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Ties

Blood binds us

Blood makes us stay

Makes us accept what we don’t want to admit

That if it weren’t for blood

You wouldn’t choose me, nor I, you.

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Colombia

It was a warm smile, the caring tone in your voice

I felt for once as if not all were the same.

Worlds apart, would never have met, but the universe provided and made us share a path.

Kinship, it seems, that is only meant to last.

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Ashes

Something burned deep inside, somehow it spread all around.

From the tip of fingers to the sole of my feet.

My feelings once strong and open, like flame, I let them burn, not for you but for me.

It always took me some time, to feel, and with you it all came too easy and I don’t know how.

So I let them grow, I set them free, so they could flow, no longer confined in the deapth of my heart.

Oh, but my mind, that was the hardest part.

Because where once was love, there was also self doubt.

It was aware, always prepared. To extinguish it all.

To put out the fire and let the ashes form.

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Signs

I was not made to bend

for once changed

I wouldn’t spring back into shape.

Th signs were all there

Caution, beware.

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I write.

I found myself posting things that I have written. Some are old and some are new.

Some are about myself or my experiences, others are about my friend’s struggles, my family’s issues, and many many others are about the heartbreak my loved ones have gone through.

To be honest, I haven’t experienced much, but what I have, I’ve written down.

I have put thoughts to paper, I’ve rambled and crossed words on my journal. I have tried to explain and express what I have going on around my head.

I hope they aren’t messy, as I do not write pretty prose, but I do put my heart, maybe a little too much.

Be gentle, it’s not without its scars, but it’s always willing to give and not hold back.

[thindisguise]

Ties

Blood binds us

Blood makes us stay

Makes us accept what we don’t want to admit

That if it weren’t for blood

You wouldn’t choose me, nor I, you.

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Trial

I was a bundle

You and him tied together

But there was never joy.

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Race

It is a race, between you and I.

Who’ll run the fastest?

Who’ll be the first one to leave?

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Wildfire

Do not mistake kindness for weakness.

I am soft and good to you out of love, but I will not stay to be stomped on.

I will burn and spread like fire.

Strong.

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September 19, 2017.

I have wept.

For my country, for the souls.

For the eyes that will not open again, for the stories that will be untold, the loves that have been lost.

I mourn the lives, the smiles and laughs, no walking down the isle, no “ the groom may kiss the bride.”

I cried for the now orphan sons, daughters and for those parents who have lost it all.

When history repeats itself, years later, same day, you ask above, wasn’t it once enough?

Holding a stranger’s hand, helping the ones that have nothing now.

Feeding the elder, entertaining the kids, getting out people with the will to live.

And you weep once more, with a knot on your throat, as you see a fallen country rise once more.

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Colombia

It was a warm smile, the caring tone in your voice

I felt for once as if not all were the same.

Worlds apart, would never have met, but the universe provided and made us share a path.

Kinship, it seems, that is only meant to last.

[thindisguise]

Ashes

Something burned deep inside, somehow it spread all around.

From the tip of fingers to sole of my feet.

My feelings once strong and open, like flame, I let them burn, not for you but for me.

It always took me some time, to feel, and with you it all came too easy and I don’t know how.

So I let them grow, I set them free, so they could flow, no longer confined in the deapth of my heart.

Oh, but my mind, that was the hardest part.

Because where once was love, there was also self doubt.

It was aware, always prepared. To extinguish it all.

To put out the fire and let the ashes form.

[thindisguise]

Signs

I was not made to bend

for once changed

I wouldn’t spring back into shape.

Th signs were all there

Caution, beware.

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Letdown

My eyes searched, my hands touched, my heart pounded

It was all there

My shaky words and breath, waiting for you to speak

To guide, to somehow ease the uncomfortable waters

But your eyes didn’t look back, your hands stayed hidden and your words offered no comfort.

You suggested to walk me back, not to see me safe, I presumed, but hasty for it to end.

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Bluff

Together, that’s what you say you are.

I guess it’s right, you are close in proximity at the same time.

But isn’t a marriage what becomes two, one?

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Hurricane

If I were hurricane, the winds would be my words, that would hit with such force, waiting for the fall.

My tears the lightning, they’d strike and you’d flinch away, as you pretend that they’re not there.

If I were hurricane, it’d be chaos around your head.

As fast as I come, I leave.

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Hurricane

If I were hurricane, the winds would be my words, that would hit with such force, waiting for the fall.

My tears the lightning, they’d strike and you’d flinch away, as you pretend that they’re not there.

If I were hurricane, it’d be chaos around your head.

As fast as I come, I leave.