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Why i want to be skinny

Be more pretty

Feel light

Get attention

wear what i want

have self-confidence

be proud of me

prove that i can do it

prove to those who called me fat that they were wrong

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skinny

when I was dying

I think it is really fucked up

to start a sentence like this

everyone complimented me

on slowly turning to ashes

'You look so pretty dear'

they said

and I heard

'try harder'

when someone is suffering

from lung cancer

You don't light them a cigarette

You don't

You do not hand a suicidal person

a loaded gun

unless you want them to die

so why did you?

why did you handed me a gun?

what was I supposed to do with it?

besides pulling the trigger

when you are sixteen

and at some point

we all are

nothing is as easy as dying

without anyone noticing

dying isn't like it is in the movies

a 60 second sequel

with blood and wounds and lots of noise

it is a quiet long-term-process

You do not recognise the dead

-aeris

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My ED to me after realizing I weigh the exact same as I did a year ago

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I just wanna be happy

Not starving myself to feel pretty

I wanna have a normal life

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I avoided the scale for two weeks. Today I weighted myself and I’m just shooked gonna kms brb🤡

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I just looked at my fucking thighs and this is what I look like,I’m not exaggerating it’s so fucking bad.

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Guess who binged for 5 days straight ✨me✨

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Does anybody has dreams about food or is it just me ?

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My dad is mine personal pr0ana coach 😃🙃

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I‘m 40 pounds lighter than last year but I want to loose more 😕

Everytime I hit my lw I start to b/p

Im now at my lowest weight again I hope I don’t end up in binge cycle pls pray for me 🙏

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why can't I just live off of vape pens and diet Dr Pepper

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🕊

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why the fuck am i like this

I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself 

i could've been so skinny by now but haha guess who fucking gained weight instead

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Made another meme because humor helps with the PAIN of this existence :)

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I’m at my lowest weight 😭

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