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logging in for the first time in a while how are we doingggggg (most of my mutuals seem to have deactivated)

having a hard mental health time rn so what better time to get back into my system blog? the past few weeks have been so fucking retraumatizing. my stutter is coming back and everything

-kathy

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the worst thing ive probably ever done to a group of other human beings was getting the aux for the big speaker at a party while on ecstasy and putting on an audiobook of dune from where i'd last left off

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we havent logged onto here in forever but today is my personal birthday (the body's is in november but mine is today) and I'm celebrating being in a way better place than I was this time last year. I don't even think I fronted on my birthday last year because I was really going thru it. anyways I'm 20 now and I do not fuck with toxic ppl the same way I did when I was 19 🥰🥰 here is to growth babies

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they all hate me for my pathetically small bong

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tshirt that says be patient with me i am constantly relearning what it means to be human

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guys i just realized im a subsystem

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I'm in the mood to listen to some green day let's put on our 2021 spotify rewind I know there'll be a lot of green day on there!

(song that reminds us of our integrated former gatekeeper who we miss very much)

(song that reminds us of our integrated former gatekeeper who we miss very much)

(song that reminds us of our ex)

(song that reminds us of our integrated former gatekeeper who we miss very much)

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happy 2023! we have had a mass dormancy and our first (known) fusion and honestly we're fucking reeling!

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if you've ever been been made to feel like you're being unreasonable for seeking basic compassions like attention and kindness. I'm so sorry and I hope you're able to heal and learn your worth

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sometimes the best thing for you is very uncomfortable and painful. but u should still do it. hope this helps

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adulthood is this: submitting a job application on indeed and refreshing your email continuously for thirty minutes afterwards as if any employer would respond let alone hire me in that short of a time

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in love w my trans lesbian gf. billie this is for u

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austin powers receiving cbt: smashing baby

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I'm literally so proud of my system for getting ourselves to the point where we're at right now, it's scary when you hate change but you realize something has got to give. it's so fucking rewarding being able to come out the other side of a shitty situation feeling stronger and way happier. I'm stoned out of my mind and feeling super euphoric good night everyone

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me verging on a panic attack: I don't feel well I don't feel well I don't feel well I don't feel well

jesse, shaking me by my shoulders (from inside my head): WHY NOT?!?!?!!?!

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often horror will ask the question “what if there was a strange man outside your door?” and my answer is Well i would not like that very much. real life is like this, too