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Buddhism:

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My anorexic ass got so excited when this showed up on my fyp

I need to try it out

Link to og video: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRbRvAhV/

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TW: ED VENT ART

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Relapse after 2 years

Hi. 

Ive been clean for 2 years. Two hard years. I fixed my health problems, got better mentally. And here i am.

Im not back because i think i should be skinnier. Im arlready skinny. 

Im back because the feeling gives me comfort. I like feeling hungry, i like the pains, i like feeling dizzy because of a long fast.

I relapsed after i didnt have time to eat lunch one day and the feeling came back. 

I dont need thinspo, i dont need meanspo. I just need the feeling.

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I cri every time

✨D U M B B I T C H ✨

👉🏽🤮

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i have a my melody plush that turns into an apple pie from mcdonalds

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Girls be like "I know a spot" and then take you to their ex's favourite spot bc they miss them and are using you to fill the void they left bc you kinda look like them.

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This image hurts my brain more than the original debate ever did. Brains are dumb.

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i found the video

source

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I lost everything

I decided to kill myself.

I decided to make everyone hate me so that no one misses me.

I decided to do all the risky things I was scared to.

I became a smoker, alcoholic, self-harmer, slut.

Everything I ever hated.

I have no one.

Just my thoughts.

My horrible, doubtful, sucidal thoughts.

I stopped eating in hopes to be skinny and to get back the people I pushed away.

I want to die more than ever.

I feel like I’m dead.

I look like I’m dead.

I should be dead.

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literally what does this mean i’m screaming