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for when you feel

when you feel most alone 

look at the sky and see the shinning star

when you feel like life turns upside down 

listent to my favorite H.S song 

when you feel that time is not healing you right

write down what i made you feel that first time 

when you feel like drowining 

take a deep breath and let me go

when you feel like everything is over 

remember i’ll always be there

and no matter what, i’ll love you till the day a die. 

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love and some other words

I don’t know why, but before i fell in love, i could write more romantic things, even before i experienced them. Now that i know the feeling, i stopped writting everything i wanted to feel, was it because i was living them that i did not have the necessity to put them down into words? or is it because i do not want to write from my own experience because it feels way too personal? 

i know i am a romantic person, even in a cheesy-romcom way, but when i try to write about love from my own perspective, the words don’t come? am I affraid to make them real? or what originates the block? 

i’ll try my best...

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just another random thought

I find myself loosing what i have always wanted: to write. As time goes by, i keep letting life get in the way of my true passion. As I read my old posts, i came to the conclusion that maybe i do have what it takes to become someone? that maybe, just maybe i’ll succeed my own expectations. 

Life has come and go, love, friendships, family, and a lot of suffering has plastered upon me. Have i learned something? I hope so. I think i’m experiencing more things of life than i could ever imagine. 

Time..time...time... 

it’ll always be here, the years have passed, puff, gone. 

2023 will be my year. My year of accomplishments, my year to love again, my year to laugh more, my year to express how I feel, my year to travel, my year to live life to the fullest. The year to find myself again !!

Jazz, tea, books, movies, friends, everything you love I- 

2023 will change things for you!! just be patient and learn to love and grow. 

you’ll see.. 

[thepowerfulword]

october 1st 2021

what do you do  when you lose someone you think is the love of your life?

how do you move on with your life if you are still in love with that person, how do you stop thinking about him, how do you get him out of your system?

 I say i love myself, that the things I do are for myself only. It’s not selfish, it’s called self-love. But when you lose the one that makes you happy does that count as not self-love? 

i wanna be happy, and i wanna be happy with him, for many years to come. 

[thepowerfulword]

Once again I felt it. I don’t understand why making someone feel as good as they can and then laughing bc it’s funny how pleasure ignites her body. I don’t get it and I think I’m not overreacting

Sometimes I feel like he’s the one and sometimes I feel like he’s the the first one. First date, first boyf, first kiss with feeling, first everything. But not THE kiss, THE passion, THE love, THE ONE.

How will I know?

12.04.20 (2:16 a.m)

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I’m still wondering who the hell I am. For instance, this great person, who constantly tells me the infamous words of “I love you”, and shows me how he feels, well it goes right to my core. But, some days, those same words feel nothing at all. If you keep using the same words over and over, do they lose their meaning?

When I say that I still don’t know who I am it’s because deep down i want to feel the same things other people feel, I know I have feelings, deep down buried and kept safe in my soul. It would be nice to see them outside in the world once in a while.

I don’t know who I am but I do know what I want: passion. I want to feeeeeel that emotion of “love”, don’t get me wrong I have felt it, with that great person. But u want more, a crave for that deep-shattering-rip out-of-my-soul feeling. The rush of feeling it EVERYWHERE. Not just feeling emotions, but seeing them, see the passion behind their eyes and not being offended by the great person calling me girly because I feel too much and that I want to be a hopelessly romantic

I guess I’m asking for too much right now. I’ll settle for what I have in front of me (just for now) bc I know I will find that down to earth person, who can make me feel like the most valuable thing in the whole world.

11.04.20

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04.06.19

Because life doesn’t come in a silver platter

You have to work for things that matter

If we had more time

What would you say?

If we had a chance

Would you make it okay?

We were lovers

And now we are strangers

my life was a mess before we discovered

Each other

We were just teenagers

what a mess we did when we were together

The saddest thing of all

Is that I thought I would end up alone

You had me before

Now you seem so lost

we don’t love each other anymore

Who are you?

I don’t recognize that voice

I knew everything about you

I wish I had taken an other choice

But there’s no button for an undo

[thepowerfulword]

No one ever tells you what it feels like to love someone

No one ever tells you how mad can you get when someone messes up with your things

No one ever tells you what depression feels like

No one ever tells you how hard it is to breathe when you are suffocating

No one ever tells you that life ain’t free

Nothing in life comes with a heads up telling you how to live

It is a person’s duty to discover each deep emotion that life may bring along

Go ahead and find it, find your purpose.

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I want to become a writer, but like some typical writers, at my age, they've read thousands of recognized authors and know everything about literature. I haven't read any important novels like someone who is supposed to love books are expected to do and I´m afraid I cannot fit in in the world of literature 

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P.S

I don't know who I am and am seriously considering going to therapy, I think I have some unsolved issues from my childhood, exhibit A: I do not cry often and I think in some cases I´m emotionally detached

s.o.s

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21/01/18

so I just wanted to get my feelings out without telling anyone

my current situation: my parents are having money problems and we are barely living with my mother’s salary. barely. My dad cannot pay for my school and yeah basically I cannot go to school until further notice. I don't see the point of getting mad at him, but the upcoming questions from my friends like “why didn't you go to school?” is what really bothers me. I do not want to face my parent's lack of responsibility at school. lame. blah blah blah. 

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02/01/19

Whaaaaaaaat

I think Time is an illusion, created by society only to give life a meaning. They say time heals all wounds, well I think NOT, unless time itself comes to you as a doctor treating whatever the hell you are feeling terrible with and magically cure all your problems. Men & Women living in this Earth for 2019 years. World Record.

keep the highs up and don't blame time for your past and future mistakes

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23/12/18

it doesn’t feel like christmas. at all. 

[thepowerfulword]

An instant crush that turned into a nighttime obsession.                                       Embarrassing? Humiliating? Mortifying? Sure, all of the above.                                 Regrets? Guilt? Remorse? None of the above.                                                               It´s called life honey, google it. 

-MOVE ON!!

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a conversation with myself.

life comes and goes. feelings stay and leave. we have to stay true to ourselves.           If you have asked me a year ago “what are you thinking?” I would have said something like “nothing. him. i guess”                                                            Now, right this moment, you said, “what are you thinking?” 

I said: “me”. 

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W-H-Y

Why do we have to decide what to do with our future?

EXPECTATIONS is what kills the soul of a person 

whywhywhywhwy. What if I have no idea what i wanna do for the rest of my life???? The powerful word here: WHY

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30/03/18

neeeeew year... well 4 months later. I´m still amazed on how the days pass. puff. gone. 

2018. new faces, new feelings, new thoughts. everything is different... again