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Personal Reading 5/24/23

This is the reading I ended up doing for myself today. It's important to know that I read right to left in the row of three (past, present, future), up top as potential setback, and the bottom as possible outcome. The card on the side is an impulse card, which I drew because that card was speaking to me as I was selecting cards and I had already drawn five for my preliminary spread. I usually see impulse cards as another present card, something I'm experiencing currently (or the person I'm reading for) but is not the primary focus of the reading.

For the past, I drew the Fool. The fool usually represents innocence or new beginnings. I'm getting a strong feeling that in this reading, the fool is more in reference to new beginnings rather than innocence. I'm doing a love reading for myself, so I believe this could be in reference to me recently coming out as a lesbian and experiencing queer dating for the first time in my life.

For the present, I drew the Eight of Swords. When talking about cards in the minor arcana, I like to consider the number a lot when thinking about the card. Eight is at the end of the cycle of ten, but it isn't a whole number in the same way as three or five. It's very close to the end of the cycle but it hasn't quite reached the end. The eight of swords represents isolation, vulnerability, and a feeling of hopelessness. This card asks you to reach out and ask for help instead of giving into the feeling of loneliness. I can definitely see why this would appear in my present. I've been going through some emotional turmoil on the romance side and I don't really know what to do next, which is why I consulted the metaphysical in the first place.

The card I pulled for the future is the Queen of Swords. She is a very ambitious and calculated feminine figure. She's very intelligent. This card can be a reminder to stay level-headed and perceptive, but it can also be a reference to a specific person in your life. I believe in this reading, the Queen of Swords is a reference to a particular person.

At first, I was puzzled when I drew the Star as my potential setback. After reflecting on the meaning of this card, I'm reminded that while the star is a generally very positive card, it comes directly after the tower (which, some say, is the most negative card in the tarot deck). I have faced some traumatic events recently, and while I do want to start dating again, my recovery takes priority. I believe this card is telling me that it's possible I still need to take some time with myself before I'll be ready to start seeing anyone, which could be considered a "setback" to my love life, even though it's extremely important and vital that I continue to take care of myself before getting into a relationship with someone else.

Continuing with this theme, I drew the Three of Swords Reversed as another possible outcome. The three of swords upright is one, if not my favorite, card. It represents heartbreak and deep sorrow. It's painful, and also very honest. Reversed, it means that while that heartbreak and sorrow is still there, it's recovering. The suffering has ended, and healing has began. Regardless of whether or not I enter into another romantic relationship, this trauma exists and I'm still healing from it, which is important for me to remember.

Finally, for my impulse card, I drew the Knight of Wands. He's very passionate and ambitious. He's creative, and he invites you to pursue your creative ideas. I'm not sure if this card really has to do with the love reading in particular, but it's a good reminder that although romance is important and can bring a lot of fulfillment to our lives, it's not the only way to feel whole.

The deck I've been using is The Essential Tarot, by Chloé Zarka Grinsnir!