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All I hear is don't slip back into the void, don't go back to the old you.

Well fuck you, guess what I'm going to do?

Old me didn't let people treat me like dirt. So that's who I'm going to be again and trust me none of you will like it at all.

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Last night I had the worst panic attack I have ever had.

I cried because I was in so much pain, I coulding breathe and I thought I was going to die.

I have no one to go to talk about because they don't do shit all to help.

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I am struggling with my own problems and you know who actually helps? Not anyone I help. Even though they say they will they never do.

It's slap in the face, it's a great feeling.

It's the fact that people know that I am dealing with my demons and they choose to continue to think about themselves and they choose to continue to ask for my help.

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I give my opinion willing and freely.

Why do people ask for mine? Because I won't sugar coat it and I'll be honest with you.

When you choose to go in the same cycle after hearing what I have to say multiple times, it's going to get to a point where I don't care.

You are no self inflicting yourself in pain and suffering.

There is so much I can do to help people but now I'm not choosing to.

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I always get the yes

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I just can't do this anymore.....

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How to tell it’s getting bad again

Physical pains (sore jaw, old injuries acting up)

tired tired tired tired

Can’t think/can’t stop thinking

Sleeping too much/not enough

Early waking

Can’t make eye contact

Picking or scratching at skin, nails, hair, etc

Forgetful

Sex repulsed or sex obsessed

Lonely in crowds

Unjustified assumptions (my friends all hate me)

Too much/too little food

Everything tastes bland?

Headcolds/the flu out of nowhere

Distancing yourself

Spending too much time in bed

Not showering/brushing teeth/brushing hair/taking care of your body

Not able to do laundry

Not turning in assignments

Forgetting about assignments

Zoning out

Defensive

Overly emotional/painfully numb

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It starts small then hits you all at once…

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I don’t want to get out of bed, I don’t want to be alive

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Maybe we feel empty because we leave pieces of ourselves in everything we used to love.

R. M. drake (via difficult)

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Boys cry Cigarettes do kill, parents lie, boats sink, flowers die, Life goes on, with or without you.

sad facts that come along with existing (via bl-ossomed)