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Everything Hurts

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I never thought how different my suicidal thoughts (mental illness) could get after becoming a father... Before it felt like a warm exit light that just stood there in silence at the end of a hall covered in disrepair. Now the door remains, but I've tried cleaning up the best I can in a short while because she's there between me and the door and I can't leave her.... But tonight's the first night without her, and she's still there in the hallway. Right now I feel completely alone and honestly wishing I could hold her right now and sing a song to her that always makes her smile in her sleep. Those moments, are the first time in my life where just for a moment life just wasn't so bad... I can't go because she needs me and where before I struggled, the simple thought of her is what'll bind me here. Where as before, I never had something or someone with enough power to anchor me down like this.

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When you realize you don't actually have friends, just aquaintences.... Fucking hate my life

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The funny thing is that I really should be used to being abandoned by everyone by now, but the sad thing is I might be too broken to even follow after anyone anymore....

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I just want to be happy, is that really such a sin?

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Take care everyone. Thank you for letting me vent in my darkest hours, and thank you for shining some light to those of you I talked to.

May your darkest times end with the flash of the morning sun. Farewell.

-Wolf

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“Why do you beat yourself up so much over little mistakes?”

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