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yeah the ed is gonna work this time. no i don't have any proof but just trust me bro.

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💗⋆˙⟡ Reblog if you’re an active blog in April.

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reblog if you wear glasses. too many mutuals don't know they have glasses wearers in their midsts

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i’m actually so tired of being resilient can the world just be a little kinder to me instead

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Me asf today

eating thats not very ugw of you 🤨

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God I wish that were me

every girls dream is a thigh gap and i stand by that

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Claim it ❤️

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Fasted for 24 hours today, was extremely tired and sad the whole time because I was *not* able to get sleep. I took half of my usual melatonin dose bc the chews are 10 cals each and I didn't want to break my fast at 11pm, and that just fucked it all to shit. Did not sleep a single wink. So it got to be morning and I thought, "fuck it, I'm already miserable and bedrotting, why not go 24 hours." So that was alright, not really like, acute misery, just a general depressive malaise. When I finally ate at 9:30pm, that was pretty fucking baller, tho, broke my fast with some fucking noodle soup and canned chicken. So many electrolytes. You can always tell when you're really dehydrated cause the sodium hits like fucking crack. So that was good, stayed well within my calorie goal, well under my limit.

Then after breakfast/dinner, I watched a video about deaths caught on streaming video, and this story about a Japanese man who climbed Mt Fuji during the winter with like, zero equipment and preperation and slipped and died had this really tragic context of that he was like, in stage four cancer and lived a really lonely life and had financial troubles. So it's impossible to know for certain, but it wouldn't be out of the question that he did it on purpose(the being ill prepared and dying part, not the slipping and falling). And the stream chat was urging him to go back, and some people even apparently hear a voice on the stream that they interpet to be one of the mountain goddesses telling him to turn back. It just struck me as so tragic and sad and I just want to cry.

And to top it off, my mom has been sick. She's been going through menopause, so I'm hoping it's just that, but she has no appetite and her hair's falling out and she's always very tired. And today she was dizzy, and my dad said he'd take her to the doctor tomorrow if that continued. I hope she doesn't have fucking cancer, like. I don't want her to get worse, but I want her to go to the doctor so we can know for sure. She has a phobia of doctors, so she'll put it off as long as she possibly can. She told me about her hair loss and showed me the bald spot at the back of her head three months ago, and I told her "You should go see a doctor about that" but she just brushed it off as normal hormonal changes.

I'm going to take another melatonin, brush my teeth and go to sleep. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, and I'll wake up in the morning and get some shit done. Sigh.

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*guy who is very clearly going through. something* oh yknow. just a little tired haha