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I’m not back, but I’m here

Hey y’all. 

This is awkward. 

I left tumblr because of a lot of things. As someone who has attempted suicide, the “kill yourself” messages really got to me, so that’s a big reason why I left. 

I’ve been working on getting my life back together. Fixing myself. It’s going pretty good. Well, not tonight, why else would I be here at four in the morning, amirite? 

I’m alive. 

I’m trying to go back to college but administration is being DUMB. SO DUMB. I HAVE, LIKE, TWO SEMESTERS LEFT, PLEASE GIVE ME MY PIECE OF PAPER. 

I kiiiiinda don’t want to jynx anything so I’ll only say this much about an upcoming career: things are looking up! 

Bryan (the husband) and I are still groovy. Been married for five years now, still going strong! Sissy’s good too! (akayefdraws on instagram CHECK HER OUT)

I...I made some really, REALLY good friends on this site, man. We had a badass discord. Or still have? Idk. I haven’t checked it. I haven’t talked to them in a long time. Why? Literally no fuckin’ clue. One day I just got real scared. I think I was in that phase of the depression where I couldn’t get off the computer- you know? Like, I couldn’t balance life and computer fun times. Distancing myself? I don’t know. I don’t fuckin’ know. And now I’m too scared to come back. Isn’t that stupid? Like, I love these guys. I’m dumb. 

I haven’t written anything in ages. But I’ve been doing a lot of art shit. Which brings me to my next point: I’m still here, you know. I’m not gone. I’m just elsewhere. So if you’re curious about the shit I’m up to with the family, the animals, and the dumb shit I create, I’m on Instagram, yo. I’m TheLoudMute on pretty much all social networking platforms. 

I’m alive. And I miss y’all. Not just the very close friends I made on here, I mean every single one of you. I don’t know if I’ll still work on the COD universe, I haven’t read those stories since I left tumblr. I just know I’m still here on the internet. I’m getting my life back together. And I’m just...really really sorry. And tired. 

And happy holidays. 

Also, they’re changing the guidelines on tumblr? Like that’s dumb. 

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No streams :(

Wow I am REALLY bad at keeping a consistent schedule.

Sorry I missed Friday, I just completely forgot. The reason there's no stream today is because, not only do I have a SHIT TON of cleaning to do, but I think my voice went out. The rapid changes in weather really fuck with my allergies.

We'll be back eventually! In the mean time, suggest games you'd like to see! Love y'all!!!!

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if you ever get time I'd love to theorize like old times.

Hell yeah theorist buddy!

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BRYAN'S GONNA BE ON THE STREAM TONIGHT OMG. What should we play?! ❤❤😘😘😍😍😻😻💖💖 Remeber its www.twitch.tv/theloudmute LOVE U GUYS!

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aaaaaargh, i keep missing your Stream because i'm at work!! >:o

Aw, well thats okay dearie! We'll have some later streams comin' up with Bryan in the future- can't wait to have ya! MWAH!

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HEY GUYS!!! Sorry the strem is late (I like calling the stream a strem. it sounds silly). I’ve had a rough start to the day, just now got something to eat; now I gotta look for a good game to play today that won’t crash on us! I’m in a pokemon mood, what about y’all? 

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First come back stream was kind of a success! It was rusty and awkward but it’ll get better :3

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I'm live on Twitch - Watch me at twitch.tv/theloudmute

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Probably gonna stream at 3PM EST...so about fifteen minutes!

Sorry for the short notice, I told Snapchat, but not y’all...whoops. I STILL LOVE YOU. 

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Official stream days, MON WED FRI at www.twitch.tv/theloudmute

Unless anything comes up, that is!

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So...I haven't been online in ages. My phone has been dead, I've been feeling really down off and on, and most importantly: we've been working on our kitchen!!! It's nowhere near done but WOWEE what a glow up!!! I missed you guuuuys! ...anyone in the mood for a stream later?

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Oh yeah I forgot, happy February everyone!!!

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WE ARE DESTROYING THE KITCHEN Ignore my fat belly pokin out of my shirt