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Idk maybe it's bdsm bc low-key it's like the only other thing I'm passionate about. Chat how do I make this a career when the kink club is over an hour away and closing down?

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!!!VENT POST!!! Don't feel obligated to read.

I often find myself thinking about my teenage years. I know it's normal to feel nostalgic and a since of yearning. But I was EXTREMELY depressed and sewerslidal. I would SH multiple times everyday and even reopen wounds. I had no friends and all my life was online. Never ate never went outside. Truly delusional.

Why do I miss that? Even tho Im older and happier, I want to destroy myself. I feel like I was truly myself when I was the cause of my own demise. How do I stop this? How do fall out of love with my self sabotage?

There's one quote I remember from a super edgy post years ago. "Self destruction is so beautiful."

I really filled my feed with stuff like that for years and it GENUINELY altered my perception of reality. If I am not destroying myself, in pain, or dead, than I am a lie created to suit what's expected from society.

I haven't c^t since 2022....but I want to everyday. Everytime I see pills or sharp objects or anything that can be deemed a weapon. I wanna hurt myself bc I feel like that's the real me.

Ig the real thing is....idk who I am outside self harm. I found love and that's the only reason I made it past 14. But bc of that, I just ended up adopting my love for him as my personality. Who am I when no one else is involved? When I'm not trying to off myself? Who am I ? And how do I convince myself suicide isn't my self fulfilling prophecy. Like .... I wasn't put here to do that. But I f^cked myself up so bad that I still don't know why else I'd be here if not to take my own life

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Maybe it's being brought up believing I'm inferior for my gender and skin color, but white men? PUR

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~~absorb me~~

📸 Ichabod Images

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T.... THE TOUR JUST STARTED!!??!??!

the fact that we're going back and editing the 2009 timeline...

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Ideal gender presentation fr

daily fave ricky 💙

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Lore drop!

Maturing is realizing ppl were 100% valid for judging me in highschool bc I was absolutely diabolical. Wore kitten play collars to school, did .....sus.... Photoshoots in photography, gave a teacher PTSD

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SEETHING

daily fave ricky 💙

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It's a love hate para social relationship

no but seriously imagine it

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Happy birthday Ricky! I hope you have the best day ever!

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;-; I been seeing a lotta mood boards so I decided to maybe give it a shot? Not super bad but not exactly great either. Most these photos are from Pinterest.

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GUYS IT’S RICKY’S BIRTHDAY :D

HE’S OFFICIALLY 36 🥳🎉

Tags: @abiomens @rumoured-whispers @exitwoundsx @eternallytiredsinger

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💀 dude I unironically thought "wasn't his birthday last year???"

a small edit i made for ricky’s birthday!!

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Ok but "Dan and Phil are my dads." Y'all they're too aware

📺 D&P TERRIBLE INFLUENCE OFFICIAL TOUR MERCH 💙

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I love Phil being like, "I can't talk in front of hot boys", and whenever Dan is in costume, he starts to stumble on his words

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Pay $$$$ to get a professional tattoo or spend $15 on Amazon to buy a tattoo gun and prolly f^ck myself up? A grand decision