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How I Love Thee, Mom and Dad.

Kung gaano kahirap maging magulang, ganoon kahirap maging anak sa mga tumatayo nitong mga magulang.

Nasasaktan din kami. At hindi kayo lagi ang tama. Hindi lahat ng ginagawa namin para sa sarili namin. Hindi nga kami dumadaing minsan pagkat alam namin na mamasamain niyo rin iyon. Pakinggan niyo rin kami. At sana alamin niyo rin kung bakit nagkakaganito ang inyong mga anak bago kayo humusga pagkat kayo dapat ang unang lalapitan ng inyong mga anak para pagdamdaman at pagdalamhatian.

Mahal din namin kayo at alam naming nahihirapan kayo. Pero mahirap ding maging anak sa mga magulang na sumosobra sa pagmamahal.

Ama, ina. Tama na. Sana maintindihan ninyo.

At hindi kami nagagalit sa inyo pagkat di mawawala kahit kailanman ang pagmamahal namin sa inyo.

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I'm not angry, I'm just telling you what I can do and I am telling you, don't let me show it to you.

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I'm Wearing a Kind of Roaring Eyeglasses

Oh well, I started wearing a pair of eyeglasses when I was in Grade 6 and I know you don't care about that. hahaha. Well, maybe, even though you don't care about this eyeglasses which looks like a kind of stupid one for you, I can get your attention if I tell you this is a silent tiger that can roar bravely even better than the roar of any kind of tiger you know. How? After this create a clearer view of my surroundings, this lets me see all of the lights created by the fire from every gun while the bullet from that gun quickly came to try to destroy my physical body to try to end my life and there are people who are laughing beside the gunman who is thinner and with skin with lighter tone than mine, is a little bit taller than me when he shoot me with his gun and most of all, is not doing that my classmates called the "PEC-ing" which I do when I am a little bit sleepy because of boredom and stress. With this eyeglasses, I saw those people laughing behind the gunman, all of them with this pair of glasses which they say is nothing but a stupid glasses that do not significantly makes a clearer view of the surroundings of the owner because of it is just constructed to fix astigmatism. And because of this eyeglasses, the owner can be a brave roaring tiger that can chase like predators with no difficulty and will give no mercy to any prey and when I did that, there is only one thing that is in my mind and that is I am a brave tiger that can roar better than any tiger and that is because of this eyeglasses I am wearing.

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A word with many definitions. Love.

Love is stupid. Yes! Why? Because with love, you will do everything for the one you love. With this definition of love to people, the word "love" is given thousands of definitions. Let me evaluate some: -Love is God (John 3:16) -Love is attachment ,caring ,a strong feeling towards another person. (techguy.mywapblog.com/post/30.xhtml‎) -Love is a feeling of strong or constant affection for a person (Merriam Webster) Some scientist researched and investigated what happens to our body when we are in love. Here is how techguy.mywapblog.com explained it. -- Love has a chemical basis. It is a mixture of naturally occurring chemicals and hormones. When you fall in love ,it isn't merely an emotional event. Your body hormones each with unique contribution gets involved too. When you see a beautiful girl ,your mid brain ,the part that controls audio and visual reflexes ,releases brain chemicals dopamine and norepine (Both are neurotransmitter) together with phenylethylamine (DEA) This cocktails of natural chemicals sends our heart racing. It creates feelings of yearning ,excitement ,pleasure and makes us crave being with that special one. It takes between 90 seconds and 4 minutes to decide if you fancy someone . Love's side-effects are increase of heart rate ,loss of appetite and lack of sleep. An intense feeling of excitement . Serontonin is love's most important chemical because this allows your lover just keep popping in your thoughts and imagination. When you touch and cuddle each other, the oxytocin level increases. It is produced in hypothalamus of both men and women. It's a chemical messenger in the brain's nerve cells. It create feeling of caring and warmth. Deepens the feeling of attachment and helps couple forming an emotional bond. Oxytocin strengthens the brain receptors that produce emotions. --

But do you know many scientists do not agree that love is eternal. According to Fredrickson a leading researcher of positive emotions at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill, love is a " micro-moment of positivity resonance" meaning love is a connection, characterized by a flood of positive emotions, which you share with another person —any other person — whom you happen to connect with in the course of your day. Her statement slightly match to the explanation of the chemical events happening on human body when he/she is in love because if there is a cause to a process, it will shut down or stop if the cause is lost, changed by a similar subject x or the willingness for that subject is gone. But how will you fit these findings from different scientists from the definition of Love as "Love is God" which is supported by the one of the most popular verse "For  God  so  loved  the  world  that  he  gave  his  one  and  only  Son,  that  whoever  believes  in  him  shall  not  perish  but  have  eternal  life. " from John 3:16. Yes, God is not human to really fit to the explanation of what happens to a person when he/she is in love but take a look at these situations, why do many couples sustain their marriage until both of them were gone? Let's take a look at my last sentence in my previous paragraph, "If  there  is  a  cause  to  a  process,  it  will  shut  down  or  stop  if  the  cause  is  lost,  changed  by  a  similar  subject  x  or  the  willingness  for  that  subject  is  gone ." Meaning, if a person is in love, the span of time to his/her love depends on him/her self. Which also means, if the people nowadays love in a short period of time, it is their willingness, and it shows people nowadays really do not feel the real essence of love. If you love, you should know that you should be ready to face everything with a smile and trust to your special person. If not, your love will not really become eternal. Your willingness will control your Serotonin Secretion if it will still make you feel in love or not. Yes, you might not be like God who is like paying for an unlimited service of Serotonin to keep on loving not just you, not just me, not just Jesus his son, but to all of us He created, but try to do so because He is loving you eternally, love others eternally too, not just your special one. He loves you and still trusts you even though you still commit sin, stop making sins, and love others as He loves you. Break the thought that love is not eternal and love like the Person who really loves you. Love and trust your partner much and love your neighbors too. Do not stop secreting Serotonin. God bless us all. Info Sources: http://techguy.mywapblog.com/post/30.xhtml http://www.theatlantic.com/sexes/archive/2013/01/theres-no-such-thing-as-everlasting-love-according-to-science/267199/ Bible Merriam-Webster Dictionary Paul Ernest Sevilla Carreon y Serrano de Leon San Fernando, Pampanga, Philippines. thepaularbear.tumblr.com

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I'm dry and can't do anything for life. :(

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Lumilipas ang mga araw. Walang nangyayari. Wala eh, di na ata matatapos lahat ng problema sa buhay ko. Ewan. Nakatadaha na ata sa akin ang maging isang taong bigo, bigo sa lahat lahat ng bagay. Ang masakit sa lahat ay may problema ka at wala kang magawa para maresolba mo. Siguro oo, kung titigil akong mag-aral for a year kaso masasakripisyo ang scholarship ko at masasama ako sa K-12 curriculum. Sa school naman, nahihirapan ako dahil hindi ako makamove sa studies. Kaya naman kung kaya, kaso wala na nga akong suporta mula sa aking mga magulang, nabubully pa ako at nagkukulang sa mga kailangan. Ang hirap no. Nakakainggit nga ang mga kaklase ko eh. Full support ng magulang kahit nasa abroad pa ang iba, may kaya, walang problema, masaya. Ako, nagtatrabaho na pero wala pa rin, hindi pa rin sapat para makatulong sa mga problama ng nanay ko. Kung ngang hindi kasalanan ang magpakamatay, matagal ko nang ginawa kaya lang alam ko na wala lang saysay ang ganoong bagay at mas malala ang mangyayari kung magpapakamatay lang ako. Mas gusto ko na na matapos na ang sistema ng mga bagay sa mundo ngayon. Wala nang problema, kapiling pa natin ang taong kayang magmahal sa atin ng buong puso at hindi tayo iniwan magmula pa noong una. Di ba, ang saya nun? Pero ang reyalidad, mukhang malayo pa iyon. Pero mukhang ganito na lang. Wala eh, wala nang pagasa sa buhay ko. Forever na siguro ito. Pero masaya pa rin ako. Kasi mayaman naman ako sa mga kaibigan. Kahit na anong mangyari, hindi ko sila ipagpapalit sa kahit ano. Kaya patuloy pa rin akong mabubuhay, magtratrabaho, magsisikap at mangangarap, para sa kanila at sa buong pamilya namin at sa magiging bukas, hindi akin lang, kundi sa lahat ng mga tulad ko na patuloy na nagsisikap at nag-aaral. :)))

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So were okay, We're fine. Baby I'm here to stop your cryin', Chase all the ghosts from your head, I'm stronger than the monster beneath your bed, Smarter than the tricks played on your heart, Look at them together then we'll take them apart, Adding up the total of a love that's true, Multiply life by the power of two.

Power of Two - Indigo Girls

This song just hit my mind when I was thinking what will I sing to someone in Valentine's Day. I'm excited. Well, for the first time I will serenade someone that is why I am kind of nervous. But I will confess, I will not serenade one, not two also, but three. Three people who made my heart beat harder than when I experience a near death experience when my blood pressure hits its limits.

Clues? One from II- Aristotle, one from II - Leeuwenhoek and one from II - Mendel.

No more clues, done! Okay, just be quiet whoever reads this, you will know when Feb. 14 comes.

Other songs

Little Things - One Direction

What Makes You Beautiful - One Direction

Grow Old With You

Many more..

-Paul Ernest Carreon's Post

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Do not let them make you follow their commands.

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You are my baby

Dapat nagcocompose ako ng song para sa project namin sa Physics. Ang tahimik ng paligid, madaling araw eh, tapos ang song para sa project, naging love song. Ewan, kapag kasi naaalala ko siya, yung feeling na bigla ka na lang makakaisip ng lyrics hanggang makabuo ka ng song. So ito, in 5 minutes, nakabuo ng isang love song.

Title: You are my baby

You are my angel

You are my bear You are the only one that makes me smile Wherever I am I always see you And hear your laughter that makes me smile I want to say "I love you" but I am not that brave to face you, to confess at you, everything to you Chorus: You are my baby You are the only one that makes me smile You are the one that only completes my life You are my baby You were the one who I love that much You are the only person who makes me worry 'Cause you are my baby I just want to spend My life with you 'Cause you are the one I love that much I want to say "I love you" but I am not that brave to face you, to confess at you, everything to you Chorus: You are my baby You are the only one that makes me smile You are the one that only completes my life You are my baby You were the one who I love that much You are the only person who makes me worry 'Cause you are my baby I want to reach the stars With you holding my hand my dreams were colorful because of you You are the reason why, 'cause You are my baby You are the only one that makes me smile You are the one that only completes my life You are my baby You were the one who I love that much You are the only person who makes me worry 'Cause You are my baby You are the only one that makes me smile You are the one that only completes my life You are my baby You were the one who I love that much You are the only person who makes me worry 'Cause you are my baby You are my baby.

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The Happy Day of Misfortunes

2 o'clock na ako nakatulog kagabi. Kinaumagahan, ginising ako ng tatay ko ng 6, ang aga, tinanong niya kung magsisimba ako. "Sige" pumayag ako. Dahil isa ako sa mga nagseserve, nagsrve ako. After kong mg-iwan ng tubig sa altar, natapilok ako pababa. Yeah, nakakahiya. Tapos, pagkauwi, nagsimula nang gumawa ng sariling misa ang nanay ko, ang haba ng homily niya, talbog ang homily ni father. Topic? Something na hindi naman ako ang may gawa pero sa akin pinopoint. Pagpasok ko, in-on ko yung home theater, pinlug ang flash drive ko at pinlay ang mga songs nina Jason Chen, Megan Nicole, ng Apo Hiking Society at ng Glee.Sa sobrang lakas ng volume, di ko narinig na tinatawag ako ng tatay ko. Hayun, alam niyo na. Tapos, kumain sila, nakatulog ako, ag-almusal sila nang hindi man ako tinitira ng pagkain. Gusto ko mang magluto pero hindi ko magamit ang kawali. Tapos, 12 na, ako ang pinagset ng pagkain, napagpalit ko lang ang serving spoon sa rice at sa ulam, tinawag na akong bobo, walang kwenta, baligtad ang utak ng nanay ko. Sana naman sila nalang ang gumawa. Tutal perfect din naman sila. Kapag nakatulala ako, tinanong ba nila ako kung bakit. Nakatulala lang, tatanga-tanga agad, pwedeng may iniisip na problema ang anak niyo kaya ganyan siya ngayon at laging hindi masayang umuuwi sa bahay? Hay ang saya grabew, SAYA SAYA

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-Usher

Like what he said, I will be there, just call me :)))))

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I miss you.

This three-word sentence is the first sentence that I want to tell someone. Yeah, we study in the same school, I always see her and he were both in the same year level but most of the time, we do not talk.

I don't know but I admit, it is my fault. Why? When I see her, I am too shy to talk to her. I don't know why I am shy.

That is the word, I am shy. I started to be shy to her when the day came when she asked me if I like her. Until now, I am very shy to talk to her but I miss her.

Brave. That is the word that you cannot use to describe me. I want to talk to her but I am not the person that you can describe as brave.

It's very... UGH

I miss our conversations.

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I need you today oh Mandy

One of the lines of the song "Mandy" by Barry Manilow. I love that song. I can relate myself to the chorus

Well you came and you gave without taking And I sent you away, oh Mandy And you kissed me and stopped me from shaking And I need you today, oh Mandy

Maybe I don't need to explain what happened because the chorus of the song already explains it. Oh well, I just need you today oh mandy.

The whole song

I remember all my life Raining down as cold as ice A shadow of a man A face through a window Crying in the night The night goes into Morning, just another day Happy people pass my way Looking in their eyes I see a memory I never realized How happy you made me, oh Mandy Well you came and you gave without taking And I sent you away, oh Mandy And you kissed me and stopped me from shaking And I need you today, oh Mandy I'm standing on the edge of time Walked away when love was mine Caught up in a world of uphill climbing The tears are in my eyes And nothing is rhyming, oh Mandy Well you came and you gave without taking And I sent you away, oh Mandy And you kissed me and stopped me from shaking And I need you today, oh Mandy Yesterday's a dream Now I face the morning Crying on the breeze The pain is calling, oh Mandy Well you came and you gave without taking And I sent you away, oh Mandy And you kissed me and stopped me from shaking And I need you today, oh Mandy Well you came and you gave without taking And I sent you away, oh Mandy And you kissed me and stopped me from shaking And I need you today, oh Mandy

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If my head is a star, then, the name of the planets revolving around it are,

I

Love

You

With

All

of

My

Heart

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Bakit ko kaya ginawa iyon kagabi? Uy hindi kababalaghan.

Basta, last night, naiwan ako sa bahay. Then, bigla na lang pumasok sa isip ko yung mukha. Ewan ko kung ano ang naisip ko. Naggm ang lolo mo. Anong laman? lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na hindi ko kayang sabihin sa harap niya. Kapag siguro gagawin ko iyon, mauutal lang ako o kaya siguradong tatakbo ako kahit hindi ko pa tapos sabihin lahat. Galit kaya siya? Haay. Sana hindi. I'm not asking to be her boyfriend actually. Gusto ko lang sabihing mahal ko siya. Wala na. Masyado na kasing matagal na inilihim ko sa sarili ko at masyado nang matagal na pinipilit ko ang sarili ko na kalimutan na lang siya eh. Alam mo ba yung feeling? haha, kung alam mo, ang hirap no? Hanggat hindi ko siya nakikita, maraming tanong ang bumabaabag sa akin. Galit kaya siya? Baka iwasn niya ako bukas? Baka namisinterpret niya? Baka maging masama ang dating? Sana wag siyang magalit sa akin.