theschneidebrett

[theschneidebrett]

Two years ago since my last post. I think there happened a lot.

I am only a half year away from finishing my A-levels, moving out and being able to start to study.

I have a "new" boyfriend (one year today), we might move together in some months.

I am overwhelmed by the possibilities which might maybe happen in one year.

My goal right now is to make my A-levels with a 2 in front of the comma, move out to the city my boyfriend lives in, start studying architecture and end up happy.

Thing is, I wanted to delete all of those silly teen apps which actually have a toxic influence or waste our time.

But now, here we are, writing a silly little text on that silly little app, wanting to do poetry as in 2022.

[theschneidebrett]

tw sh.

I was clean for at least a month.

But yesterday night I failed. Again.

Who'd have guessed haha.

And now I can't stop thinking about doing it again.

Shit.

[theschneidebrett]

tw.

"Couldn't care less"

I couldn't care less isn't about school anymore.

Or about parents and friends.

It's about fucking everything.

I'll die anyway.

and that's pretty okey rn.

[theschneidebrett]

tw sh.

Again.

Fuck.

I'm not enough.

It's still not open.

Please help.

I have new blades, but it doesn't work.

Help me pleaseeeeee.

Pleaseeee fucking help. :,(

Thank you for tipps please? <3

[theschneidebrett]

tw sh.

The feeling of not being enough.

It's there, everyday. 24/7.

I don't even selfharm enough.

It's not like that (),

it's like that I.

I need to cut deeper, but I can't.

Help, please :(((