themostestwostest - Tumblr blog

[themostestwostest]

hehe

dear kaine,

it has been a while since i did one of these. i should have known that these wouldn't be as frequent as i wanted them to be. right now we have been in over a week of good days i think. today is june 5th, 2024. pete's birthday. you thought you were going to get fired today and i was scared too but you didn't and now we're sitting here.

i was hoping that in doing these every day i could have given this to you for your birthday but that didn't go as planned. i know you won't mind.

you made me your girlfriend finally. that was pretty big. i've never been so happy. i love you. we shall see if i really pick this back up.

baby

[themostestwostest]

pete

dear kaine,

hi baby. it has been a few days. a few really intense days.

its april 5th. yesterday pete flew in to see us. that was a lot for everyone involved. i have a lot of feelings about it but you know most of them and the ones you don't i don't know how to say yet.

it was so good. his visit was perfect to me and it has shifted something major in the neighborhood. but i think it will be a good shift. like yūto.

we're on the phone right now, you're working and about to feed kayla and about to write i think your first time with pete. i can't wait to read it. i miss your writing. i miss him. i'm supposed to be writing with you now so i'm going to do that but here is a little update from me to you about our lives.

idk what i'll write but i'm excited by the path our lives are on.

baby.

[themostestwostest]

the rest of our day & pete

dear kaine,

its april 2nd, 2024. we talked a lot yesterday. we talked it out as i knew we would. we hung out a lot after that. we are in the beginning of penny dreadful. i'm not sure i like it but I'm going to try anyway.

i'm excited to be doing shows with you. it's the only part of shows i'm actually enjoying these days.

last night we shared a phone call with pete for the first time in years. you wanted to sleep together but also wanted to call him. i felt the same. pete and i had phone sex while you played with my nipple. i haven't been able to stop thinking about it. or the sex you and i had after that once he was off the phone.

we talked a lot about fucking him together. never in my life would i have guessed that would be a moment for us but it was. i loved it. i needed it. i can't wait for it to happen again.

i don't have much to say this morning but not all of these will be long.

baby.

[themostestwostest]

the first

dear kaine,

this is the first post. i've known for a while that i wanted to do something like this for you but today i finally did it. i wanted a spot where i could write to you about us, about our love, our life, everything. i can't promise it will always be pretty (this first one really won't be) but I can promise it will always be for us. i hope that will be enough.

these may not be very good. they will be random and have a lot of rambling. i hope you don't mind.

it's april 1st, 2024. i'm currently sitting at the table in living room one. i think you're upstairs crying. i've been sick all weekend and we had this talk about the kitchen and you burst into tears and tried to get me to go to class, insisting that you're fine. you aren't fine and i wish you would stop trying to decide how i live my life.

you left. i went to the table to try and get something productive done because sitting there with you made you cry and cleaning the kitchen made you cry and i thought 'maybe if i still do work kaine will be okay' but you left. and it hurts.

you don't always let me comfort you. i don't always know how to do that anyway. but our love is still there. it always will be and it always has been. i wish you believed me when i say it isn't your fault when i stay home. it's about me, it always is.

i hope today won't be a bad day for us. we have a lot of those and we don't always help the other when we ourselves are in a bad place. but we try and i think that is what is important. i hope we can end today so much better than we started it.

i don't know if i should go to you. i don't know if i should clean the kitchen alone. i don't know if i should pack up my shit and just go to school. idk.

i know that i love you. and i don't mind that starting this was such a downer first moment. i don't feel down. i feel in love. i feel like we can do anything. i hope you do too, my love.

baby.

ps. you just came downstairs as i was editing this. i'm going to hug and kiss you. i love you♥️