. I would also, occassionally start to question things to myself like, "Is life real? Is what I am experiencing right now real?" And then my vision would start getting more weirder. I don't know what's up with that. Anyway. I ended up lying down, eyes closed, while hugging a giant pencil in my arms while ARTMS' newest song, 'Burn' plays. Later on, I decided to read 'Chicken Soup for the Soul' while listening to Carly's Tug of War and now we're here.

-Signing off, Julie

10:31 p.m.