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Have been busy lately, so a quick update.

• I BLEACHED MY HAIR. Ry had to sit down and make sure I wasn't wearing a wig lmao. • I'm going back to lifting religiously and we plan on hitting qualifier in the next few months, so I can get to nationals. • I'm emotionally drained bc of this fake, and dramatic friend omg can't deal. Detached myself from her bc fuck negativity. Weird that she tried so hard to keep me for herself. *shudders* • I'm going to US.

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Damn people have lots to say about someone else's life eh?

Was tempted to turn off anonymous option here, but then I felt like it would probably make them feel victorious. Go ahead, anons. Do it. Waste your time spewing shite whilst I'm here living my life and getting shite done. Bitches.

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Relatable.

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When your drunk self sent bomb arse nudes to him and your sober self found out he had left from WhatsApp for the nth time this morning. That was close.

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You're only human, so you can't resist it. He's turning you on, getting you excited and maybe he's even getting you a little wet. You crave the attention and you can feel him sweeping you up in it all. Let's face it: it's natural to want attention and it's natural to want sex. This man is giving you what you need. But here's the thing: He's opened a door you need to close as quickly as possible. Now the guy gets exactly what he was looking for: sex. And you end up getting exactly what you weren't looking for. You'll have sex with him, develop feelings for him, and after a month or so of sleeping with Mr. Erotic Texts, he'll start texting you less and less. He'll start losing interest, and now you're left nursing a bruised heart. It might be fun but it doesn't work. You know what else is likely to happen? This guy will suddenly reappear after a while. He'll want to see you again. He'll make excuses why he hasn't been in contact, and he'll promise to make it worth your while. The real reason he's back in contact is because he hasn't found another women willing to play dirty text with him. You get together with him one more time hoping things have changed. Maybe he wants to take you seriously this time. You have sex again, and soon you realize it's happening all over again. When you open the door to Mr. Erotic Texts from the get-go, you're going to end up confused, alone, and this guy won't leave you alone. The rush of oxytocin has hit and you've had the orgasm you craved for so long. The problem is this guy isn't your emotional equal. He doesn't want anything more than sex. Don't waste your time trying to figure this guy out or worrying about what you're doing wrong because you're not doing anything wrong. You just gave into Mr. Erotic Texts a little too fast. Slow down, and let him get to know you a bit. If he's turned on by you now, imagine how much he'll want to ravish you once you've been together a while.

https://www.yourtango.com/experts/david-wygant/dating-dangers-playing-mr-dirty-talk Why's this so relatable?

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When your man is worried about you but bloody proud of you for leading the pack at the same time that he gives you the thumb-up knowing darn well you can't see it.

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How do you feel happy and empty at the same time?

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I was waiting for this day to come, just to see if he really cared, he didn't.

Time to stop making life decisions based on his existence.

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Another reason why I'm the worst person on earth. Everyone seems to appreciate and adore Ry and I, and here I am, still trying to "hide" him from everyone and keeping it low key at all times.

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When you can speak Russian but struggle with the alphabet and you end up with a pile of shite from the menu.

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I miss you.

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A bit confused about where I should go in life tbh. Should I get my cert and move to Florida?

I'm honestly not feeling comfortable moving to a country where majority of the folks hate my lot lmao. But it's honestly the only opportunity I have to advance in life? The line of work I'm doing now is def not sustainable in the long run. Def underpaid, and totally not giving me enough room for me to do the things I want since I'm the backbone of my fam. But the biggest obstacle is, well, after my last two experiences there I wouldn't feel comfortable nor would I feel safe. Fuck, guess I should suck it up and risk it?

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Omgomgomg its you??!! Omg you and Ryan look so happy and cute together.. Your gorgeous!! Plz don't listen to bullies you guys make the best couple!! I promise Ill be respectful of uour wishes to stay anonymous..won't tell anyone I swear ☺☺ ps set your email to private here and adjust accordingly in your IG with ur diary log and the last documentary vids here its easy to match if you put some effort lol

Thank you, I really really appreciate it. Yes, we were invited to local govt dinner so we had to clean up and get our shite together.I'm new to Instagram and haven't done a bit of tinkering with it, but the Tumblr and documentaries totally slipped. Putting both on private as we speak, before everyone comes back on with their eagle eyes trying to find whatever details you've caught and I've missed haha. Xx

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Are ur IG stories 12 hrs ago from a gala dinner?? I think i found u but not sure bcos ur suppose to be in a jungle but its dark and looks like its outdoor jw!! Hope its really u ☺☺😏

Bitch HOW???

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You should never stop dating someone you are with no matter how long you two have been together. Trust me. No matter what the circumstances are. Find the time to go on a date. To be together, and just forget about life's demands, about the differences, about the little fights. If you can't find the time, make the time. Trust this old lady on this one.

Deborah. I guess someone here adopts the same belief. And he doesn't even know Deborah.

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Look at that smile. What a cutie.