thepenguinlad

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About ten years ago I decided that the next step I needed to take in my life was to accept and explore what it meant to be a failure and to have failed. This infuriated almost everybody in my life and clearly terrified a lot of people. People do not want you to accept failure. They dont want you to like... Sit with and think about it and pick it up and turn it arpund in your hands and really examine it. They want you to keep throwing yourself against the impossible walls until your body explodes! They do not want you to say "alright then, I've failed. What does that mean for me? Im still here. What does the life of someone who has failed look like?"

This makes people very angry and panicky.

My mental health improved in ways it had not in the previous DECADE once I stopped. And. Sat. With failure. And thought about what my failure ... Was. And looked at the structures that produced it and examined them critically.

It is so taboo to fail and admit it openly and talk about it. It is so taboo to talk about or think about failure in an accepting way rather than hiding it shamefully until you experience a degree of success in some area which allows you to present the past failure as "a stepping stone" to your current situation. Fuck that. We are put in positions of guaranteed failure by society every day and then punished and shamed for it. Lets fucking talk about failure

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I’m very curious cause I know most of tumblr uses ao3

Pls pretend 3 says read/write I can’t edit it

I tend to mostly write fics but i occasionally read them

Please reblog so more ppl can answer :)

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If you've ever appreciated my posts about LGBTQ issues, this Pride month, as a favor to me, please do something to help my friend Fadel ( @fadel-dani ).

Fadel is multiply disabled.

A very serious accident left his leg paralyzed for a long time, and now he walks with great difficulty. He also has thalassemia, a blood disorder, which leaves him incredibly fatigued. The medication he needs costs €400 every month. He needs to buy medication as soon as possible, because he has not been able to afford it so far this month. He suffers from dizziness and nausea all the time because he has not been able to buy his medication yet.

Fadel needs urgent surgery

Over 550 days ago, Fadel's family home was bombed and he was left with iron shrapnel embedded in his body. The medical infrastructure in Gaza has been decimated and he URGENTLY needs to get to a better-resourced hospital to get this shrapnel surgically removed safely.

Fadel's family is starving

Israel has created and maintained famine in Gaza as a genocidal tactic. Not only do they prevent food aid from entering, but they target crowds of Palestinians waiting for the distribution of aid.

Fadel and his brothers recently traveled together to an aid site, hungry and desperate for food, only to be met with Israeli snipers.

He recounted, "I saw many martyrs die in front of my eyes. Unfortunately we fled and were not able to take any food or anything. Now we have nothing to eat. A bag of flour costs 800 euros, a kilo of sugar costs 100 euros, a kilo of tomatoes costs 50 euros, and a liter of milk costs 80 euros. What's worse is that my medication is about to run out. I don't know what to do. Should I spend my surgery money to buy medicine and food to eat, or what?"

He told me today that for the last two days his family has been rationing their remaining supplies so that they have only been able to eat once a day. They are always hungry.

Fadel's campaign is vetted

His campaign has been vetted by @gazavetters (#197) and 90-ghost.

Earlier this year he raised nearly 50% of his goal, but on April 25th, 2025, GoFundMe cruelly deleted his fundraiser with no warning or explanation (something this company has done to many Palestinians trying to survive genocide) and he was forced to start over with a new campaign.

Despite GoFundMe's deletion of his first campaign automatically returning all donations to the donors, most people who previously donated have not taken the time to send that money back to him.

Today as I write this (June 22, 2025), he has has raised 39% of his goal, still over €3,000 below the amount he had raised back in April.

He has escaped death so many times, and he needs our help to survive long enough to get to a hospital who can treat his injuries.

What you can do:

Donate any amount you can to his campaign

Make a post about Fadel to share his story and encourage others to donate

Share this post with your followers

Send him a kind message at @fadel-dani and offer your friendship

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Also to be clear if you put the new Harry Potter show on my dashboard I will be unfollowing and probably blocking you. JK Rowling is responsible for the death and pain of too many trans people to count in my country and I cannot tolerate her new way of trying to gain cultural and financial power in any way shape or form.

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Naps are a forbidden technique, I think. If you pull them off just right you'll access a pool of near-endless rejuvenating power, but if you mess up some inscrutable part of the ritual your vitality and might will be sapped and you'll be left at the mercy of your opponents

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Y’all have no excuse for not knowing how to dance now😂😂😂

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hm.

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“How could you recognize me

after all these years?”

“What a stupid question.

I was born knowing you.”

Dedicated to @thiamsxbitch

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They should invent a method of asking for reassurance that nobody secretly hates you that doesn't make people secretly hate you.

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the em dash calls to me like the green goblin mask whenever I’m writing a fic

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Spring garden.

Yamashita park, Yokohama, Japan.

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i was cheering for him...

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The American consumer doesn’t actually want trucks and cars that are huge enough that you can’t see a six foot tall person over the hood. They make vehicles that big now to avoid environmental regulations related to engine efficiency

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After a long hiatus (sorry, RL ate me), I am doing braids! Here are the first two pages.  

On my list of braids to go in depth into are cornrows, micro braids, box braids, ghana braids, and tree braids.   Stay tuned in the next couple of weeks and I will release them one by one, and then put them together in one big compilation. 

More Black Hair In Depth:

Drawing Natural Hair

Dreadlocks

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its a mystery