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There are a few things in life so beautiful they hurt: swimming in the ocean while it rains, reading alone in empty libraries, the sea of stars that appear when you’re miles away from the neon lights of the city, bars after 2am, walking in the wilderness, all the phases of the moon, the things we do not know about the universe, and you.

Beau Taplin, And You (via thelovejournals)

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I don’t feel very much like Pooh today, said Pooh. There there, said Piglet. I’ll bring you tea and honey until you do.

A.A. Milne, Winnie-the-Pooh (via thequotejournals)

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Yes, terrible things happen, but sometimes those terrible things—they save you.

Chuck Palahniuk, Haunted (via wordsnquotes)

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Life takes us to unexpected places sometimes. The future is never set in stone, remember that.

Erin Morgenstern, The Night Circus (via wordsnquotes)

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Do you. Worry less about others who don’t agree with your life or perspective and live to the fullest. It’s your right to be happy.

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Not all of us are waiting to be saved , Some of us are actually doing the saving ourselves .

Kriti.G (via wnq-writers)

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For just one second, look at your life and see how perfect it is. Stop looking for the next secret door that is going to lead you to your real life. Stop waiting. This is it: there’s nothing else. It’s here, and you’d better decide to enjoy it or you’re going to be miserable wherever you go, for the rest of your life, forever.

Lev Grossman, The Magicians  (via wordsnquotes)

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You’re complicated. You need someone who gets that about you.

Lev Grossman, The Magicians (via wordsnquotes)

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I built these hoping they would have enough room. They do but barely.

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(love it, obi-wanheda!)  

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Acknowledging the ringing in my ears and the way my gender fuels that ringing has played a crucial part in taking care of my own mental health. Sometimes this process happens in my own head. I stretch under the covers first thing in the morning and check to see what I can hear. However dim or deafening it may be, I do my best to accept that. I recognize what I can and cannot do to adjust the volume. I recognize that I am not the only person or thing with access to the controls, and I accept that. The unpredictability is what remains mentally taxing. Sometimes I wake up and the volume is not where I left it the night before. My brain and heart grow weary from calculating the endless possible outcomes. Where can I go to avoid being gendered?

C Macsisak, “Ringing Truth” (via twloha)

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If I were to compare years where I’ve begun to figure myself out to years where I’ve felt lost, the latter would tip the scale. But I know time will pass, and the scales will tip in my favor. Yes, the ringing is still there, but that’s OK. The ringing died down as I look around the circle of people in attendance at a middle school LGBT club. I knew that just by being part of the circle, I was a positive influence to someone who was in need of some hope. Although my heart raced and my face flushed when it came time for my introduction, I forced myself to be the example I know I needed when I was in their shoes. “Hello, my name is C and my pronouns are they/them. I’m non-binary, gay, and so proud to get to be a part of this group today,” I said with as strong of a voice as I could muster. I told the group how awkward I felt in middle school. How awkward I still feel today. Despite my awkwardness and the ringing, I was still able to use the word “hopeful” to sum up my feelings at the end of the meeting.

C Macsisak, “Ringing Truth” (via twloha)

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I want to be like water. I want to slip through fingers, but hold up a ship.

Michelle Williams (via psych-facts)

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Me today.

So true!

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I am jealous of those who think more deeply, who write better, who draw better, who look better, who live better, who love better than I.

Sylvia Plath (via wordsnquotes)

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Leo Tolstoy