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JUST A REMINDER

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she took my hands and planted constellations right into my palms. I looked at her as the reflection of stars shone in her eyes. And in that moment I realized for a fact that there could be nothing more beautiful than that sight.

—her

© copyright Em Griffith

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You asked me if I thought we could ever find peace.

“After a long hard day, I look at the sunset with a cup of coffee in my hands and I feel peace.

When overwhelming thoughts intoxicate me, I go outside so I can feel the wind washing away the dust in my lungs. I feel peace.

The moment I see my mother smiling and laughing in despite of it all, I feel peace.

And I believe that’s what it is, it’s the balance of the good and the bad in exquisite harmony.

So, yes.”

— Rose

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2.31 am and two empty bottles of beer.

“You were my safe place,

A refuge to my thoughts.

The place I could go every time my heart trembled over the most bittersweet sadness,

The place I could go when the numbness of the void beated through the cracks of my broken hopes.

That’s why I keep on catching myself seeking traces of you everywhere,

To feel warm,

To go home,

Even if it is just for a moment.”

— Rose

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Anchor.

imagine if you were an anchor in the crushing forces of the ocean

you’re thrown off the deck in an instant and you plunge down,

deeper and deeper into the vast unknown and it was nearly impossible to just

stop.

they say the ocean is 95% unexplored -

you think you can’t go any deeper

but eventually you reach rock bottom

and you’re stuck.

you’re grounded onto the ocean floor

you can’t move, you can’t breathe and you can’t see.

where exactly are you?

what is that light above your head?

why is it so far away?

your thoughts jumble and on cue your lungs scream for air

‘i can’t breathe.’ 

and it’s terrifying.

it’s dark. 

the light above was dim and it had started to fade so you feel your stomach lurch at the incoming pitch black heading towards you.

you’re running out of oxygen. your head is a spinning mess and you struggle to grasp something, anything.

anything that was real.

but you were in the midst of the ocean floor.

‘i can’t breathe.’ 

and there was nothing here.

but then you feel a tug

soft, but you felt it.

a yank

your surroundings had begun to evaporate and whatever it was that held you down loosened its grip

and finally, slowly, you resurface from the deep blue and air hits you like never before

it takes you moments to realise you’re free from a prison of void

everything is okay.

until another storm comes along.

this is my take on panic attacks. it is absolutely terrifying and during those 10-15 minutes, you are fighting against yourself - against your mind, your body. and for those of you out there who have gone through panic attacks yourself, i don’t want you to be alone.

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“I think that maybe love is the purest, most wonderful thing humans can experience. Loving another - It is the way your eyes twinkle and your ears twitch at the sound of their name. It is making time instead of finding time. It is the inside jokes and giggling over sweet nothings. It is telling them something you’re afraid to, but you do anyways. It is being content as you sit in a room with them, pure silence, but feel the comfort of each other’s company. It is the smile on your face and the skipping of your heart as you see them laugh with joy. Love is happy. But Love can also be looking in the mirror and realising that the person in front of you is still standing, the person who has been through so much. It is choosing yourself first and never compromising to less. It can be taking long, warm showers whilst singing your heart out to throwback songs. It can be sitting in a room by yourself with a book and the covers around you as you listen to the pitter-patter of rain against window. It is thinking of endless possibilities and setting your mind free. It is cherishing your body and mind; it is acknowledging your beautiful soul. Love is happy. And once you know you’re falling - the key is not to stop. It is to keep falling. You either love or you don’t, But darling, I really hope you do.”

— because i guess, love is the closest we can get to magic

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190214 Blackpink Kim Jisoo at Incheon International Airport © deep focus do not edit, crop, or remove the watermark

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Wish i'm a perfect daughter

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Go taytay

Video of Taylor kicking the beach ball!

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1..2..3 f*ck.

i spit my hot choco

Litterally the queen of reflexes

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Beach balls: 0

Taylor Swift: 2

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so when I wear this to the grocery store it’s “embarassing” and “absolutely unnecessary” but when taylor does it it’s “fun” and “sending a powerful message”

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Its first day of school tomorrow..... ughhsjwkwkwjbejww

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Godddd I accidentally shaved my legs and all I can do is shave them all.

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no one:

literally not a single soul:

my mind 24/7:

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when you can’t scream “SPELLIG IS FUN” at the top of your lungs cause you’ll get in trouble

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Taylor during the rep era vs ts7