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Clearing things up

No fake bullshit going on, blocked and deleted everything immediately after the call, don't care about you anymore because you're the past, only found out about this shit now, get out of my life and you worry about your own shittiness, leave me alone don't need anymore toxicity or bullshit in my life 🖕leaving Ohio for good, fuck you

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Blackbear - The 1

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Garbage day

Your garbage is by the trash cans. Tuesday is trash day, you have until then. Pick it up and leave, disposables have been thrown out

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More of them

They keep me up and I can't get rest. It's all I'm thinking about right now. Maybe I could pick a date and I wouldn't have to worry anymore. A nightmare about a vampire sucking me dry with their vampire group. I continue to stick with them as there is a beautiful girl amongst them. She continues to suck me dry, I continue to let it happen.she remains unchanged when I let her know my feelings. At the end I've got nothing left in me, I wonder why didn't I just die in the first place. I wake up. I throw up for the 2nd time tonight. I think about a time and date. No more worries...

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Heartache

It hurts so much when I can't do anything. I want all these things for us and for her, but I never feel like she wants that when stuff like this happens, especially over something mundane. She's quick to do so as well. I've wanted to put faith into her and believe she actually loves me and wants this to keep going, but she doesn't want to better it for some reason. I've asked why, with no reasons as well other than what I've responded with during the earlier argument. She acts like I don't think about her or want to make her happy and that I've been terrible to her this entire time, when I haven't at all. I've tried my best with what I have and I always try to keep her chin up even when I'm not there, but apparently it's all for nothing. My thoughts of the future keep getting blurrier and blurrier everytime she acts like this when all I want is better for us. I'm always thinking she's the one, but I don't even know why she's not thinking about that with me and she's given me baseless reasons as to why. I want so much for us, but I keep getting hurt. She ends up hurting herself in the process of hurting me and each time I'm the one to blame when we'll just be going about things as usual and how they've seemed, good. Giving each other compliments and helping each other out and talking with each other all the time when possible, as well as being supportive through tough times. I just can't understand why she'd rather act like this than how things have been going. Why is it so much to ask for just whats been going on with us for the past few weeks? I don't understand why and I'm scared everytime something happens because she feels as if she's the most unimportant thing to me when it's the complete opposite. I can't stop thinking about her and my future with her, I can't stop thinking about talking to her and being happy with her, I can't stop loving her because she's so damn important to me. Apparently I'm desiring too much. I'm lost and afraid and don't know what to do. I really want things to work out and for her to get better. I know she goes through a lot and I just want to support her. I'm sorry and never ever want to hurt her, but I feel like she'll never be sorry and always wants to hurt me. I don't know what to do or who to go for, for help. I wish I could just kill myself and not have to deal with anymore of these problems I'm dealing with. I feel like there isn't any point anymore, but she's my only light in the darkness. Constantly everyday I'm losing more and more of my sanity, but she keeps it in check. But what will happen when the light goes out? Maybe I would be better off gone. I don't know anymore, it just keeps getting blurrier and blurrier to me...

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Same

When someone gives you bad news but you’re already dead inside

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“There is nothing on this earth that makes my day more than you, especially when I see that beautiful smile of yours.”

— Poets Love Her

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“Thinking about you is all I do.”

— Poets Love Her

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“I wish I could have you in my arms right now.”

— Poets Love Her

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“One smile from you takes the pain away.”

— Poets Love Her

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