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Got called delusional but I think he meant delicious

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“the death of a beautiful woman is the most poetical thing in the world”

a pretty corpse is all ive ever wanted.

i was a suicidal girl, newly 13, and every plan involved benadryl because i wanted to be pink on the inside

i wanted to die while i was still thin, pale, pink, and almost blonde.

i wanted to die an idealized girl, a lisbon sister.

i wanted to die hanging from a flowering tree in a vibrant garden 

i was a flower wanting to be pressed in a book while newly blooming

a baby faced doll in a glass display case, complete in a hospital bed.

i wanted to die so i could stay in a stagnant state of girlhood

i went to museums and prayed, prayed to stay a 13 year old girl forever and i saw a carving of ophelia

she was dressed in angelic clothes and floated down a stream of flowers.

she was always beautiful, even in death.

especially in death.

i wanted to stay in the innocence of childhood but had already reached the depression of adolescence, i had already sewed pill bottles into my stuffed animals

a romanticized death is a death reserved for the ingenue

a death for the madonna who will be remembered in their purest state

everyone loves a young, thin girl in a white cotton nightgown, bleeding out

the death of a woman is sad, but the death of a beautiful woman was a romantic tragedy 

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Julia Fox's missing person poster after she fled Italy when she was “16” using funds her grandfather gave her for an abortion she lied about so she could go to New York and be with her drug dealing adult boyfriend (she was 18, she was born in 1990)

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May (2002) dir. Lucky McKee

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