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buck/bucky oneshot with heavy pining, angst, hurt no comfort? well, yes.

"John, talk to me," Gale holds him by the shoulders, a soothing motion that does nothing to soothe the rapid beating of his heart.

"You don't wanna know, Buck," he forces out, tries not to cry right then and there.

"What, is it the family? Are you addicted to something? Are you in withdrawl?"

Yes, John wants to say. To you. I'm addicted to every piece of you. To the way your hair falls on your face, to the way you open your mouth when you're thinking, to the way you walk and the curve of your ass, to how stupidly smart you are, to the way you're the best person I've ever met, to your smell, your aftershave, your presence. To you.

I'm in withdrawal every time I can't look at you, even more so when I do. I itch to have you break my heart like a drunk itches for a hungover. I need it. I need it so much it consumes me completely, takes me out. I can't think of anything else. I'm addicted, I'm a junkie.

It's worse then it ever was with alcohol, with cigarettes, with women. It's worse than every addiction I've ever had. And it's so much better all the same.

It's the best feeling I've ever felt, so much so it gnaws at me until there's nothing left but blood and muscle and heart. It's leaves me raw and open and so incredibly high that I feel like I'm overdosing evey time I look at you. It's all I can think about, it consumes my every thought. Keeps me awake, crawls to my dreams.

It's the best thing that has ever happened to me, and it's also the worst.

It's loving you so much I feel like I'm going to die. Like it's going to kill me.

You're killing me, Buck.

And you can already read it here:

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i know for a fact that when clegan have a kid, they both will get way too invested in the little airplane they make every time they spoon feed their kid. their poor kid will just be trying to eat their peas while both dads are too busy having a competition of who makes a better plane sound or who’s has the better imaginary plane. it always ends in a good fight because they start using the food as little ammunition to take down the others plane

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Mav: Thank you, Ice. Thank you too, Cyclone. Cyclone: What did I say? Mav: Nothing, and I can't tell you how much I appreciate it.

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Ice, about Mav: I mean, yeah he’s clearly mentally ill. But you gotta admit it’s a little charming watching him walk around pretending that he’s not.

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After so long.

2004.

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Cyclone: See this? This is my "I don't care" face. Maverick: That's your normal face.

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Link: AO3 Chapter: 4/8 Rating: Explicit Tags: Canon Compliant, Repression, Denial, Roommates, Power Dynamics, Infidelity, there were TWO beds but that won't stop them

Sometimes Bucky still has to sweet talk Gale, comfort him like a skittish horse, tell him it’ll be okay afterward so that Gale won’t call the whole thing off in the frightening clarity that follows. Sometimes Gale just says no. He can’t always say yes or he’ll never stop saying yes. Maybe if he only says it occasionally, the universe won’t notice. Maybe if they feather all the props, their momentum won’t stall out. If they keep it quiet and sporadic, maybe the ground will forget to come up and meet them at all. Other times, Gale can’t keep his hands to himself long enough for Bucky to start convincing him.

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Bucky: We should get married.

Buck: John, we’ve only been together a couple years?

Bucky: I know and I think I’ve shown incredible restraint in waiting this long.

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Buck and Bucky looking at each other »4/?

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Happy birthday, Top Gun Maverick

May 27th 2022, dir. Joseph Kosinski

@thethistlegirl @malewifebillcage

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Buck: Hey, this study says cuttlefish have ability to exert self-control. Bucky: Upstaged by cuttlefish, yet again.

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by starwalker0202

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Bridgerton, 2.07 “Harmony” (2022)

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Look folks. The 80-year-old leather daddies that you see marching in our Pride parade in MPLS with a huge Leather Pride flag watched a ton of their friends die while our government and our society laughed at them. Their Leather families were sometimes their only families. 1/ People who are too young to remember AIDS need to take several steps back and learn some queer history. Those folks deserve our respect, and deserve our collective joy that they can be who they are now, and our collective grief that so many of them are gone.2/ Queers have been indicating to each other through various means since forever that they are queer whether it's where they're wearing their keys, or what color their bandana is, because they were afraid of getting killed by people If they were more overt, and rightfully so. 4/ Pride is the only time where we get to collectively publicly celebrate our queer elders who died so that we could stand here, and take advantage of the full freedom they fought for, such as it is. Erasing kink and especially Leather from Pride erases parts of our history. 5/ If you don't like it, don't go. If you don't want to have conversations with your kids about our dead elders and why those leather daddies are dressed like that, don't go. There are kid-friendly events all over the place. But corporate Pride is not our history. 6/ A lot of people want to enjoy the benefits that our elders fought and died for, without honoring the history, and frankly it's fucking gross. And it's gross that so many people are so loudly proclaiming their ignorance, and their lack of love for our elders. 7/ If you think Leather and kink don't have a place at Pride, you are not my ally. Just say you want to have a big party with all of the free stuff, and a giant parade, without having to learn anything about our history, and leave.

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We lost something as a culture when computers stopped screaming in agony as you connected them to the internet.

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Schitts Creek 3.01: “Opening Night"