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Just waiting for that number to go down even slightly…I know it’s consistency but I’m doing everything and nothing is working! Help! 🫠

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Too much today but walked 15,000 steps so that’s getting better.

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76.5! Almost there!!!

23/08 still 76.6

25/08 76.4

28/08 76.0

09/09 75.2

04/10 74.8

05/10 74

06/10 73.6

09/10 72.5

Just a note to self....I got this! 😁🥺

SW: 75 CW: 65 UGW: 50

✅ GW1: 70 10/02/21

✅ GW2: 65 24/04/21

GW3: 60

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Reminding myself that 3 days isn’t gonna see results….I need to trust that if I am consistent then I’ll see results but not straight away.

I got that floaty feelin back

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Lazy strength workout

1 song each

• push ups

• kneeling boxing twists

• squats

• hip bridges

• lying arms

• lying leg raises

• Side plank both sides

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Things I can do instead of stuff my face

* read

* Exercise

* Write

* Drink tea/peach drink

* Skincare

* Nails

* Nap

* Audiobook and walk

* Write a list

* Clean

* Complete meal plan template for future

* Journal

* Study

* Yoga

* Online workout

* Make a playlist

* Get on my bike inside

* Plan a Pilates combo

* Go for a bike ride outside

* Go to the park

* Go to the library

* social media

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God I wish I was at this weight. I feel sick currently. I physically need to be sick just seeing these numbers written. That’s the only way to do anything about it though.

SW: 78 CW: 78 UGW: 50

GW1: 75

GW2: 70

GW3: 65

GW4: 60

Time to work now. Consistency, discipline and honesty.

Just a note to self....I got this! 😁🥺

SW: 75 CW: 65 UGW: 50

✅ GW1: 70 10/02/21

✅ GW2: 65 24/04/21

GW3: 60

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Lol didn’t end up landing that job because I’m not their type in the size I am or was.

Back and active! Listened to people for a while, but what I want should be more important. I can manage it all and still be fine. About to land the starting role of my dream career path and it’s all going up from here!

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I’ve let myself go too much,

I can’t stand how I look anymore,

Nothing fits, it’s gross when I sit,

Just want to forever let go

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Starting to feel like there is something wrong with my brain but not sure if I should believe that.

Today is different, haven’t felt so mentally floaty for a while.

New day. New project. New me.

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Back to do my own thing now! If anyone wants to be a buddy I’m definitely keen for a friend. Sometimes it just gets bloody hard and ur everyday people just have no clue what it’s actually like. All they want to do is change you when you don’t want to be changed and tell you what you do is ludicrous and shame you.

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I have nothing to say

I’ve tried to speak for so long

Your ears are immune

They are deaf to my sound

Your invalidation is rather validating

So thank you, goodbye

Maybe it’s depression

Maybe it’s my inability to be good enough

Which will never be

At least not for you

Never good enough

Never good enough for you

But who is you and who am I

We are one and the same now

Repetition has made you so strong

Now you just take up space

Rent free in my head

When this is all I’ve ever known

Let go of it I could never

It would be good to let go

But to let go would be all or nothing

And that is more welcoming day by day

Yes definitely, day by day….. 🥀

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I just gotta do better, not good enough

I just gotta do better, not good enough

I just gotta do better, not good enough

I just gotta do better, not good enough

I just gotta do better, not good enough

I just gotta do better, not good enough

I just gotta do better, not good enough

I just gotta do better, not good enough

Just gotta do better, not good enough

Just gotta do better, not good enough

Just gotta do better, not good enough

Never good enough

I will never be good enough

🥀🖤

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Back and active! Listened to people for a while, but what I want should be more important. I can manage it all and still be fine. About to land the starting role of my dream career path and it’s all going up from here!

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62.1. Cannot budge below 62! So over this!!! Time to worker and faster.

Just a note to self....I got this! 😁🥺

SW: 75 CW: 65 UGW: 50

✅ GW1: 70 10/02/21

✅ GW2: 65 24/04/21

GW3: 60

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I’m doing real bad with this eating disorder thing, don’t even deserve my diagnosis at the moment. Can’t say I’ve been very restrictive lately and haven’t lost weight for a bit and I just feel absolutely disgusting because of it. My brain goes into over drive about how disgusting I am for all of this :/

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Assignment due soon, half done, no idea what I’m doing, cannot fail this........need to be skiiiiinnniiiii.