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"Things are about to change. We'll get through it as a family. 'Cause we're a strong family. And nothing is more important than family."

Maybe we're okay, kid? I'll rewrite this whole life and this time there'll be so much love, you won't be able to see beyond it.

(Bone Appendix, Julia Kolchinsky // Backwards, Warsan Shire)

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Sarah Catherine Hook as Piper Ratliff The White Lotus, S03E08 - Amor Fati

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i want to get a master's degree i want to take a cake decorating class i want to dance i want to sing i want to write and remember how to think i want to swim i want to be free

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hello!

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A little belated 9 years of korrasami

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I've been running on empty all throughout this week. People wouldn't leave me be by myself long enough and that overtly exhausted me. I've eaten like shit this week too. There's dishes to be done, there's trash that needed to be taken out on Monday, and the inside of my fridge has never looked messier or sadder. It's ok though, tomorrow good things will happen. Cleaning up, for instance. Tonight, I just need to lie here, feel sorry for letting it get to this point, read a few more pages of The Rise of Kyoshi, and go to sleep.

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i envy ppl who can provide deep analysis about their favorite media and/or characters b/c whenever i like something a lot it looks like:

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THIS IS NOT A DRILL! Check out the latest official illustration of Rangi and Kyoshi from Avatar Generations!!!

I can die happily now… We’re FINALLY seeing these two come to life in official Avatar visual content. It’s been almost 4 years since The Rise of Kyoshi released. Can you believe it??

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I think something we do once we get to our 30s, other than struggling to have pleasant human connections outside of the people we circumstantially meet at work, is to rethink and try to pinpoint the age or moment where to go back in order to have a different, or slightly different outcome today. I think that's the reason we are responding well to the multiverse theme in movies. We like the idea of endless possibilities in life, the core of our ourselves intact, but with minor or major differences, floating around to be peeked at and visited through a window sometimes.

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Can the canon stop using me as a punching bag please that would be great

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Summing up to "life is bleh" is gratuitously easy. I miss points in time, places of mind, and community I can't go back to while simultaneously almost everything around is a to-do chore or a RSVP note. That's what Residente means when in his song René he says "I want to dial 7550822 and see who picks up, and if someone does pick up, I want to tell them I want to go back". I still remember the landline number of my childhood home too. I can virtually go back to different points in the timeline of my life and I know how to make it better for me, but I can't do the same thing to the present, because I'm doing well in a time when many can't say the same, and I've done everything I considered would give me the best outcome, and still life feels off and lonely.

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I will never forgive the bots who send me fake messages.

I see that [1] next to my messages and I am like "FRIEND??? MESSAGE FOR ME???" and then I see a bot. There is no greater betrayal. Stabbing me in the back would hurt less and also be less lethal. 10 000 agonies upon me. Unbelievable.

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I’m dying over this screenshot from when I had a boyfriend in high school before I figured out I’m a lesbian

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It's not even that I've bottled things I'm feeling or thinking, it's more like I'm procrastinating processing everything that's going on in general, in favor of this every day obligation of being functional and working, which I also feel a little shit for. I feel like I can't face some people in my life because I'm falling short at being beneficial to their lives, or in general, falling short at living up to my ideals translated into actions. I also miss a little too many people in my life. I am thankful for my significant other, for the show Abbot Elementary, and for how many new episodes of my podcasts I have yet to listen to while I take care of chores before going into this new week. Also, Hannah and Caro, if I pop up on your feed and you're reading this, y'all are some of the people I miss talking to.